The Dark Side of Ascension for Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers

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A few months ago during the summer of 2010, I sensed that by the fall quarter many of us would begin experiencing the start of some new higher consciousness, multidimensionality, abilities and reality etc. I also sense that this year’s Winter Solstice is going to be rather amazing in how profoundly it will push us into more of the New. All of the 2010 Multi-D energies, events, unfolding cycles, and numbered portal days (10-10-10, 11-11, 12-12 etc.) have continued helping us  get up-to-speed so we can more easily transition into the final twenty-fold increase that starts March 9, 2011. 2010 has felt like us running faster and faster  each month so we’ll be able to more easily enter this final and 20 times faster completion phase.

What I didn’t fully see in all this was what many of us have been and still are currently going through; being under etheric attack and interference by the negative Dark Ones.

I’ve always known that my being on the team I am (gonna borrow a Barbara Marciniak’s Pleiadian term here), the “Light Tee Shirts”, or Team Light as I call them, that I would simply have to deal with the “Dark Tee Shirts” (Team Dark as I’ve called them) team endlessly trying to take my ass out of The Game. After all, we’re taking their asses out of The Game by our actions so it makes a lot of sense that we’re not their favorite folks! This is just how this works in a polarized world. But despite my always knowing this in this life, plus having clairvoyantly and physically seen and experienced decades of encounters and attacks by the negative Dark side or the “Dark Tee Shirts”, what’s been happening since Oct. 2010 has been difficult and an eye-opener for me. In other words, you can know something very well but when it shifts into a more intense (and final) phase, it changes things even further and that’s the part I didn’t prepare myself enough for; this retaliation or backlash phase. Of course this is far more vast and complex than JUST what we’ve been through during the 2010 summer and fall months, but it certainly plays a huge part in why we’re currently being attacked and interfered with to this degree by the Dark.

I thought it might be helpful to list some Dark attack and interference symptoms and compare them to some typical Ascension symptoms. (You realize they all are Ascension related.)


  1. Exhaustion, depletion, lethargic, groggy, body aches and pains, muscle spasms and sense of being “ill”
  2. Unable to mentally and emotionally focus and remain focused
  3. Retreating, resting, nesting, shutting down, Warrior of Light Mode has been put on pause
  4. Clairvoyantly seeing directly and/or peripherally Dark shapes, figures, balls, creatures, beings, colored balls of light, strange shaped lights etc.
  5. Astral plane and/or Dream level attacks
  6. Loved ones and/or neighbors or strangers being used to trigger you even further into lower frequency states
  7. A loved one and/or pet being attacked to further trigger and trap you within fear/chaos/anxiety/dis-empowered state
  8. Physical sounds and noises sounding abnormal, otherworldly, and not being able to interpret them.
  9. Anomalies seen while out in public. Certain people looking/acting differently and/or being used by negative non-physical Dark beings
  10. Certain things do not dawn on you because you’re being blocked and interfered with by the negative Dark

There are more but you get the gist. Now let’s compare this to higher energy Ascension symptoms to compare the subtle and not so subtle differences.


  1. Exhaustion, depletion, lethargic, body aches and pains, sense of being “ill” but not actually
  2. Occasionally not able to mentally focus due to brain rewiring process and expanding consciousness etc.
  3. Retreating, resting, nesting due to the overload of higher frequency energies effecting you and your multiple bodies and awareness
  4. Loved ones and/or pets also displaying Ascension-related symptoms
  5. Clairvoyantly seeing anomalies, energies, inter-dimensionally, physical reality going thin and/or disappearing in small patches and areas
  6. Clairaudiently hearing sounds, voices, noises that you can’t identify
  7. Anomalies seen while out in public. Seeing white fog, mist, or reality becoming blurry in certain buildings
  8. Body, mental and emotional aches and pains caused by solar and/or higher dimensional energies triggering you, your consciousness and bodies

There are plenty more but again, you get the gist. See what a razor’s edge there is between the two? Amazing and highly confusing isn’t it? The primary difference between the two is that the negative Dark always makes me feel dis-empowered, isolated, depleted, sad, depressed, limited, trapped, confused and  out of sync with what I really am. In other words, it makes me feel a huge lack of Light and Love. Typical Ascension symptoms never do this but often make you feel like there’s way too much Light and Love and that’s why you’re having difficulty housing It all! Subtle and not so subtle differences between the two, and if you’ve experienced both multiple times then you know them both intimately at this point.

