I’ve certainly been having my fair share of retrograde Mercury pain in the ass type problems over the past three weeks or so! First came tons of daily Comment spam from hell which I’d never ever had before. A couple of hours after that started I discovered I could barely get myself logged in to TRANSITIONS. After much strangeness and difficulty, I finally got logged into my Administrator page only to discover that 98% of all my tools in there suddenly weren’t working! This is the reason why I haven’t been writing during the past week. It was sheer torture maneuvering around behind the scenes within my blog with my tools not working properly.
After a few days of this craziness I called a computer tech guy I trust to come to my house and do a once-over and general inner/outer cleaning on my puter. $65.00 later my PC was fine and cleaned up, but I was still not able to get my Admin. tools to work, so I wrote to WordPress Support. Long story short, I installed Firefox web browser (thanks to their suggestion) and it was a perfect match to the recent upgrades WP made two or three weeks ago. Ta da…computer AND internet problems finally solved and fixed and operating better than ever actually. Typical Mercury retrograde problems however.
But, interspersed with those more electronic and technical frustrations and confusions has also been a strange sense of free-range Dark nastiness floating around and literally looking in home windows. 
WTF?! I’ve seen some ultra weird stuff in my lifetime, but this was pretty strange and weird feeling emotionally like nothing I’ve experienced before. For one day and evening I repeatedly clairvoyantly saw (which to me is no different from normal vision and seeing physical things) what looked like a dark-colored non-human head or face floating quickly back and forth outside both of my bedroom windows. Sometimes this looked like a dark head moving rapidly past my windows, other times the damned thing stopped, turned, and actually looked in my bedroom window/windows at me! There was no body or even neck or shoulders…just the head and face.
It did not have that old familiar feeling of Professional Evilness or Darkness that I am intimately familiar with (see A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution), but was a greatly watered-down version of it. The other thing I found very interesting was that I got the distinct impression that this thing—whatever it was—could NOT even enter my house. I mention this aspect only because over the past decade of ascension years, I’ve been acutely aware of how the energy on Earth has been changing, changed. All of my life the energies on Earth have been profoundly Dark or negative, but with the start of the physical ascension process around 1999, that planetary ruler-ship has been painfully dismantled and transmuted so Light could even get back in here again. (Not 100% of the negativity mind you, but enough to get the ball rolling uphill, which it’s been doing for years now and there is no going back. I’m going to write more about this aspect soon.) Since 1999 this ascension process has been slowly dismantling the Dark and replacing it with Light and getting the planet and humanity (those that want to that is) back to its original blueprint.
As a First Wave Lightworker I’ve participated in this dismantling and transmuting of the Dark/negative energies during Phase One of the ascension process. Being a lifelong psychic/sensitive/clairvoyant, I’ve been excruciatingly aware of this process of literally energetically taking back the planet by transmuting enough of the negative energies so that Light could pour back in like cosmic liquid Energies from Aquarius’ water jug. 
I’ve seen and felt the dominate Dark, negative energies that have run this planet for so long slowly be dissected by incarnate Lightworkers until it was broken up into pieces with bits of Light finally in between. Each year we broke up more and more, transmuted more and more, until finally the scales tipped from predominately Dark, to predominately Light. I’ve seen, watched, felt, and been psychically attacked by some of these iceberg sized free-floating chunks of Darkness or negativity during 2005, 2006, 2007, and 2008. But by mid-2008, encountering these huge searching chunks of negativity had diminished greatly. 2009 they were no longer able to reach me existing vibrationally above them, which was a first for me in my entire life! There is nothing better…
So when I saw and felt this weird dark featureless head/face floating pass my bedroom windows the other day, while not feeling any threat from it but more a sense of curiosity, I realized that many of us are now existing within a really new and different space and energy that is far above the old lower Darkness and negative energies that we all incarnated into. (I’m going somewhere with all this so hang in here with me.)
The next thing in this line of unfolding retrograde energies was what Karen Bishop wrote in her May 2, 2010 WINGS. Yesterday I wrote about it and other things about her that I ended up deleting because all it did, and all her WINGS report did to me, was drop me back down into the ugly shit-pit again. Hell, I can do that all on my own thankyouverymuch!
When a planet/planets go retrograde, it is the phase for all of us to go back, re-do, re-work, re-think, re-feel, re-evaluate whatever it is that individually we each need to at that time. These retrograde re-do’s can be physical, emotional, mental, psychic, ethereal or all of them! In my case it has been physical and very emotion and etheric as well, and writing about it all is the mental aspect of it for me.
In the end, after doing my retrograde re-do’s, I refuse to let Karen’s personal life lessons, emotional pain, confusions and whatever else pull me off track. She blatantly projected her personal stuff out onto her readers (again) and it pissed me off—which it shouldn’t have but it did. See I can own my silly and embarrassing crap and USE IT. Lower frequency crap in/crap out, learn what you can from it and keep moving forward. Spoken like the determined old Capricorn I am. So in the end this Karen B. business is a learning for each of us about ourselves and where we are now, how empowered we are, and most importantly in my opinion is how much we already know all on our own, and discernment. This is us realizing how much we know and what we want to do at this time. Now that is what Mercury retrogrades (and other 
planets) force us to do; stop, go back and re-think , re-work, re-do certain things from an internal perspective, hire a professional if needed to aid you in cleaning up whatever you’ve got that currently needs clearing and cleaning up yet again. Then when the planet goes direct (forward motion) you and I are not dragging around useless, outdated, negative, silly stuff in any form that would slow us down tremendously and cause us more pains and problems. All hale the much-needed cleaning and clearing retrograde phases.
I hope my weird multidimensional retrograde tale makes sense and maybe also sheds some Light on a few other things as well.
