2011 Fall Equinox: September 23, 2011
5:05 AM, EDT
“It is the Fall Equinox north of the equator, and the Spring Equinox south of the equator. In the north, it is time to balance the intentions you created during the Spring Equinox, while in the south it is time to create new intentions for what you want to create during the year. This site is written for readers north of the equator, so those down south will need to apply this reading to their spring intentions.
It is the Fall Equinox, the great balancing moment when we gather ourselves together to prepare for the clarity and challenge of winter. This equinox is especially energized because the Spring Equinox occurred soon after the beginning of the Universal Underworld on March 9, 2011-and this Fall Equinox occurs shortly before the completion of the Universal on October 28, 2011. Therefore this short period is the richest and most conscious evolutionary phase we have ever experienced as humans. As most of you already know, 2011 is the apex of time acceleration. Evolution has progressed twenty times faster during the Galactic Underworld (1999-2011), and with only weeks remaining, we are reflecting upon 16.4 billion years of growth in our universe.
Since March 9, we have been analyzing our progress by the seven Days and six Nights of the Universal; and many of us have awakened our latent human capacity that leads us to co-creation with divine forces. Day Six of the Universal (Sept. 5-22), the flowering phase of the Universal, is complete as Night Six opens on the Fall Equinox. The synchronicity between the Mayan Calendar and these astrological cycles reminds us that the critical leap in these rapidly intensifying evolutionary phases occurs during Night Six (Sept. 23 to Oct. 10). During Night Six’s in previous Underworlds, cataclysms shook things up and new evolutionary strains came forth. Now, something will happen that will cause a few individuals to work directly with divine forces, and soon more and more people will discover this advanced capacity. How might you recognize this capacity within yourself? It is like being a conductor of a great symphony that activates joy and bliss in the audience, and not by attaining power or control. New tools for this phase are coming forth, such as the inspirational film, Journey Through the Universe, by gravitational physicist Brian Swimme [visit www.journeythroughtheuniverse.org], premiering in Seattle on 9/29.
Considering the critical nature of this final and highly accelerated Universal Underworld, I focus on some new creations flowering during Day Six that are balancing and harmonizing the new emerging fractal fields. The three main themes we’ve been following during the Universal are the unsolved problems of using nuclear energy, global financial health, and changing politics in the Middle East. These issues came to the forefront during Day One of the Universal; they’ve matured and developed within the waves from midpoint to midpoint during the Universal Days and Nights; and now they are almost fully mature, which requires balancing them this fall. The main focus here will be the Palestinian request to the United Nations for statehood, since it is to be considered on the Fall Equinox. Palestine’s president, Mahmoud Abbas, repeated his statehood request exactly when Pluto went direct on September 16. As shown by this timing, Middle Eastern instability will be the hot issue during Night Six, when we also will probably see high focus on nuclear power issues and global finance. For example, new debt instruments, euro bonds, were proposed during Day Six and their success (or failure) will be known during Night Six. By the way, Fareed Zakaria on CNN’s GPS has proposed that China help solve the global debt crisis by making loans through the IMF, just as the US did after WWII, an idea that could certainly bear fruit during Day Seven.
Longtime readers of this website know that I’ve often said that world peace will not come until the conflict over Israel is resolved. This E/W tension erupted in Egypt (as well as in Tunisia, Libya, Syria, Yemen) when the people threw out Hosni Mubarak and now struggle to govern. Israel was driven out of its Cairo embassy on September 10, when a mob of rioters tore down the tall concrete wall surrounding around it and occupied the building. This was a stunning blow to Israel, and if such a thing had ever happened while Mubarak was in power, Israel would have attacked Egypt. So far, there is no significant reaction. The seizure of the Israeli embassy and the destruction of its hated wall is a strange repeat of the Exodus, which happened just when Palestine’s request for statehood is on the table. The US says it will veto the Palestinian request, which would cause many to wonder why Israel was granted its own request for statehood in 1948.
Palestine is the vortex for the three religions that claim their status from Abraham’s covenant with Yahweh. This month, the UN may embark on a total reorganization of the Middle East, since the world seeks balance in these wildly conflicting interests. Regarding the completion of all Nine Underworlds on October 28, 2011, Night Six and the Fall Equinox are a do-or-die moment. If the momentous changes that are needed now are blocked this fall, then unity consciousness is being aborted. Since such an outcome would be against nature, this analysis focuses on potential solutions. The solutions are many. For starters, note that New Moon in Libra arrives four days after the Fall Equinox and liberates the search for justice and truth. At the Equinox itself, the Sun moves into with Mercury in Virgo close behind, so we are armed with intelligent exactitude. Sun/Mercury closely oppose Uranus retrograde in 3 Aries with newly direct Pluto in 5 Capricorn forming the head of a T-square to this opposition. Uranus and Pluto are in the early stages of many subsequent squares that will occur through 2015, so we must observe the dance of these two outer planets. Unlike some people studying the Mayan Calendar, for me this period is not the “end times.” I’m starting to think 2011 will eventually be seen as the end of this obsession with sin and atonement. Instead, we are experiencing Reverse Rapture-the only way to purge this nutty fanaticism from the religions founded by Abraham! Finally we can partake of true wisdom-after being bored by two thousand years of waiting for the apocalypse. Let’s look more closely at the Uranus/Pluto squares, since they are orchestrating the next big change phase-2012-2015.