Barbara Hand Clow said this (The Pleiadian Agenda) and I know how deeply true it is:

“You will see how knowing darkness is the key to maintaining awareness in the light of the Photon Band.”

We’ve been talking about this and much more in Comments on my Nov. 9, 2010 post The Dark Is Lashing Out, but I wanted to add this here too. Since the very first time I read Lisa Renee’s Guardians “command” paragraph in her Nov. 2010 article “The Restoration”, I’ve been clairvoyantly seeing two anomalies that I’ve seen for the past seven years. All the times I’d seen them prior to reading Lisa’s latest, I never could sense or read these two anomalies much at all. They didn’t radiate negativity nor did they give off much of anything which I always found rather confusing. However, since the first time I read this “command”, these two anomalies (one is a round ball of periwinkle colored light, and the second object is a bright silver-white colored light that looks much like the lens or light emanating end of a LED flashlight) manifest within minutes. I now realize  they most likely are negative Dark etheric body attachments and/or peep holes I’ve had for a while. Damn, I hate this crap but there it is.

Needless to say I’ve been paying very close attention to any and all phenomena that happens during or after I read this command. Every single time I’ve done so these two anomalies appear. Last night after I’d read the command I saw them both and then the white light colored one flew into my abdomen at the solar plexus area. Damn, I really hate this crap! So I re-read the command again—with attitude and determination—and saw this same round white light LED looking thing exit my gut area and retreat up near the ceiling and hang there a couple  of seconds before they both vanished from my clairvoyant vision. I realize this may take some repeated work to completely solve and that’s fine. I’ve survived much worse.

On the other hand I should share what happened when I first read this command. When I got to that one line in it about, “…to return all unity codes, fire letters, and the jewels, wings, energies and parts of bodies…” I instantly and very unexpectedly burst into tears! That was the FIRST time I’ve ever even heard these terms in this life, and yet, some deeper aspect of me knows them intimately. In that first moment as I read those words, I clarivoyantly saw great Angelic-like  Light Beings who have living “jewels” on/in their chests like magnificent, interdimensional hearts. I also saw “fire letters” hanging huge in space and recognized some of them as my Original Codes. And the “wings” revealed how many have had them ripped from us, distorted and then utilized negatively by some of these super-ancient Dark Ones. All-in-all it was a profoundly potent moment for me seeing, feeling, knowing and remembering these ultra-ancient aspects of some of us Lightworkers/Starseeds at higher dimensional levels. So I have my personal reasons—both positive and negative—for believing Lisa Renee’s Guardians command and that entire November 2010 article. It, plus all the side-effects from reading the command, tell me that many of us (not all) have reached this point where we’re taking back certain super-ancient multidimensional aspects of Ourselves (“The Restoration” period) that have been stolen and/or hustled from us during the many eons of this particular Journey.

It makes perfect sense that at this point we’d have to collect and integrate any of these Multi-D bits and pieces of our Greater Selves that have been stolen and used against not only us but all other Beings of Light throughout this entire Journey. During Phase One of the Ascension Process we had to transmute and integrate the majority of our personal projections, karma, dark shadow parts, our unloved, projected and ignored aspects. Now in (let’s call it) Phase Two of the Ascension Process, it makes sense that this would continue but at even larger, higher and more vast levels with those larger, higher, and more vast aspects of our SELVES within all dimensions. All of these things informs us that we’re closer than we’ve ever been before, otherwise the Dark side wouldn’t be doing what it’s doing to and at us now.