Denise
May 9, 2010
jlcrowley
/ May 11, 2010I felt the same way after reading KB’s post, but I also remembered (at least what I have learned in my experience) it may seem like we are all on the same ride, defined by the same process, but we really aren’t. Our reality is entirely our own, of our own souls creation. I have never, ever followed someone elses path or just believed what someone said. I consult people (Indigo’s, Creatives, Empaths) and if anyone ever comes to me saying ‘the psychic told me’ I always say, check your own gut, always. I knew when I read the May 2nd post, it wasn’t quite in line for me, but I dont necessarily think she was off base, the overall tone was just a bit down. It did serve its retrograde purpose though, and I wont put my “shit” on KB for it. I enjoy all of the posts from everyone and take it as I find it.
algenrover
/ May 11, 2010Hi Denise
I am a regular receiver of Karen’s energy alerts. But surprisingly this was the first time I did not recive the energy alert of May 2, 2010. I came to know about it on may 9 from a different site. I read it there and found it exactly the way you felt about it. infact last year also she wrote about her soon to be physical absence from this dimension and I specifically asked you about her decision. I sincerly wish that what you wrote about her latest alert and other things about her and should have posted on your blog instead of deleting it. Your postings are always eyeopener.
I do not know whether karen is aware of what she writes in her WINGS as many of the times they show inconsistencies in her outlook and thought process. First she says she has shifted to a new place in Colo rado to establish Angel dust to work with large group of people/angels in coming days as per her divine plan and then other times she says it’s time for her to leave the planet and, several other such inconsistent things.
It seems, at times, all these outer validation protocols like KB’s e-alerts and those (channeleed messages)of many also prove futile to utter dismay of seekers.
best regards
Algen
Denise
/ May 11, 2010Hi Algen,
Yes Karen B’s increasing “inconsistencies” and outright contradictions from paragraph to paragraph are terribly obvious, and imo, all of this business with her has increased dramatically since early 2009. Also, I didn’t receive an email notification about this May 2nd WINGS either, but I chalked it up to Mercury retrograde, which it probably was.
Karen herself has publically mentioned that she used to be on some anti-depressant medication. I’ve also known, intimately, people who are bi-polar and I’ve wondered about this also because there are many similarities. It just makes me sad and also frustrated, but that’s my stuff concerning Karen.
Hugs,
Denise
lamplighter2
/ May 10, 2010Denise, I have been checking in with your site for some time, because not only do I love how and what you write, but you do it relatively frequently. I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for saying ‘out loud’ what I had been trying to tamp down for a week, in regard to Karen’s post. I have wrestled with her writings for a year or more now, assuming it was my personal issue with what she was transmitting, but when this latest came about, I was stunned, then angry. I could not seem to get past her very obvious projections. So many hang on her every word, and I know some were frightened and disturbed, for her and themselves.
Regardless, your ‘un’rant somehow (and immediately) helped to release whatever crapola I was holding on to, so I want to thank you for that.
The comments here also helped me get past my Mother’s Day Hangover, which for me meant that even though I had a lovely day with my daughter, cousin and aunt, I was (am) aching, hurting and crying every time I stop long enough to ascertain how I was (am) feeling. I am very sensitive to earthquakes, but had passed it off early Sunday as more solar flares, Ascension, or as Lauren G calls it “electrocution by God.” I was finally feeling better than I had earlier last week and was rather taken aback that I felt so low so quickly. Earthquakes lay me out every time, as do much of Gaia’s and other cosmic dances. Hope one day, like you, I can process them better and quicker. Again, thanks for all you do to help keep many of us upright with sails unfurled!
Denise
/ May 11, 2010lamplighter2,
Hi and thank you so much for your kind words…they mean a lot to me for many reasons. One of them is because I’ve loved and been terribly grateful to Karen for helping me repeatedly with her Energy Alerts primarily. I keep deleting what I’m writing here even because I don’t want to be misunderstood…what a pain! Karen’s just got more personal ascension transmutation work to do in my opinion and there is nothing wrong with that at all. But, because so many read her, I feel she should have dealt with her issues in a different manner so as to not scare and/or confuse her many (and many of them paying!) readers.
I’m going to publish a new post/article about what so many of us felt around Mother’s Day, which I think was a tremendous amount of panic and fear loosed by many people in Indonesia over that 7.2 earthquake…and who can blame them after all that they’ve already been through in that area!!! If one is sensitive at all, one picks up or receives this type of emotional psychic broadcast immediately. On top of this, now in Phase Two as more of us connect to each other, the Earth, the Collective and so on simply because we’re clearer (like clear crystal) energetically ourselves, we’re perceiving what Earth is going through AND what the masses are fearing, freaking out over, and projecting etc. This is another big test and learning for us who feel at these higher levels. I’ll post this one today.
Another aspect to these Phase Two earthquakes is that many of us sense, feel that they are indeed different somehow. I’ve lived through so many earthquakes here in southern California over the decades, but I got really scared when the Easter (2010) Baja 7.2 quake hit here and rocked for about 45 seconds. I was actually surprised by my reaction which made me think twice about that earthquake. I discovered that now in Phase Two, these quakes (and volcanoes) are different and are creating changes both physically and energetically. I think we’re sensing that now and these earthquakes (Earth changes) affect us more powerfully and more directly and our bodies feel what Earth is going through like never before. Something new for us to learn and deal with in Phase Two.
I too wish that other teachers/writers would produce articles more often than once a month but I know how hard it can be to do so. But, I’ll try to write about different things more often so there’s a slightly wider range of information for a wider range of readers/ascenders etc. Some of it won’t be as interesting to everyone but some other people may find it helpful or at least interesting.
So thanks also for mentioning this.
And Lauren Gorgo is just great and I really enjoy her humor and ability to be so earthy, honest, grounded, and anchor very high Light/information for all of her many readers, myself included. I too laughed when I read her perfectly correct term “electrocution by God”.
That’s what the “rewiring” has felt like to me!