On the day of the Spring Equinox 2011, Uranus was the big mover and shaker. Just after the Sun went into Aries, it moved to Uranus, which propelled the Day One time acceleration. Uranus retrograded in July, and now it is traveling back to its Spring Equinox position. This transit is forcing us to process the great changes that began with Day One. Pluto in Capricorn is newly direct and very potent, since its Capricorn transit to 2024 rules the transformation of the world’s financial and industrial systems. Then, as Uranus, the plantet of revolution, begins its squares to Pluto, Uranus has just begun a new 84-year-long cycle in Aries, which fully empowers to transform reality. Anybody noticing? And, this 84-year Uranus cycle takes us to 2095! Consider how astrology’s focus on the future is a great antidote to the focus on endings.
The equinox chart suggests that the great transformation of antiquated belief systems is the major theme: Sun and Mercury opposing Uranus with newly direct Pluto as the head of the T-square charges us with passion and determination to shove great blockages out of the way. The tension between the opposing planets (Sun/Mercury opposite Uranus) pushes Pluto into hyper drive. During this fall, with Sun conjunct Mercury, individuals will makes constant adjustments and changes inspired by Uranus, and these shifts will empower Pluto to encourage us to dump antiquated financial, industrial, and political systems. Uranus goes all the way back to 0 Aries on Christmas Day, and then, as it goes direct, opposing forces will just cave in. This process will accelerate because of continual Uranus/Pluto squares through 2015. Yes, people around you may be screaming about endings, yet 2011 is merely a turning point when people choose to be Keepers of Earth.
We go to the Moon next, because ultimately we are the most transformed by our feelings. This chart suggests we will have the emotional strength to accomplish great changes. The Moon in 4 Leo is conjunct Mars in 3 Leo and sextile to Sun and Mercury. This fall we will have clear feelings, good energy, and strong wills; this will inspire us to push for Libran justice and equality, especially with a global focus on statehood for the Palestinians. Moon-conjunct-Mars in early Leo gives us feelings of confidence and trust, and their close sextile to the equinox Sun/Venus in Libra supports our search for equality. But, there is even more! Moon/Mars is the head of a tight Yod from Chiron/Neptune on the right sextiling newly direct Pluto in Capricorn in the left. You can activate Yods by visualizing the following: Hold the sextile in your hands and shoot the energy in your hands out to the opposite point (Moon/Mars in Leo) like using a dowsing rod. Yods are extremely magical and directive configurations, yet unwisely most astrologers ignore them. Yods show us how to direct energy, which activates all the elements in the chart.
Yods are major configuration like squares, oppositions, and trines. Before I analyze this Yod, let’s notice a few things about Neptune, a significant player in this Yod. Neptune is in its last sojourn in Aquarius, and after turning direct on November 9, it goes forward into Pisces permanently in early 2012, when it will inspire a great spiritual revival. Neptune first entered Aquarius in early 1998, just before the closest alignment of the Winter Solstice Sun to the Galactic Center in spring 1998. This galactic alignment altered the fractal fields, and then the Galactic Underworld time acceleration opened in January 1999. Neptune in Aquarius is the planetary accelerator of the Galactic Underworld, the energizer of the Age of Aquarius, and our guide for purifying the National Underworld religions. Since 1999, many have recovered their direct access to divine consciousness by eschewing traditional religions and embracing human community. This Yod is a tool for extrication from religious control.
To read the Yod, imagine holding Neptune/Chiron in your right hand and Pluto in your left, and then shoot waves of energy out through Moon/Mars. Your right hand courses with the potent healing energy of Chiron in unison with Neptune’s spiritual guidance, while your left hand courses with the passionate depth of Pluto in total synchronicity with Gaia now, and the force coursing through Moon/Mars activates all the fire of your will and your ability to feel. This Yod has all four elements-Moon/Mars in fire, Pluto in Earth, Neptune in Air, and Chiron in Water-so it moves you into the center of all the elements where you can activate all nine dimensions. As you can see, the cosmos is guiding our transformation.
More aspects in the fall chart give us the power to balance our consciousness in the new fractal fields. Saturn in 18 Libra is sextile to the lunar North Node in 18 Sagittarius, an aspect that offers the ideal discipline for utilizing Saturn in Libra’s balancing powers. Saturn is trining the lunar South Node, so the flow of past wisdom is multifaceted and stimulating; we just know what we must do now. Jupiter retrograde in earthy Taurus holds us in a state of deep contemplation, as its trine to Pluto in Capricorn focuses efforts to “just let go of old things needing to be transformed.” Venus in 10 Libra is close to Saturn contributing the joy of fathers and daughters working together for planetary harmonics. Venus’s close trine to Jupiter in Taurus reminds everybody to value resources and to use them for good and creative things.