Yesterday I discovered a section at Lisa Renee’s website that deals with “Psychic Self Defense”. So far I’ve only read a couple of her articles about this but could tell they are excellent. One thing to keep in mind however if you read any of these particular articles is when she originally wrote them (2007) vs. how much transformational Ascension Work we’ve done since then. They’re very helpful but many of us have finished much personal Inner Work in this area already so don’t automatically assume that you’re less than what you currently are.


November 14, 2010

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“As the 12 D Avatar and the Light of God that I am, I cancel all contracts and/or agreements that I have made with any entity, guide, in this timeline or in any reality, that were not in my highest alignment and expression of my Light Source in the Law of One. I terminate all false matrices, or illusions that may have obscured my highest God purpose and soul mission, from the past, present and future. I terminate redemptive vehicle and crucifixion contracts and their related phantom systems from impacting my consciousness and all of my 12 bodies. I further declare that the cancellation of all such contracts is to be irrevocable and permanent in all time frames and realities. Further I ask my Avatar to return all unity codes, fire letters, and the jewels, wings, energies and parts of bodies that have been misdirected or usurped and ask to return them NOW to the Rightful Owner in the name of Self Sovereignty herein stated and commanded into presence. I invalidate the beings by commanding a full dissolution and dissolve them into the One Source—God Source Light through the Eternal Love of Forgiveness and Forgetfulness. Completely Heal and Seal my personal Auric Field from any further intrusion. Return all energies and essences that are in divine right order NOW. I call back NOW — All that is my self sovereign God power and right. I choose my perfection to stand in the Eternal Light and represent my full sovereignty and freedom for all human beings on this planet. I receive this Gift now as I will Share this Gift with ALL. All is One with the Light. I AM UNITY. Beloved God — Thank you!”


20 thoughts on “The Dark Side of Ascension for Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers

  1. Hi Denise. I had communication with yourself thru an email at the end of last year from South Florida. At the time I was not ready to share the information that I am about to speak of but with your thread concerning Lisa’s latest post, I thought I would share the information I began recieving in the summer of 09 along with another. It would be what your are calling phase 2 of Ascension.

    I have processed the information for a period of a full year till I was fully able to accept it as accurate. Through some obscure reading found on the internet it really started the ball rolling with the 2 of us and processing this information. The gist of all the processed information allowed me to fully integrate my Higher Self or Future Self fragments in order that there only be communication withhin myself with no more from any type of intermediaries. This was quite a process of release which could only happen within segments for myself. I now hold within the the majority of the “metaphysical movement” has been lead thru a false insert program that was inserted into the hologram by the beings that are holding all of humanity in enslavement. These are extremely high level beings from the future and as far as I am concerned this insert program was ingenuous. I have a knowing of these beings from my Future Self and from that time period, but very minimally. The ony way I have been able to release this false program has been working thru the various level’s until I felt a full connection with my Higher Self. There are no longer any intermediaries allowed by myself between my Higher Self knowing and Source.

    This fase program consists of all the many flase arcehtype’s that we all open our energy to at one time or another and then since we do this of free will, the so called black tee shirts take this freely offered energy and use it to further enslave humanity. I know this can seem like a hard pill to swallow but it is My Truth and this truth has not come easily. As far as the “attacks” by the dark tee shirts, the clearer and more personal truth based connection you can have with your Higher Self, the better, while also continually holding a Higher Love, which is neutrality based, towards Humanity.

    In essence, what you do is release yourself as fully as possible from the false insert program which is the major program the majority of all Lightworkwers are doing their work from. I know this is hard to hear and takes time to process, but once again this is My Truth. If you can stay out of the false program there will be marginal attack, if none at all at times, but it is a process to stay very aware and to work to stay out of as many fallen and negative vibrations on this planet. Believe in yourself as a free agent of the Universe with freewill to do whatever you choose and don’t allow the dark tee’s to feed off of your energy anymore. During this process remember to always be very gentle with yourself and hold the Highest Love for Yourself as this is what is rightfully ours. I hope this sharing will help with what so many are stating as attacks by the dark tees. I Love You All!