Hugs and ESPAVO,
Denise
PS
My gwad, I just realized that Karen’s May 2nd article went out to her readers on May 2nd!!! Duh…! Like I said, I didn’t receive an email notification about this particular article of hers and thought it just another in a long series of retrograde Mercury glitches. BUT…if Karen’s article was published on May 2nd, then that ALSO explains much of what certain people have been psychically picking up for a week before the Mother’s Day earthquake! Gads I only realized that her article has been out there since the 2nd, affecting people and no doubt adding to the fears and confusions. I’ll have to double check, but I read her article for the first time on either May 8th or 9th. Just another piece to consider why so many of us have been sensing waves of fear and lower stuff for the week leading up to Mother’s Day.
lamplighter2
/ May 11, 2010Thanks for your thoughtful response and update, I look forward to your next post regarding earthquakes, etc. To note, there was a Sumatran earthquake earlier last week that registered 6.5 I think, so these earthly rumblings have been building up in that area. I am not sure if the quakes are different, or if my reaction to them are what has changed. Not sure it matters, but I hope I do find the tools, strength, whatever I need to keep upright as things get more intense. I am, I concede, a tad nervous that although I am willing to remain here and do whatever it is I am suppose to be doing during this transition, I would like to not feel like a Zombie with arthritis throughout the process. I am having a rough time keeping my perspective (vibration) in a higher place when my body feels like it is being drilled into dust.
WRT to Karen B and my reactions therein, I also did not receive the email, but was told by another the next day. After I read it, I was relieved that many had not received it, for whatever retrograde purposes. But it was not until last night when I read your post that I understood fully my own reactions. I too am forever grateful to Karen for having helped guide me on the Ascension path starting a few years ago; a time when I was extremely vulnerable, she kept the torch lit. I immediately projected that previous vulnerability on to her other readers that might have (and did) feel despair at her words. But in reading your words I was able to finally see two very important things: That it was OK for me to be upset at her (that whole LnL thingy) and that NO ONE is walking this Ascension Path in perfection. Or at least what I oft-times define as perfection. Too often I feel like I have fallen off the Ascension wagon, that I am not worthy, that I have not come far enough fast enough to earn my place in evolution.
Your post helped to call BS on that, and I remain infinitely grateful for you, Karen and so many others who have and will continue to inspire me to believe in myself, and connect with humanity within my humanity.
Have a great, full day!
LL (not to be confused with LnL ;0))
Denise
/ May 11, 2010lamplighter2,
“…that NO ONE is walking this Ascension Path in perfection…”
Can I get an a men to that! I don’t think it is even possible and most certainly not expected of us! We lay that heavy silliness on ourselves unfortunately. But thanks to people like you who are honest enough to say all you have, that helps all the rest of us realize it is MORE than enough that we’re simply doing and living through the ascension process.
I’m trying to not beat myself up any longer over not looking and feeling super fabulous while I’ve been struggling through the ascension process. I’m trying to learn how to give myself, my body, my now overweight and exhausted middle-aged body a break and be grateful and proud of what I’ve accomplished in my physical vehicle. So I don’t look so hot at this point… by gwad I did it.
Hugs and ESPAVO,
Denise
crystalwood
/ May 11, 2010Hi Denise,
I lived in the San Fernando Valley for a long time. I left to help family sort things out after our dad died and now I’m looking at going back.
Thing is, after the 1994 quake and its year of unrelenting aftershocks I moved over to Vegas. Long story short it turns out I was experiencing ptsd. I had thought such things were b.s. but they most assuredly are not. Eventually I felt better enough to return to the Valley and go on about business.
I say this to make the point that just recently something became clear: the energy of the L.A. area is such that it strongly amplifies any uncomfortable feelings a person might have about earthquakes. It’s not at all that a person is overreacting. It’s that the ongoing inundation of high pitched earth energy around there (plus the people energy), and the ongoing stress of not knowing what is going to happen in the next 30 seconds…those just aren’t optimum conditions for a human being.
This figuring out loosens the hook of guilt (which come to find out is a significant aspect of ptsd too) and “less than” feelings I’ve been on for years about being extremely uncomfortable about earthquakes. It isn’t just me – or anybody – it’s the overall conditions that are extreme. Bottom line, our feelings are valid and then some.
Denise I know you know this stuff already and you seem like a person who wholly respects and listens to her feelings. That’s just one, one! of the reasons your blog is Special.
So the reason for this comment is basically just to reinforce myself on what I learned. Because somehow, amazingly, the new learning is starting to dissipate some of that old unwanted earthquake energy that was swirling around close to me. Thank You All That Is!
California is so beautiful in so many ways. Lots and lots of light, you know? It’s a real nice place to be if a person can figure out how to do it!
Thank you for allowing me to express.
p.s.
It looks like Karen’s Options piece wasn’t mailed to her subscribers. Must be for a reason.
Denise
/ May 11, 2010crystalwood,
Hi and welcome to TRANSITIONS. Thanks also for your kind words.
In A Lightworker’s Mission I mentioned about how I eventually realized that – for a while – I’d had a mild form of PTSD from some of the extremely negative and difficult Phase One ascension-related experiences I went through from 2000 to 2004. I not only went through what all I did back then, but after 2004 I had to do even more inner cleaning to transmute the trauma (PTSD) of what I’d been through! No rest for the weary…
I hear you about the super intense energies of California. It’s like the whole state is on meth and fried!
Seriously, the energy here has always vibrated high and it, along with the “Santa Ana” winds and earthquakes, are enough to make some people really weird and imbalanced. I think much of that is changing over the past few years, or, we’ve increased vibrationally to better deal with it. Here’s another possibility for you to just consider about this okay?
A lot of people have experienced past lives/past deaths in locations where earthquakes, volcano’s, tsunami’s etc. took out great numbers of people, including themselves. Atlantis going down is another mass trauma event that’s still very much in the current Collective and is getting triggered now by the current Earth changes. I know a lot of us have past life death memory imprints from very ancient Earth changes that are currently being reactivated so we can, for one remember, and two, heal or transmute and get free in our lives and time now. This ancient Collective PTSD Earth changes fears and trauma is very much connected with almost 12,500 years ago or the Age of Leo when the huge planetary disaster happened, and now, exactly opposite that time at the beginning of the Age of Aquarius. It’s something we’re all having to transmute and clear individually and collectively for the species and planet.