The Universal Underworld time acceleration has been radical for most people; many have reported feelings of being dragged by depressing inertia during 2011. Yet, now that Day Six is complete, the Universal form is coalescing and is whipping ripples through the fractal fields as nine dimensions open in our bodies. The sixth dimension has already shifted the fractal fields in 3D, and we are just getting glimpses of this influence now. We see it in things going on in our personal lives or in the world that manifest new outcomes in surprising ways. The changes we attain in 3D strengthen our alignments with 6D, and these ideal forms are restructuring the higher-order fractal fields. Just trust, just surrender, if you can. In the greater world, pay no attention to those barking about the end times-since this moment is our Birth. Tune in for the New Moon reading in a few days, when we will be able to better see how this remarkable Fall Equinox chart releases the balancing forces of all nine dimensions in sacred Earth.”
Barbara Hand Clow http://www.handclow2012.com/ http://www.handclow2012.com/astroflash.htm
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Yes Christine, lots of double and triple numbers. I have heard that double and droble numbers are your angels giving you a hug, I like that thought.
Hugs to all, Gwen
Ha ha ha @ Tom …let’s hope that we can leave that awful word, ‘celebrity’, behind!
Tom, I love the way you put it: “… dealing with my issues is my career path…” and the insight that facing and dealing these issues means that you succeed in what you came here to accomplish!!! What a lovely way to put it!
Gerry: I am going to do what you suggest and go see some art. I have detected some telepathic communication with my dogs lately and I am so looking forward to have more of these glimpses of deeper understanding. It is so wonderful to realize that I get it what my furry friend wants to tell me <3. In every piece of sincere art there is probably an underlying level to be found – the artist wanting to say something.
Big hug to everyone!
hi everybody! has anyone been seeing an increase in number patterns? like 11;11 ? i have been seeing 4:44 , the number 44 in all sorts of different configurations all times of day and night …i have always seen this number over the years , more so than other patterns, and for a while i haven’t seen it at all .. but this past week.. every time i happen to glance at a clock , it is the 44
i have often wondered what these numbers mean….. it feels to me that it is some sort of communication and is always taken as a ‘comfort’ number for me… i always smile when i see it flash before me..
Tom, i can relate to your health issues.. although i am not physically sick.. the energy is so strong within the body it has definitely made living and working challenging here in the physical.. i do, however like you , experience it as freeing .. as i no longer really care about the things i once found so vital to my sense of self ..this energy has been a great gift as it has helped me to live very presently. with ‘ what IS.’….i am finding more and more within Joy that surrender is a huge key to great happiness…this surrender is not a sense of laying down and just taking it.. but rather an embracing of life , whatever Is ,whatever comes… between the bliss and simplicity of living , within this awareness and involvement with everything as it is in the moment, from the sunlight hitting the trees , the shimmering of the leaves and walks by the river , or sitting out at night looking up at the stars… i am just so…. happy:) more content with ecstatic joy than ever before in my life… i hardly even notice the stiffening within the body or the aches and pains that come with it .. it all seems rather surface in comparison….
love and joy to all this day…
christine
christine k.,
Yesterday I saw 2:22, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55, 10:10 and 11:11. I also see number combs repeat like 8:38, 7:47, 8:28 etc. I’ve written about this before but I sense us seeing these numbers and combos is indeed a pre-coded language in us that we do recognize at some deeper level. I also know that these numbers are also coded energy triggers and also conscious reminders for all of us to not forget that the Ascension Process is unfolding within a very precise cosmic timeline and that it has an Expiration Date. Seeing these numbers are codes for the many layers, levels and unfolding stages within the overall Ascension Process.
I don’t clearly know what each number combination means to me personally, but I do get a sense that some of them are dates and times also, like 11:11 and 10:10 and 12:12. The triple numbers feel more multidimensional to me and that they’re showing us, reminding us and activating with us “Unity” Consciousness (three) instead of the old lower dual/polarized two. So the numbers represent multiple things I feel; things far more complex than just Angels talking to us.
Hugs,
Denise
Hi Everyone – Thanks for all your ongoing sharing. I find it to be extremely helpful and validating. Denise, I noticed that the number of articles and shares has been drastically increasing over the last couple of months. I also notice that you are always very good about moderating and posting our shares promptly no matter how many there are. I really appreciate this, especially given some of the symptoms you’ve been experiencing. Thanks so much for taking on this increased work load.
I’ve definitely been experiencing the Great Disconnect from 3-D mentioned in recent posts. In my past lives I’ve always been someone who was very successful with career and/or making money. I definitely started out that way in this lifetime, then experienced major health issues and Ascension Symptoms. These forced me to give up my career and work a lot of survival jobs. Finances have been a major issue and challenge for most of my adult life. With my past life experiences, this has not been easy for me to accept or deal with. I’ve been very envious of people who have more career and financial success than I’ve had. I’d always hoped that once my health/Ascension symptoms improved I would go back to a successful career that paid well. Over the last couple of days I’ve come to realize and accept that dealing with my health issues and Ascension Process IS my career path in this 3-D lifetime. I also realize that I’ve been and still am very successful in this unconventional career.