    • ashatahealing,

      It always amazes me when people believe they absolutely know what I’m going through and why and they offer me their interpretation of why I’m living through what I am at the moment. This is why I often say in my posts that not all people will be experiencing what I’m currently talking about. Some yes, but the majority will not. Why? Because everyone is not the same and everyone is not working on the same identical energies and projects and not even always at the same time. In other words, everyone is not a “plumber” and there are no “electricians”, no “foundation workers”, no “heating and air workers” etc. etc. etc. First Wavers, Second Wavers, Starseeds, Lightworkers, Angelics, Indigos, Crystals etc. should reveal that we’re not all exactly the same within this Process and that we each have our missions and particular talents (and obviously the negative attacks or difficulties/tests etc. to try to stop us) for it.

      I understand that you (and certain other people who’ve done this here) want to help with your viewpoints and insights. I honestly understand that and appreciate your heartfelt desire to help. However, this entire situation that we’ve all been discussing about this Dark topic is so much more complex than the aspect you’ve perceived so far. You’ve become aware of one larger general aspect of this and you’re using it to throw over everything and everyone involved with the ongoing Ascension Process. I’m sorry but it’s far, far, far more complex than that.

      Stay safe and keep learning…as we all are. 🙂


  2. Hi Denise….the time is finally right for me to finally comunicate with you. I have tried many times but the message has gotten erased (I forgot to write my name) or for some reason creating an account since her up graded your site was ifficult….impossible!

    I am so happy to be here right now.
    I haven t written a comment since Feb. It feels like ages for me. I have grown much since and a huge thank you to you for a lot of that. The have no fear comment you gave me back then is completely in subject with the times. The dark energies and so much more. I have worked on having no fear and it has freed me a lot. I had nno idea I lived with so much fear so much of the time. A lot of fear about the unseen. I seem to feel them less to almost none for a few months and now know to not start feering them again if they return.

    I love you so much for all you do. For everything you share with us and for being so open and generous. There are very few places I can go to for validation for what I go trough and this is my first choice. The next are a couple of friends and still sometimes I must edit. There are a lot of changes and a dear friend of mine is starting to go trought the ascension symptoms of phase 1 which means I get to talk about it with her. I have told her about not fearing what she has started to feel (the dizziness) and see……She sees white shadows (mine have always been dark)…..any ways much too long message.
    My main purpose for writting today is to let you know How much I truly appreciate having you do all that you do for us (humanity). I am ready to have more info on the subject we last exchanged on back in Feb. because I won t let fear control me. Thank you again Denise.

    • linnydd,

      I’m so glad you’ve been able to write Comments again. 🙂 Thank you also for your kind words, they mean a lot to me.

      The No Fear thing is obviously something that’s reached a brand new level for many people since Oct. 2010, and like lamplighter 2 has so correctly said, there’s more to come. But we’ll get through this phase because we’re old pro’s at this stuff at this point.

      Glad you’re back linnydd.
      Hugs & Gratitude,

  3. I am very sorry Denise, just wanted to give my viewpoint, that is why I was sure to state that it is “My Truth”! I didn’t want to offend you, that wasn’t why I sent the post, I am sorry it was percieved wrong. It sounds like I was out of line and I am truly sorry for that, once again, that wasn’t my intention. I didn’t want my post “to throw over everything and everyone involved’ as you stated. I am very sorry that I came across that way. I totally agree with you, the whole process is very complex and probably shouldn’t have posted what I did as it was very individual, I thought my heart was in the right place but I think i erred! Feel free to remove the post!

    • ashatahealing,

      Do not apologize for your current perspectives! Your current perspectives are just as correct and legitimate as mine are. And the absolute best part of all this is that we BOTH have so much more to learn, re-learn, remember, experience and discover. There is no end to this process of growth, not for any of us at any level in any dimension.