You might find Barbara Hand Clow’s book CATASTROPHOBIA: The Truth Behind Earth Changes In The Coming Age Of Light (2001) interesting. I certainly did.
Hugs,
Denise
balsamicmoon
/ May 11, 2010Thank you for mentioning Atlantis, Denise–because remnants of fear and guilt from this time keep resurfacing. How do you recommend that we transmute and clear these energies?
Balsamic Moon
Denise
/ May 12, 2010balsamicmoon,
Just dive in and feel. That is the quickest way. Do NOT judge self, but just feel and give thanks to that past/other self and life. The guilt must, must be released because it can become an addiction just like anything else! Also know that you are not alone in the Atlantian past life healing/transmutation/releasing work as there are millions of them reincarnate here now to do the same thing. We’ve all got our stuff now, so “just do it”.
Hugs,
Denise
allesisliefde
/ May 13, 2010Dear Denise, Balsamic Moon and all,
Hi:) I recently found this channeled jeshua (jesus<3) writing mind-blowingly helpful in a way that has really stuck on the issue of Atlantis. It's really helped me with guilt, in particular, and judgement. It definitely shifted my thinking of atlantis as only a paradise; an idea "little I" was not yet aware of. The description here is of the latter stages of atlantis when abuse of power, authoritarianism, and f'd up experiments on all forms of biological life were done! Holy duality, batman! Answers the question, for me, of why so many of us have been fighting the power and being on the other end of things in one form or another ever since:). Another tidbit from this piece that has helped me see that part of my self/my darkness is the fact that the sexes were equal in Atlantis, also in those end times of other imbalance and power abuse. I know this as true from certain relationships in this lifetime.(like try almost all! denise, are almost all of our soul reconnections in this lifetime now, from that time period or is that a totally different time than the Egyptian/Leo time??:)Sometimes, in "this" lifetime my experiences of femminism/ female power have had the energy of "You'd better respect me as equally as my Atlantean brother here or I will mutate your genes you lowly worm." Really though! Not a Goddess/divine femminine kind of shared/equal power (though I have experienced that also thankfully:).
the judgement maybe could tie back into the L 'n L thread…one thing jeshua mentions in this piece is the extreme contempt and disregard for the "earth souls" we had as atlanteans (after authoritarianism and shit started to go terribly wrong). Maybe some of the not feeling l'n l for folks is to re-feel this contempt feeling in order to purge it? I think it's also what you said Denise, about not feeling it for people who aren't where we're personally at and that that's totally okay. I get that too. What do others think about this?
Thanks for the link to Barbara Hand Clow's book on the mid-life crisis, Denise! It's on its way to me:)
very fondly,
Em
http://www.jeshua.net/newage/newage4.htm
Denise
/ May 13, 2010Em,
I’ve often referred to our times now (and it’s been blatantly obvious here in the USA) that the patriarchal rulers around the planet are many reincarnated old Atlantians whose greed and imbalances helped to bring the place down. Think about our scientists today, the chemical companies, the oil situations, the banks, the mega corporations, the politician etc. etc….now think about how similar their lower, negative, greedy, power-hungry and obsessive consciousness and ways are today! I’ve called the current lower world and it’s leaders and scientists The Downfall Of Atlantis Part Two because that is exactly what it is. Same lower, self-absorbed jerks from Atlantis trying to play out their same stupid agenda’s today that killed Atlantis. These ancient and super ancient karma and other unresolved issues, projections, and residual emotional energies from past-lives and times are ALSO what those of us living the ascension process have been transmuting – within ourselves – and portions of it within the planetary Collective. It’s no easy task doing this type of Inner Work in ourselves…it’s even more difficult clearing, cleaning, transmuting these very ancient trauma’s and damages still left within many people and the planet’s Collective! But this is what’s been happening.
You’ll enjoy Clow’s book.
Hugs,
Denise
Note:I just read Barbara Hand Clow’s May 13, 2010 Taurus New Moon report. She talks about this very thing going way back to ancient traumas that now are being felt and transmuted by us, in us, through us with the Earth. Please read her report which I always quote and share here.
jlcrowley
/ May 12, 2010I lived in LA proper for 7 years and now do half time there half time Massachusetts. I left recently the day of the first earthquake in LA. I had been saying for a few days before there was going to be one very soon, and knew for awhile it was coming.. 4am the morning I leave there was the one downtown..
I love LA, its amazing, but I just can’t be there all year round anymore. Circumstances forced me to go to Massachusetts for now so I look at it as I am being protected. If I want to get anything done I need to be in peaceful energy. La is play time.
LA did seem to be getting more intense. More people asking questions, more strange things happening, more people having emotional problems and major life changes. You can feel the pulse there. Id often look out at the city skyline from my 5th floor bedroom and you could see and feel the energy swirling and chaotically moving around. It is a great place, a mix. I think the polarity is heightening right now, everything is really becoming visible.
jessjossjjj
/ May 10, 2010Hi Denise
I hope you don’t mind me telling you and all beautiful souls here that Lauren C Gorgo just posted her latest Galactic Times
Here’s the link:
http://galactic-times.blogspot.com/2010/05/frequency-of-free-choice-arcturian.html
Please give me your thoughts on this message Denise, as I am now still in the void and feel so disconnected so basically I just can’t feel anything now
Thank you so much
Much Love
jj
theocacao
/ May 10, 2010Well,Denise, retro got me, too–I was going to reply to this post and couldn’t log in–wouldn’t accept me even though they said I existed and were refusing a password change–but, I finally (Capricorn-style) stubborned my way through it–lol
And, all I wanted to say was, Re: Wings post–I got the reaction of “NO, NO, NO, this is all wrong!” when I read it, too. But, I go back to what you and Steve Rother have repeatedly said, “If it does not resonate with you, or you get a bad gut feeling about what is said, discard it.” Rother has said that about his own channelings, that you shouldn’t take everything without running it through your own filters to see if it resonates with your own vibration and understanding. So, yeah, I think we are at a rung in that ladder where it was off.