This has helped me disconnect even more from my current 3-D reality. My intuition has been telling me that I have a great career ahead of me when I fully Ascend into 5-D. My sense is that it will combine my past life strengths with what I’ve learned from my health issues and Ascension Process. I hope it has a good benefit package.
But seriously, finally giving up my 3-D career and financial aspirations has been very freeing for me.
As more and more people start to Ascend, I wonder how that’s going to be reflected in the mainstream media. Maybe PEOPLE magazine and the NATIONAL ENQUIRER will start running stories about celebrities who are Ascending. Maybe there will be late-night TV commercials from used car salesmen types who will be selling “secrets” to quick and easy Ascension Processes with easy financing.
Tom
Morgean, a huge heart hug to you!! I can so easily relate to your losses, for I have had much of the same. I can also toss into that pile the end of a 30-year marriage, a 25-year business/career, my beloved ranch in the mountains and a few other things that it still pains me to mention. In no way do I imply that the mental/physical/emotional contortions we go through as we process our traumas, abandonment and grief are simple. But the concept of grieving then letting go, is, in my definition, a simple one. Release and relief comes only when we are we have moved through the stages, and are ready to move on, albeit with a completely new set of perspectives and goals.
I love Aya’s definition of sadness. We are truly mourning what has been our delight. I do not think my sadness debilitating except when it was all I could feel. Sadness without hope is despair. Despair can be terminal. I finally, after many years, can report flashes of hope, happiness, gratitude and even joy on a regular basis. A year ago I still could not imagine this. A year ago I could not even imagine Me.
I can also relate to the exhaustion from your long and arduous journey. I think very few of us can claim otherwise. Faith and determination were key for me. That, and using connections within the ethers, in physical and non-physical form, to lift us up when we are down and dragging. Forums such as this one, and angels all around, have helped me to draw another deep breath, think another good thought, trust where I was going and say thanks at the end of a difficult day.
Much love, healing, and blessings to all of you who have worked very hard to shine so brightly. I SEE YOU!!! :0)
Thank you dear Denise. And thanks to all who share and read this.
Heart hugs, Gwen
Just a quick note to thank each and every one of you here for validating me over and over again. I have bounced back and am once more knowing the knowing. Denise, I read your princess and the pea article and all of the comments and that’s what brought me back! Thank you. And Morgean23 (Debra), Tom, Lamp Lighter, and everyone here, your comments light up my life. Yes, I’m being corny, because I’m so glad to be back in the higher and lighter vibes. So much going on this equinox day, and it feels good. Symptoms are giving me time off for good behaviour, and my heart is so open it’s about to leave my chest. Wow! Love to you All here.
It’s strawberry season where I live…. Hmmm I thought to myself as I opened a punnet of over sized shiny dark red strawberries ‘what will this parting of 2 worlds be like’? The Strawberry in my fingers was enormous and the smell glorious; the base had 18 over sized strong green leaves fanning outwards. I turned the strawberry over ready to eat it and to my delight it was split open into two halves from the top, the opening was a diamond shape forming a hollow all the way through to the base. The whole inside was covered in tiny weeny crystals. In that moment my worries and uncertainties about the future were dissolved into a sense of peace and joyousness, and yes that strawberry was soooooo delicious.
Love
Shell
Thank you all so much for sharing! I have been working hard on my 3-5D responsibilities
so I can’t check in here as often I’d like to. Reading all your posts at one session is overwhelming…
Me too, I feel the Great Disconnect from 3D relationships – or maybe I should say 3D quality of my relationships. I seem to encounter people in a vastly more open way – and get the same response. This means, some old friends have disappeared from my life.
I am not sad though, because this is something that has been going on my whole life – people around me have changed a lot during different periods of my life. On the other hand, some old friends give signs of opening up to new possibilities of understanding the world! You can imagine how ecstatic that can be!!! I think my relationships with others are changing to less in quantity but more in quality. In my work I also meet a lot of strangers and the quality of relating each other in those brief moments seem to be more and more rewarding.
Sadness is an emotion I value a lot. My interpretation is that if you are sad, you respect and cherish the people and experiences you have known and had before – yet, you are consciously accepting to let go! Sadness is the moment between the old and new: you have passed the frustration and resistance. At least this is what I feel.
I would also like to share a trick that worked for me when I used to have lots of anger to release. Every time I got angry or irritated on anything (sometimes there was no reason at all) I took the point of view of my soul. I imagined my higher self was looking at me (my body and mind) as like her child and saying to herself “there she goes again, she’s got her daily tantrums “. This helped me to detach my self from the emotion and bring in some humor to the situation!
I am also beginning to sense the veil getting thinner and thinner although I am definitely not a clairvoyant or anything like that. Last night a funny flashing light was following me tens of miles when driving and when I got home and took my dogs out, it continued! There was absolutely no possible 3D source for it and as far as I know I don’t have any neurological problems
I took it as a sign for having company from home out (t)here.