      You didn’t do or say anything “wrong”. There is no wrong…there’s just so very much more is all. Keep doing what you’ve been doing. 🙂


  4. So, the cool thing about continuing to use the Command has been that some really interesting things are starting to come through. Last night, I got some remarkable wind-chime-like sounds accompanied by some visual twinkling of mulit-colored merkaba-looking thingies that moved in rhythm with the wind-chime stuff. I have absolutely NO idea what this or means, but the love coming out of the sound and visuals was so intense that I believe it was good stuff — now if the interpretation would just come through it would be helpful (3-D Monkey-mind wants answers NOW!) 🙂


    • Jean,

      How beautiful! Sounds like this are typically from 7D so this sounds really nice.

      Yeah, just tell “monkey mind” to back off. 😉 At this point it may just be a 7D sound/light visual for you with not much of a message behind it. Oftentimes the sound/light IS the message.

      Hugs and well done,

  5. Dear Denise,

    Uhhhh…I feel deeply exhausted today and in a constant flip flop of shifting ways of seeing. As always thank you for your post. 🙂 Communicating isn’t coming very easy for me today, but I wanted to ask you a question and relay some things. I’ll start back with your post in which you describe the large male phenomenon and your nighttime attack by the giant male nonhuman folk.

    Well, within that week somewhere, I started seeing info/interviews of people around the subject of their awakening into what I think you/we on your transitions wavelength would call 5d heart based existence. “the egoic mind having moved into the heart” i read somewhere. I was mesmerized by these interviews and being exposed to them nightly on one of these satelite channels. I had been, ever since the October 31st/Hathors experience been seeing through my egoic mind (words are very difficult!) more and more, sometimes staying there for days at a time. And then somthing peeps back in and makes me think I’m “me” and all the psychology creeps back up again. Usually I can see it so clearly that that is what is happening and shift back to “All that is” living. This is all really wierd and strange though and I’ve felt like I was on drugs and completely dettached/without judgement, but the gigantic love was and is here….

    I was wondering what your thoughts were on “advaita” or the death of the individual, I remember one of the men on the site here referred to Ramesh Balsekar once, I believe. ? On the large male front, that came up for me in the form of one of the “teachers” of advaita right now I guess, Wayne Liquorman who is a big big guy of like 6 foot 7 or something. I resonate with him, but it terrifies part of me at the same time. I don’t have anything more coherent to share really, Denise, just I love you and thank you. 🙂

    One more thing could be that I have been seeing lots from both lists of symptoms go on in and around me these past weeks. strange days indeed, like lisa renee said! oh, also, I get full all-over body shivering and hot cold flashes and also blue and metallic orb thing sightings upon using the command..

    That’s all, thank you and love, Em

  6. Ashatahealing-

    I agree. It’s been a difficult process for me to let go of archetypes of teachers and protectors. Whether or not they have been means of enslavement or merely training wheels…. eh… in any case. These modes and paradigms are no longer relevant.

    I love Denise and Transitions and everyone for posting on here. It is so good to hear others’ experience and perceptions.

    Thank you for sharing.

  7. ׺°”Hi All”°º×

    Last night I participated in my first live teleconference call with Lisa Renee and the Energetic Synthesis Come-Unity. It was 3 hours long! Her guided unified field meditation/ clearing/ multi-d protection/ activation at the end was remarkably powerful, and included a group activation of the ‘Command’. Wow. I highly recommend this to anyone who feels a true resonance with Lisa Renee’s transmissions. This kick-ass, front-line spiritual warrioress knows her shit, inside and out, and offers valuable tools for us to continue to reclaim our rightful places in our new planetary stations, for the Service of One.

    Because I have been using the Command daily, I was immediately confronted with an immense amount of data related to the deliberate manipulation and corruption of the synchronic leylines of this Land. Black Magic and Luciferian disruption codes connected to malevolent sexual practices, genocidal agendas and Black Ops.