Hugs to all
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Hi theocacao,
Yeah I’ve been sensing, feeling, and reading between the lines with Karen well over a year now and things fluctuate with her, (read between those lines
) which I totally get and understand and sense why. This is why I’ve always pushed people to learn how to discern energies and information (written and spoken etc.) for themselves. Otherwise people can be lead all over the place and never even know it! Learning how to discern or read energies and people, and also the energies people have within themselves is just one more of the things that this ascension/compressed evolutionary process is triggering in people. With this higher perceptive tool, people simply KNOW for themselves if something is true or not, or if it is distorted, or partially distorted which is usually the case, and they also know what is not distorted and often why.
So, discernment is always it at the top of the list for all of us. With this ability comes High Heart consciousness which allows you to know what’s what at higher levels and why. My hands are tied as to how much I can and will say about Karen now…people are going to have to discern for themselves and glean the very accurate bits in her WINGS and dodge the other bits. I would expect everyone to do that with everything/everyone they read, including me.
Hugs,
Denise
stubeing
/ May 10, 2010Hi Denise,
Yeah, firefox is good, loaded it up a few weeks back.
I got the email telling me about Karens latest (2nd May), I had a strong feeling not to read it. I have been getting more and more disillusioned with her writings, can’t relate to her anymore.
I’ve been seeing many white blurry figures running about my house, I see them out the corner of my eye, and then am able to see them full on for a fraction of second.
Love and gentle winged hugs,
Stu
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Hi Stu,
Here comes a read between the lines from me for not only you, but everyone else reading this. The two things are connected.
Love you bunches,
Denise
stubeing
/ May 11, 2010Hi Denise,
I know what you mean my dear friend!
Had a more obvious longer event last night of someone walking in to my kitchen!
Love and gentle winged hugs,
Stu
sulaireland
/ May 11, 2010hi stu – just to reply to your post – i have been seeing flashes of white out of the corner of my eye for a while now – notice them more when it is dark – they are mainly from my right eye and they dart about – i cant actually say they are figures – more like blobs of light – sounds fairly similar though –
thanks denise for reply – the bit about love and light was made as a tongue in cheek comment – but thanks anyway -
sorry about the odd names – had to re-register and use another name so not quite sure who i am now – seems to be a reflection of my life -
does anyone ever wonder what this is all about – i dont mean the ascension bit but generally – after we’ve done all the ascending etc etc and been working towards this for the past thousands of years – do you think we will be told we were the entertainment factor – it seems like a lot of hard work, angst etc etc – and after it all – what do we do then – find it hard to put into words except when its inside my head – its like something that should be really simple has turned into something terribly complicated!!
sulaireland
/ May 10, 2010hi – first- totally unrelated to the comments – hooray – i have just managed to re-register – thanks denise -
interesting stuff about the floating dark head – i have been seeing some odd stuff but more with my internal vison than externally –
the last week has been pretty horrid – been feeling very down and have had the old waiting for something awful to happen feeling – have also noticed that i am feeling quite anti everyone which isnt good when i feel i should be feeling love and light!!!
i havent slept much for the past 10-12 years and recently when i wake up my mouth has been really dry and weird – not sure what that is all about – also still having really bad neck pain on right side –
even when you know whats causing something its still – a pain in the neck – !!!
hope everyone copes ok with all this clearing etc etc –
actually its really interesting to see what happens next -
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Susan,
Let us all know (again, sorry) what name you’re using okay? Susan, Susie? I’m glad the re-register business worked.
I loved your two lines about feeling “…something awful to happen…” as I’ve been feeling it too. I’m hoping what jj said about the 7.2 quake she had on Mother’s Day in Java will release some of this but I’m still feeling that tension and pressure like another larger magnitude quake is near…somewhere.
The other line you said that I love and can totally relate to is about not feeling the “…love and light…” for every person on the planet! Sweetie, you’re not supposed to. That’s old lower Piscean Age control tactics! You and I and all of us will feel the L n’ L (love and light) for people who have done their inner work too and are vibrating higher and faster. No more co-dependent and/or enabling behaviors from people like us. The L n’ L will be all over the place when there are better vibrational and consciousness matches between more people.
My mom has has the super dry mouth thing (when she sleeps and awakes in the mornings) for years now. I’m having it in my eyes, not my mouth, but it too is a major pain. It may be hormonal, and/or it may be another one of those strange ascension symptoms. I suspect it’s both. You might try a Chiropractor just to see if that helps with the neck and also the severe dry mouth business. Just a suggestion. Hang in there.
Hugs,
Denise
nadeanna
/ May 9, 2010Denise, thank you. I’ve been having a difficult time trying to sync up with the Kentucky energy and finally decided last week to give up and see about going back to California. Such a weight was lifted off of me when I found out I could have my old job back. I’ve literally had two weekends of tornado warnings while out running errands and last weekend we had 17 inches of rain!
Craziness indeed. Where I am feels like eddies of darkness due to a near vacuum of high vibration. In a much more densely populated area, there were just too few to have ‘caught up’ to all the amazing changes happening other places. I am being selfish and going back home, and have hopefully learned some valuable lessons about ‘detouring’ and letting oneself go with the flow, even if it means going halfway across the country and back in a few months time. Travel light, or maybe have light, will travel?