Me too, I love the idea of ascension as coming home! And we are approaching it with giant leaps!
Love and Light to all of You!
Denise,
I have experienced a new physical symptom that is most unusual. Maybe it is related to the Equinox and the shifting that is so far along now for the planet/us. I was working at home and feeling loss/mourning for the old me like a lot of the other people have for a couple of hours, and then my ego voice was snarking at me in a heavy stream and I continued working, went into witness mode and after it was done said “I hope you feel better now” instead of countering/attacking its fearful unbalanced ideas. Then it just released, stopped talking and I felt suddenly tired. I went to lie on the couch and could feel/hear a strong loud humming sound in my high heart area and I went into it, and then these waves of motion zoomed through my whole body just like a full body orgasm with a sexual feeling. After a couple minutes of this I was tired and it stopped and I have been ungrounded since even though I have gone into nature, walked, done grounding into the Earth, visited a friend for dinner and eaten heavier food. There is a spinning that I am feeling and it is sort of like I am here but not here at the same time. Probably I am just recalibrating/integrating a new energy adjustment and Higher Self gave me a few minutes off and little gift! before the next round begins. But this was very strange!
Also it has been years since I have felt significant energy body zooms while going to sleep which were strong maybe 12 years ago with me. Most of my work seems to be about transmuting my own emotion, thought forms, dark gunky energy outside in public places and those of people/mass consciousness around me.
Thanks,
Lisa
Lamplighter – you said: “Debra, from my truth, we are not leaving anyone, nor has anyone has left us. We are simply releasing the 3-D versions of our relationships, of death and of life. What we are mourning is how we have identified, attached and related to others and our Selves while in skin. Once we are through this releasing, grieving and moving into acceptance, we will be connected in ways we can still barely imagine. But those days are in essence, mere moments away.”
While I agree with everything you said – on the level of reality creation and philosophically – which is why I said in my post ‘at least for the near future’ — for me it has not been a “simple release”. In my truth and in my 3D experience I have experienced the death of 10 significant family members, several others that I wasn’t as close to, and 15 animal companions that grew old and died over the past several years. While I have the ability to connect with them on other levels, I can not deny the devastating depth of the sadness I felt, and continue to feel from time to time. And while in the larger scheme of things, it will be mere moments till I can interact with them in ways I can only dream of now; the past 10 or so years, don’t feel in 3D time, as just moments. It has been a long and emotional journey.
” I’ve often felt like a bumbling new Guide In Training over the years, which is probably pretty accurate”.. yep!!:) i am thankful you have forged that little bit a head of the crowd Denise to share with us your insights..very helpful indeed!…
i hear you lamplighter.. so much to ‘feel’ through, as it comes , as it comes:) ….i think someone said here once they felt like Alice in Wonderland…this is sorta a wonderland state , a whole new frame of reference… never know what to expect around any turn.. my choice is , to experience whatever comes in wonder without getting to much into it …..allow , surrender and be…
i am so glad i have found all of you and this site.. very grateful. the world in which i live (rural Montana) mindsets are very strong.. not the place to share such things …..
blessings to all here
christine
Lamplighter and Denise, thanks for your posts about getting involved in lower-vibration issues, and how strongly they affect us now. They were a much-needed reminder for me. I know from much personal experience how seductive that can be during challenging times.
I mentioned in earlier posts that I used to follow a Gloom and Doom website quite regularly for updates on earth changes etc. A few days ago I was having a very tough time with Ascension symptoms, and checked it out for the first time in several weeks. It didn’t help me feel any better, and certainly wasn’t any help in coping with my symptoms. I resumed participating on this blog, and sharing with all of you has been a big help (big surprise on that one!).
Yesterday I went to a required training session at my job when I was experiencing some major Ascension symptoms. I maintained a good attitude, and none of my old buttons got pushed. I had a good experience there, and (GASP!!) actually enjoyed it somewhat. After the training was over I took a long walk, and reflected on many things related to my Ascension. That allowed me to process and release a lot, and was very healing for me.
Tom
Buyer Beware. Love it! Denise, one of the single hardest issues I have had to deal with is how to stay pro-active in dealing with real-time stuff that really matters to me and stay neutral or in ‘the zone.” I volunteer 20 hours a week at a municipal (read kill) shelter, I work on environmental issues, and I am still bear the hangover of a political junkie. I have made major strides in terms of my capacity to detach, surrender and see things from a higher and more positive perspective. It is night and day compared to what I did, feel and think since Bush v. Gore. I sometimes don’t even recognize myself. (And it feels nice.) I am a double Sag, and where there’s smoke, there is usually still some of my fire. :0)
The good news is that with time collapsing, I am now able to see much quicker the external ramifications of my internal machinations. Operant conditioning is much easier when I am quickly shown why what just happened, happened.
Thanks for being a gentle and thorough guide for the rest of us bumblers!
Hello Denise,
On a positive note: I went to a museum yesterday – an exhibit of Dutch Maters. I have never experienced art in the way I did yesterday. It was almost as if I were communicating telepathically, or that I was almost remembering something. It’s difficult to put into words. At certain paintings I experienced overwhelming waves of love. Something is really different. I suggest everyone take a trip to a good museum. Wow.
Namaste,
Gerry
Christine — OMG. Last night around 7:30 PST I went for a walk in the dark with my dogs. My heart had been beating wildly; I was very anxious and seeking relief. I figured this was a solar/CME thingy and I usually calm down when I am among the oak trees. It seemed to help the palpitations, but by the time I got near to my house my heart/chest area was so crushingly aching with deep pressure, I did not know what to think. Decided it did not matter why and figured if I just start crying I could release it. So I did, and it worked, to a point. Still felt sad and low, but at least not suffocating. ‘This too will pass,’ was my mental mantra.
I had assumed at 4 pm PST that Troy Davis was gone (time of his previously scheduled execution), and had sent my prayers and blessings to him, his family, and his many supporters. About 8:30 I sat down at my computer to check my emails before retiring and read from Amnesty International that 8:08 PST has been his actual time of death. I could not understand why the 4-hour delay, and had to go online to see what had gone down that evening. Utterly shocking it went to the U.S. Supreme Court.
I immediately understood that the major heart palpitations/anxiety that had started just before sunset was the excruciatingly-thick anticipation waiting for the SC decision on a possible stay. The deep sadness and heart-crushing pressure I experienced was almost precisely at his time of death.
After I got over the shock of what had just played out in my obliviousness, I felt rather violated that I had been pulled so deeply into this emotional upheaval without my direct consent. It took me some time to see and admit that I got what I asked for — in that I chose to get involved in the turmoil of his pending execution the last few weeks.
Ask, and ye shall receive! The veil is quite thin now, and I am still very much in the process of learning how to shine my light without burning out my bulb. Can’t wait until I am open and attuned to receive mad, unexplained rushes of bliss, happiness and joy on a regular basis!
Lamplighter & All,
This was a VERY important discovery and lesson and one that you’ll encounter every time you/any of us are tempted to get involved with lower frequency, lower consciousness things. Period. Things are rarely what they seem at those lower levels so…buyer beware! Like everything else, this too is an unfolding Process of trial and error…except there’s never any “errors”…just larger and larger learning’s. I’ve often felt like a bumbling new Guide In Training over the years, which is probably pretty accurate.
Denise
thanks Denise to pointing back to this message.. ‘the princess and pea sensitivities’ i most certainly do resonate with what you wrote here !
Dear Lamp Lighter…THANKS… well said.. comforting- Blessings … B
interesting, last night i had a real attack of impatience and anger too. this is pretty unusual for me, that kind of extreme reaction that i could not shake.
my cat got out of the house around 11Pm and this little thing set me off into a fit of internal anger that i simply could not get rid of if i tried.. What is really interesting in the light of this anger that came up out of a relatively insignificant thing, is i experienced an intense download / upload of energy at 8:10 pm my time ( Mountain time). The peace was indescribable , i felt like one big fizzy and the delight and bliss were .. … wow! …. After reading the news this morning , i see Troy Davis was executed at that time and i had been praying for him most of the day yesterday. I don’t know if i experienced his transition ( the bliss and sense of moving upward internally. ) and then the anger of the people who were protesting his death, or what. who knows?:)
More and more the boundaries are blurred as to ‘who is who’ in direct connection within unity consciousness.. . for years i have felt people within , this is nothing new….. but this, whatever it was, was extreme …. not that i am above being ticked off, i am not.. but this was a real intensified version of it….
this intensification within regarding other people and events has truly intensified over the past few months… intellectually, of course i can never know.. and quiet frankly am not interested in trying to figure it all out, even if i could… .. but i do observe and simply be with it.. ‘whatever’ i am feeling.. a miracle in itself for this Capricorn /Virgo mix, who as a younger woman analyzed everything LOL:) ….
christine kauffman,
http://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2010/07/24/the-princess-and-the-pea-sensitivities/
My 2010 The Princess and the Pea Sensitivities article might resonate more now.
The more we each transmute our inner dense, unresolved energies and get ourselves crystal clear – transparent – the more even tiny little things/events/energies etc seem to feel to us. I’ve experienced this same wildly magnified reaction to some things too and have struggled to finally reach that spot of expanded awareness and feeling (High Heart Consciousness) but with neutrality, which is exactly how things feel to us at higher levels. We feel and know so much more but because it isn’t being run through our ego selves, it’s nearly emotionless… in those old lower familiar ways.
Hugs,
Denise
Thanks to all for posting and sharing your experiences.
I resonate with Barbara’s explanation for the sadness which I, too, have felt – “the Big Disconnect.” I believe this is due to the shift and to releasing so much of our previous identity and life, as well as the widening gap we feel with others who are caught in lower frequencies.
I like what Lauren Gorgo said in her recent article: “The disconnection from 3D is already noticeable in small ways, like the inability to feel the discomfort that others are going through or even feelings of alienation since nearly everyone around is experiencing some form of chaos and it can feel odd and lonely to be blissful and excited about the falling world.”