Denise
/ May 10, 2010nadeanna,
Good for you, trust your inner senses and guidance and move to where it is that you’re supposed to be now. I’m in SoCal and it’s no pick-nick here either! I don’t think anywhere is however, only because it’s not quite time yet. But if you’re supposed to move, then move. Out here you’ll have to deal with the occasional earthquake and general lower falling away process, and yet, if you are vibrating in a higher space then you’ll just roll with the earth changes and other system’s falling and dying now and be just fine. Those of us who’ve chosen to live through the ascension process, done our inner work and transmuted what we needed to, have NOT done all that to then die in some natural disaster! What would be the point in that, unless we intentionally used a natural disaster to exit our bodies and also to experience all of that too.
“Have light will travel.” Loved that!
Hugs,
Denise
adamancy
/ May 9, 2010Hey Denise,
The dark energy floating head thing was really weird. I too had seen some weird stuff of that dark energy in the astral realm too and whenever I woke up, I’m like WTF. I always get the feeling that the leftover dark stuff are more curious of us lightworkers, but they can’t get near us anymore since we’re becoming energetically powerful day by day. To tell the truth, I always get the feeling that the dark stuff wanted our attention because we lightworkers literally glow in the dark lol.
However, this is good news that light energies is now pouring in and the darkness is growing thinner and thinner. If we accomplished this much this year, imagine how much we can accomplished in 2011 with even more light energies pouring in. We just have to invite that light energies here on the Earthplane to ourselves!
Yeah, the retrograde energies drives me up the wazoo too, but I never lost sight of getting Earth back to her original blueprint. Lately, I’m growing weary of most channeled messages and other people complaints that ascension isn’t happening fast enough. I think with the promise of ascension and it’s benefits, people forget that we still have to deal with the 3-D crap here as our final endurance test to a 5-D world once 2012 comes closer.
Much love,
Rakka
loulu79
/ May 9, 2010Hi Denise and all,
I find this post once again is dead honest… very real and down to earth. I resonate with it too. Thanks so much Denise.
I do sense a dread of caution and other dark issues within myself still lingering… but I also sense this is the Nurturing moment during the Retro period… to transmute and look at it blank & dead honest with unconditional Love… clearing away my stuff and my shit.
I sense that… whatever communication I send out must be re-planned and re-think things through. I sense dreadful need to be cautious… until May 11th… even though I want to badly. Whatever I said about Karen was not out of spite. I meant well for her. I feel her pain… but I understand its her pain and I honor it. I found myself dreading death… when it may not be my personal “dreading death”… but hers… so I let that go.
The Retro Period also feels like a holiday: just CAN’T communicate to certain people just yet… CAN’T go forth on a new project… CAN’T move forward quite yet. This is such a wonderful time for ‘retrospection’ and patience… seeing where I’m going in the unknown… acknowledging my uncertainty… be more and more clear of why I’m here on Earth to do and be and have…
And to all those in the same situation with these sudden quakes like JJ… I hear you. I had insomniac moments due to terrible allergy sneezes from God/Goddess knows what. I just don’t know the cause anymore.
Namasté to you all… and if anyone sense any neediness or issues coming from me… please forgive me as well. I sense it too and I’m working on it. ^_^’
Hugs and lots of Love
Lou Ann
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Not a drop Lou Ann.
I wish, I want a Heart and Hug smilies for Comments. I’ll telepathically send that desire to WordPress. 
Hugs and ESPAVO,
Denise
Renee-kiflow
/ May 9, 2010Hey All,
First of all I have to say I LOVE reading all of Denise’s and Tieshla’s replies to one another on all posts, its just the best! the way you both describe your experience and write it…. is perfect, its real!! its like a hands up in the air “yesssss some one else understands me” and at the same time have a bloody good belly laugh! Yes Tieshla, Lauren C Gorgo is also someone I align and relate with too, she’s a gem! I totally agree with what eveyones has been saying re: Karen’s Wings post, say no more couldn’t have put it better myself…such a relief reading what others say,makes one know they are not alone…. (guess that’s the point really, we are moving into our unity
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I live In Australia and felt the energetic shifts around the earthquake (in Indonesia) as you mentioned Denise (that you used to feel…) I struggle to find peace at my core of late, as I so feel the intensity in my physical body, the nervous tension, pressures, headaches, emotional madness… doom and gloom and fears… trying to find a way to feel ‘safe’ so this doesn’t effect me on the level it has been of late, as I’m finding it hard (or challanging maybe?) to “function” in the world as it is (at the mo as Tieshla said “old worldly”) relate to “normal” peeps have “normal” convo’s… so damn sensitive, I feel like a kid learning to walk, got one step sorted but the next step is unknown and freaky…and then at the same time being in these final “death throws” its like I’m remembering all parts of “who I am/was” all simultaneously at the same time whoooooo!! full on baby !!!
Anyways having all the amazing spiritual unlifting beings on here is such a help,reading the experience’s of all the “wavers” and discovering my inner “indigo” so thankyou..
Much love Renee X
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Renee,
Thanks sweetie and I too love reading whatever treasure Tieshla writes in that way that only she can! If we can’t be honest and laugh are everything we’re living, learning, and struggling through, then it’s all just TOO MUCH. So, we share and we enlighten, and we curse, and laugh and keep moving forward. What else is there to do for most of us anyway?
Your post has inspired me to write a bit about what this Phase Two is all about and how those of us who are ultra-sensitives, sensitives, empaths etc., are really going to have to learn to remain in the eye of the storm! I’ve been a bit concerned about this for myself because I feel other people’s stuff and fears so loudly…and I don’t always deal with it very gracefully I must admit. But that’s my lesson and learning about how to feel AND not lose myself in the process.
You hang in there with all the rest of us and a big ESPAVO.