The Seven Sister of Pleiades then went on, “this detachment is necessary and required to move into your new dwelling space. What we recommend is that you focus less on the disconnect you feel between your new awareness and the awareness of others, and more on the CONNECTION that you feel between your head and heart. This is where the magic is happening and all else will eventually fall away…”
Denise – yes, the end of this cycle is just over a month away and now seems to be coming swiftly. I keep trying to figure out what to expect but it is beyond all logic.
How will those still in 3D NOT notice when we are gone? Will perhaps a version of us remain in 3D to carry on as usual? Or will the reality in 3D conform to our absence (making it appear that we never existed there)?
Lots of Light to all, Thelma
Dear Denise
The last few days I have a lot of nerves, I became very impatient and angry, I dont feel good…
I’m a 2nd wave starseed and I really want to ascend and I know that these emotions that I feel, are not positive…
I want to go home and hug my real space family, I feel that this realm became very heavy and unbearable.
Can you give me an advice on how to deal with it and if it is bad feeling all this?
Does it have to do with ascension?
Does it have to do with the fact that I ascend and the frequency in me is very different from 3D earth?
Thank you.
Lefteris,
Just feel the anger, rage or whatever comes up in you but don’t judge yourself, don’t feel guilty or bad about feeling such negative emotions. Pay attention to what you’re going through so you can learn to discern what you’re feeling, if it’s even yours, and why, BUT be willing to let it go with neutrality. Read that link in my response to christine k. to an old article called The Princess and the Pea Sensitivities as it might help you too now.
Hugs,
Denise
Yeah, haha, Loren Gorgo’s post is exactly what I needed. I think I might be able to sleep now. Thanks you!
Denise,
Thanks for sharing your tsunami dream experiences. From high school to maybe a few years ago I had recurrent tsunami on Lake Michigan dreams. My new thing seems to be snow in inappropriate impossible places at weird times of year. Which sort of has happened here the last two winters. But this morning I dreamed I was in the Sacramento valley a few weeks from now and it was snowing like crazy… I guess snow is better than earthquakes, tsunamis, or tornadoes.
Nadeanna
Hello To All- What a lovely site- Thank you for the words and comments- I realize I am jumping into this group with out reading more and I will get up to speed.
But This graduating- this splitting of the Earth- I read I search I wonder I have inklings and intuitions and yet I have no clue-
Will I even know? Will my Cats be with me- will we float or beam up to someplace? For some reason I keep thinking/feeling that after all this hard work for EONS and keeping our light dim etc that I would like to see the look on the faces of those nay sayers that I have dealt with most of the journey. And in my new role of full light body that I would finally get to see all the Nature Spirits and Devas Angels etc that have been my friends along the way.
I am understanding this correctly? that there will be something like a death or a passing over?
Or are we at that juncture where there is no death- just the Heaven on Earth?
I Realize that I have just tossed all my ponderings since 1997 out on the table…. thanks for input and as always it is comforting to see others expressing similar unexplained feelings.. and I want home to come to me on Earth as well!! Blessings- Bev
Bev,
Because so many people are asking similar questions about this process, it’s more efficient if I just write an article about it instead of responding in multiple Comments. So, I’ll try to get another article done soon to answer these questions.
Hugs,
Denise
Barbara, Denise, I have had the same experience so many times in just the last week or so; where I put out inquiries, and hear nothing back from anyone. And then, after I accept that I am not to be answered or ‘told’, the inquiry either resolves itself or I figure out exactly what to do. That has always happened if I am honest. But now it happens so fast I can actually realize it and be grateful in the moment.
As for the sadness we continue to feel as we let go, I am moved to quote Kahlil Gibran: “When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”
Debra, from my truth, we are not leaving anyone, nor has anyone has left us. We are simply releasing the 3-D versions of our relationships, of death and of life. What we are mourning is how we have identified, attached and related to others and our Selves while in skin. Once we are through this releasing, grieving and moving into acceptance, we will be connected in ways we can still barely imagine. But those days are in essence, mere moments away.
“This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning,” (said Sir Winston Churchill in a pique of unintended Ascension prophecy :0))
So let it go, let it roll right off your shoulders. Don’t you know? The hardest part is over!
Thanks for sharing, everybody. I too had a good cry over the weekend. I honestly feel I have no attachments (most family members have died or lost contact). And my old negative thoughts, memories, etc. have greatly improved with the “transmuting” with violet fire vocalizations!
Will people seem to be disappearing with these Ascension waves? What about at the workplace
?
Patricia
Got this quote today, I cried and cried. I do want to go home, but to have home come to me…………. a new idea. I am so ready to end 3D thinking.
We are so delighted to be a part of something so magnificent, that which you call ascension, and what we call “homecoming”. We say home-coming because each of you who is leading the planet to her destiny carries the activated vibration of home, of Source energy within…and though many of you have had to dim your light to fit into a world that was once unfit for such magnificence, you are now emerging in the fullness of pure-heart radiance. Pray tell.” – Seven Sisters of Pleiades
Hugs to all Gwen
Gwen,
I read Lauren Gorgo’s article today too. Many of us have lived our entire lives with our “light dimmed” to fly under the radar here on Earth because it wasn’t time or safe for us to be seen and known for who we really are. I’ve remembered this since early childhood and, like many of us, will need to get comfortable “coming out” as Lauren called it and being the Light we are now here.