Hugs,
Denise
allesisliefde
/ May 9, 2010Thank you so very kindly for this post Denise! Your all ready referred to kickassness keeps on keepin’on!:) I too loved what you shared here and am SOOOO grateful for you sharing your process/thought/emotions around that May 2nd post of Karen B’s in it as well. That got me. Yes, it did. I’m not ashamed to share that on a particularly fragile and vulnerable day for me just filled with the “edgy thoughtforms” Tieshla’s talking about, I decided to check for an update from K.B. Uh, mistake. My filters were not in optimal working condition and I really just had to cuddle down with the idea of the permission to jet off the planet I had just perceived thru her post. I’m (always) so grateful for my children and husband having been in close proximity that whole day or some dark edginess might just have sprung to life there in a very dying way! AGHH! I just kept coming back to the present and got real physical taking longass walks with my kids and making friends with horses and I made it thru to the next slamming mercury retrograde day where I allow us to get partially hustled and our driveway questionably paved by these travelling irish asphalters of some sort using some energy/emotional manipulation tricks that I laughed out loud at, but still watched it all go down before my eyes! Thanks so much for another really resonant with me and helpful post. Also I really appreciated your post a while back on the Uranus opposition I’m entering. It’s starting!@%&!
I think it’s going to be really fun though and different from anything else so far. I went reading a bit after your post and found an article where the author spoke about “leaving a bag by the door” for yourself from age 18-20 till your uranus opposition and I’m really feeling that strongly. Also a sense of getting to re-write the past as well…
superfondly,
Em
Denise
/ May 10, 2010Em,
Hi and welcome to TRANSITIONS and very glad to have you here.
“…traveling irish asphalters…” oh my gwad that line just cracked me up for some reason!
Too funny, but my brain usually instantly creates these visuals for me which are traditionally hysterically humorous…at least to me they are! So thanks for the giggles with that one.
Yes the past few days-with Mother’s Day seeming to be the peak day-have had a lot of Dark, nasty, fear-based, fear-inducing, unpleasant energies flying about trying to locate people to latch on to. Euw…
One of my favorite astrology books is Liquid Light of Sex: Kundalini, Astrology, and the Key Life Transitions by Barbara Hand Clow. It is tremendously helpful with a deeper understanding about the Uranus Opposition especially. It sounds like you’d enjoy and benefit from it. Here’s a link to B. H. Clow’s web site http://www.handclow2012.com and her book page http://www.handclow2012.com/bookcdvi.htm
Rewriting the past is exactly what the Uranus Opposition is all about. In fact it demands that that’s what we do from age 39-42 or 43 or…risk the consequences of not transmuting our stuff so we can enter the decade of our 40′s and beyond with a clean slate.
Hugs,
Denise
jessjossjjj
/ May 9, 2010Hi Denise
Thank you so much for your heartfelt reply
The island where I live is called Java, in fact I wasn’t even aware of the quake until someone notified me to it, after the initial earthquake, there were 2 following (smaller scale) earthquakes though around 5.3 and 5.1 Richter Scale if I’m not mistaken
Btw, I second you on ‘feeling’ that more quakes or some other earth movements are now going on (maybe even stronger and perhaps at a more rapid interval, we’ll see)
Something is def up cos I am still up and it’s 4.16 AM (and im not sleeping yet (again))
Thanks for hearing me out Denise and for providing this space
Appreciate it
xoxo
j
innerbeam
/ May 9, 2010Thanks Denise for your post, I really appreciate how you make sense of things and what you say really fits with what I know/have experienced and helps with clarity. I too have had plenty of learning with ‘the dark’. I was interested in what you said about the darkness, because last week I had a strange experience as I was going to sleep. I saw a hand (just a hand) trying to open the window next to my bed; after a little while I calmed myself by realising that it wasn’t able to get inside and wasn’t ‘real’. Because for a few moments I thought someone might actually be out there. Nice to be able to make sense of that experience.
Denise
/ May 10, 2010innerbeam,
Hi and welcome to TRANSITIONS, glad you’ve joined us.
It’s hard to discuss some of these things because of the slight differences or levels each one of us are currently on. But, I do know that the “Veil” or invisible dimensional border that used to keep the 4D astral from spilling into 3D physical reality, has been gone for years now. Many of us have moved into it (4D) from 3D, to vibrationally reach 5D. That is “ascension” and that is us moving through the Dark and scary stuff and lands both within ourselves and also the planetary Collective. Those are the energetic stair steps we travel – 3D to and through 4D to reach 5D – as transmuted and clear individuals who’ve ascended or evolved.
My point is that we’re going to continue seeing and encountering all sorts of strange things, energies, astral trash and beings, and also higher beings/ETs/Starbeings etc. from 5D and higher. If ever in doubt, do what I do and tell it to get the hell out if it is not of a very high energy and attitude!
Hugs,
Denise
tieshla
/ May 9, 2010OMG! What a riot! I LOVED reading this post, Denise. ‘Iceburg-sized free floating chunks of Darkness..’ LOL!!!!! You tell it like it is, girl! It’s soooOOooo entertaining in it’s no-bullshit, dead-on, truth-wielding kick-ass-ness!
Can’t say any disembodied astral heads have floated by my windows recently,thank GOD, BUT I can say that I HAVE spontaneously perceived darkness ‘leaving’ objects and places recently in my proximity. The Earth Herself is vibrating so much higher that the land is now going into perpetual transmutation mode. As a result, I’ve “seen” dark pockets just up and leaving suddenly, and often see this as a peripheral movement. Super cool!
Also, situations that are so OLD WORLDLY icky and dark just seem like parodies of themselves now, like walking mockeries of shadow buffoons which seem pathetically surreal. Laughable, really.
I can say, however, that I’ve had some very strange iceberg-sized, free-floating and edgy ‘thoughtforms’ like postcards from the dead dark just passing on through my head. Some of it could easily be construed as disturbing, but they don’t really stick around long enough to arouse any kind of emotional reaction in me. So, I’ve been ‘watching’ such retrogradal mental antics and distorted cerebral contortions with a kind of detached curiosity.
Strange times, indeed! It will be interesting to see how this all resolves itself once Mercury goes direct.
Thanks for you candid reflections, always.
Much Love,
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jessjossjjj
/ May 9, 2010Thank you so much Denise for this powerful message
Love,
jj
Denise
/ May 9, 2010Hi and welcome to TRANSITIONS jj.
It’s been a wild ride over the past few weeks and in my opinion, it still feels mighty strange and otherworldly to me still. Not saying that is a “bad” thing at all…just strange.
Hugs,
Denise
jessjossjjj
/ May 9, 2010I feel that this is something new, hence the weirdness ~ new territory indeed
On another note, I am so glad to have found your blog, I find that your honesty in your writings really speak to me
So thank you, thank you
Btw, if you must know I am from Indonesia, and today there was a 7.2 earthquake in the island of Sumatra (Indonesia)
I remember you wrote that you were very sensitive to earth changes like earthquakes and such, may I know if you felt anything this time? cos for me it sure was quite a ride (anxiety, insomnia and crying like crazy LOL or perhpas it was just me clearing/ releasing), thank goodness it’s passed and more importantly I was really relieved to find that there weren’t many damages and there was no report of injuries or death (thank god)
Sorry for the lengthy reply though, hope you don’t mind
Hugs back at you
jj
Denise
/ May 9, 2010jj,
Oh please no…feel free to share because I feel everyone benefits from all of us doing it.
Thank you also for letting me know about both where you live and about today’s 7.2 earthquake where you are. That explains a lot of what I’ve been feeling over the past week or so. Fear has been in the air again which always tells me that something is coming, or, something rather big has already physically happened somewhere on the planet and I’m psychically, empathically picking up on it and other people’s fears etc. Distance means nothing the more we link on higher levels.
I’m glad you and yours are okay and the quake didn’t cause any harm. I live in southern California and the “Baja” quake we had on Easter was a 7.2 also. Interesting how these quakes have happened on holidays like Easter and today being Mother’s Day, when families have gotten together. Yesterday there were three smaller quakes in San Diego, CA. (the largest was a 5.0) which is a few miles south of me. It’s looking like we’re in another round or cluster of earthquakes now. I also think the volcano activity is about to increase yet again also.
I used to feel the building pressures below the Earth’s surface and magma flows and such as physical pains in my body and also extreme jumpiness, nervousness, increased tensions. That was really horrible. Now I’m not feeling all of this as intensely in my physical body as I always have, but I do still sense the increasing pressures, tensions, fears, a sense of doom etc. and a strange disconnect or transitional phase. Since my 1999 ascension process started I’ve not slept well or longer than two to four hours at a time so I couldn’t tell you about that. I know we go through phases of not sleeping followed with phases of sleeping better and that is just ascension related. If you’re sensitive to “Earth Changes” as it sounds you are too, then yes, insomnia is pretty normal because you’re reacting to the building tensions and pressures in the earth. Take notes if needed so you can begin to learn what is causing what in your body and life. I’ve done that and it helps identify things if I can’t tell.
I’m glad you’re safe and okay.
Hugs,
Denise
chrysalis55
/ May 9, 2010WOW! to all of this. Just wow. Speechless, this is so cool. And the fact that I’m connecting with all of you awesome people and you seem to live in exotic places, while I live in freakin’ Canada! eh! We had an earthquake here was 1981 and everyone was freaked. Quite unheard of here. So can I possibly be feeling these earth rumblings so far away? I’m definitely feeling something, physically yes for sure, and also on another level. And insomnia? Oh, that’s another story. Let’s just say that WITH a sleeping pill I sleep some – without it I sleep almost none! I’ve had bouts of insomnia over the years, but nothing like I’ve had in the past few months.
Denise, your knowledge, wisdom and advice is so appreciated. Thank you. There is soooo much that I want to take in but my pea brain will only let me absorb so much at a time. I think my heart is taking in much more than my head, but that’s ok ’cause it’s all good. I sensed your protective mother bear energy (ever hear that one before???) kind of like “you can mess with me but don’t mess with my kids!” I love you for that.
Hugs hugs hugs
Denise
/ May 10, 2010chrysalis55,
I’m so glad you’re seeing, reading, meeting, feeling, and benefiting from all of the other readers/members here at TRANSITIONS. What’s happening here is that like-souls are finding each other now like a magnetic pull, so we can openly share/teach/learn/share with each other. This is the beginnings of the new Earth, new higher 5D “Communities”, which for starters has to happen online like this. Soon however this sort of like-souls Community we have here will spill over into the physical world and we’ll be living in the same neighborhoods and creating a new world entirely. Very, very cool and I can’t wait! But steps with the process as always.
You are totally right about understanding what all you are reading here. Your Heart IS taking it all in automatically because you already know all this at deeper levels within yourself. It is no longer necessary, like it was in the old lower 3D world, to intellectually know things. This higher level of knowing is vastly greater and more elevated, more integrated than egoic left-brained intellectual understanding! What you’re talking about is what I call High Heart consciousness. It comes from the ascended or higher Heart and not the brain. (This is why so many of us have been having all those pains and problems in our upper backs and upper chest areas – it’s where our High Hearts and energies have been birthing themselves in our higher vibrating bodies over the past few years.)
So just feel, remember, and welcome home chrysalis55.
And yeah, TRANSITIONS is MY HIGHER HOUSE CREATION and lower anything is not welcome here at all, and I’ll remove it faster than you can imagine! :LOL:
Hugs,
Denise
chrysalis55
/ May 10, 2010Oh, you got that right when you wrote “welcome home”! That is exactly how I felt when I found this site – I’m home! (sigh) Thank you!!!
About 10 years ago I took some intense holistic healing courses and I was told that I was a “map maker” and that I would counsel people with my love. So this high heart consciousness just feels so right to me. And it never fails, if I step out of my place of love and understanding, I’m miserable. It’s amazing how just reading these posts on here can put me in a better place. Oh, that just reminded me too that the person I took the course from worked with crystals – HUGE-ass crystals. And he said that the computer was going to be the source that gets the word out (apparently crystals are in computers – big duh here.) So doesn’t that just make perfect sense. Here you are, helping souls unite and learn and grow with the help of your computer! Just awesome.
Hugs
Chrys