♥ Hugs,
Denise
Denise, thanks for another good article. Barbara, thanks for your share. I go through a grieving process at this time every year to mourn the end of summer. I’ve been grieving more than usual this year, and I realize now that I’m mourning much more than just the change of season. As I continue to function in the 3-D world I realize that it will all be disappearing from my reality soon.
Barbara, for the last several years I experienced many intense times of sadness. More times than I care to remember. In fact it was more the norm than not. Lately I have been doing much better. I am hoping I have transmuted most of it but I would think it highly possible it come around again before this time is over. It was very difficult for me mostly bc I was sad about missing family that has either died or we have grown so far apart that I know, at least for the near future, we will not be spending time together. I believe this is a normal and necessary part of the process. My heart goes out to you, Debra
Dear Denise:
Thank you for your comforting reminder that “we’ve made our decisions long ago…” I tend to forget that as we live those decisions out in the present 3D.
I am going to try to focus entirely on the joy that awaits in the higher dimensions, but this is a tough time particularly when someone I care for wants to make future plans and I respond to them while knowing in my heart that it is likely those plans will not come to fruition, or at least not with this 3D version of Barbara.
I admit I have no idea how the splitting of the Earth into two will occur, other than a molecular/atomic/energetic/vibrational idea, but I do know that it will be gentle and very, very beautiful for those of us “heading to the light.”
I have also been thinking that it’s possible that there may be a Barbara walk-in in the wings to take up where I’m about to leave off. However, it’s another thought that those who have already made their choice to stay with this 3D won’t even notice we’ve gone!
I am so looking forward to your articles as we begin the ending of this amazing cycle of Gaia.
Love to All, and thank you again, Denise, for confirming and comforting my thinking.
Hi Denise and All Here:
Yesterday I posted a comment asking if anyone is experiencing a deep sadness and slowly I think I’ve come up with the answer to my own question. I will try to explain this as best I can, and it might sound off-the-wall, but hey, that’s what we are, compared to what passes for “normal” 3D.
It seems that what I am experiencing I can only describe as The Big Disconnect from this 3D. I have been unplugged totally and the sadness arose because I know within my heart that, as Denise explained in a recent post, that there will indeed be two Earths; one will spiral into more darkness, while the other heads into higher dimensions of Creative Love.
Reading Barbara Hand Clow’s report above, the line that jumped out at me is, “If the momentous changes that are needed now are blocked this fall, then unity consciousness is being aborted.” That one line confirmed for me the splitting of the Earths. There will be two potentials to choose from, and one will be dark and one will be light. I also agree with the general thinking of Wayshowers that the Mid-East is a huge inter-dimensional vortex where what happens there will affect the rest of the world. If Palestine is blocked from statehood, then it will be more of the same violence in that area as the struggle for sovereignty continues.
This is not doom and gloom stuff. This is, for me anyway, the realization that my choice to leave this version of 3D Earth will no doubt be effective either before the end of 2011 or soon thereafter. It’s decision time.
And now for some humour: the day I became sad and slowly began this inquiry into my sadness was the day that the “Smart Meter” was connected to my house. Those who have been fighting the “Smart Meter” will see the irony.
Anyway, I sincerely would love your thinking, Denise, on my thinking.
Love to All here.
Barbara,
I’ve had your name listed on a note pad so I wouldn’t forget to respond to your Comment…which I often do with people ONLY because I get busy working on a new article. However, this time it sounds like I was intentionally removed/silenced/kept busy so you’d connect the pieces yourself. I love this way soooo much better. ♥
I too have gone through many periods of mourning the loss or death of aspects of Denise, of her ego self, of the things, people, places, activities, foods, habits and so on that I used to really enjoy prior to the start of the Ascension Process in 1999 (the start of the Eighth Wave). This stuff IS real and it’s happening NOW…not later…and we’ve made our decisions long ago but we’re living them in physicality now.
I spent last night staring at the dark ceiling thinking, feeling, perceiving, getting my head up to date with the fact that the end of this whole Great Evolutionary Cycle is completing in just over a month. One freaking month! I’ve been working so hard for so long that I’ve forgotten to look up ahead of me/us to see the Finish Line only a few feet away.
Well done Barbara. ♥
Hugs,
Denise
Thank you Barbara, sounds like lots to deal with, but doable! Echos the light you talked abut Denise. Happy Fall to all.
Hi everybody,
This has nothing to do directly with this article, but I wanted to share this link: it’s a nicely done, sincere documentary about the process of awakening and unity consciousness:
http://www.openhandweb.org/contents/five_gateways/5gateways_documentary_fullfilm
Ps: Denise, if you don’t feel comfortable sharing this on your site, feel free to delete this comment. Joy, Jay