    I needed and wanted greater protection in navigating all this, as I began experiencing Dream Time attacks from multi-d surveillance technologies who were NOT keen on my etheric discoveries. The Negative Form has an ugly, ugly array of scalar technologies that we should never underestimate the power of. However, we need not FEAR them either, as it is high time to Wield our Light with greater Defense Tactics.

    Lisa Renee offers many such protection shields on her site ‘Energetic Synthesis’. Her 12-D Shield is wonderful, and her meditations with the Guardians/ Auroras are very effective protections as well. I don’t usually recommend other people’s activation transmissions for the installment of protection devices in our auric fields/ chakras, however, Lisa Renee is a rare exception for me. I feel she has an impeccability and energetic integrity worthy of referral.

    Here is a link to her FREE 12-D Shield Meditation:
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    I feel it is important to emphasize how we are not alone in this. We have an immense amount of guidance and assistance from benevolent cosmic beings, some of whom have not had the opportunity to work with us directly due to our energetic signature distortions and vibrational incongruency. Yet, as we are activating our ascensional templates, new Beings and Guides are being assigned to us by our Higher Selves.

    Ask, and you shall receive.

    With much love and regard,
    -:¦:- Tieshla -:¦:-

    • Tieshla,

      Thanks so much for this information for us all. 🙂 I too sense Lisa Renee is a unique and very rare source of this particular type info for those of us old Multi-D Warriors of Light. Things have changed since Oct. 2010, and we’re now having to deal with these Dark Ones in ways we haven’t before. No fear…it just tells me we’re closer than we’ve ever been before too.

      Thanks again for sharing and I hope arishantia (karina) sees your Comment too. If anyone needs permanent peace from these monsters it’s her.

      High Heart Hugs,

  8. Hi Denise and everybody here.

    I don’t usually like to comment to add more negativity to what is already a difficult time and I do question if it is ‘just me and my thinking’ but…I wanted to comment about the current energies and how other well known writers seem to be moving into the ‘new day’ and yet right now I feel like I am in totally the opposite. My emotional states move through confusion, uncertainty, depression and darkness. I do have periods of highs and productivity but then ‘the mood’ comes over me again and I lose my focus, my will to live and my enthusiasm for whatever I was doing. Just when I have an idea and I feel inspired to act it soon fades and my vision is taken away again. I truly wonder if I am bipolar and if I’m not, then this constant up and down business will drive me to be!

    I remember reading someone’s comment on another website saying that “All I wanted was to live a happier, fuller more abundant and creative life and yet going down this path of spiritual growth, has bought me more confusion, uncertainty and much less abundance (money-wise) than I seemed to have before.” I know we need to have faith and these days I am so used to the depression and lack of motivation that I have resigned to the fact that I just have to keep pushing through those days because since I have chosen this path, it will always be like this. If I let the depression and the moods stop me then I will never get anywhere.

    That thought makes me so angry and today I do feel angry for all the lost dreams, disappointments and for not feeling happy in my life and not seeing how I ever will be. BUT as usual, next week I will probably be on cloud 9 again.

    I know this can be the usual pattern of breakthroughs and moving up levels of consciousness but boy there is really something in the saying ‘ignorance is bliss.’

    Anyway, just wanted to give a shout out to see if anyone else was feeling these current up and downs and uncertain feelings.

    Denise, do you think it is still the dark side or just more processing of my own garbage that is coming to the surface. Maybe I am just one big rubbish DUMP!

    One more thing…

    The thing that inspired me to write this is that it worries me when I look to other people/writers/bloggers etc…that I trust…and they are not feeling or at least conveying anything like the negativity and darkness that I am feeling right now. It is a BIG relief to read your writing Denise and others when you/they are confirming what is currently happening energetically. When no one is talking about the darkness and where we are, I feel very alone and misunderstood. Which compounds the issue because I already feel alone with little support for my projects and blocked from the world. Anyone else resonate with this?

  9. nadeanna,
    Thanks for the comment on my post. I also Love Denise, she has amazing Strenght and Tenacity and I have much admiration and respect for her and that is why I come to this blog, she has taken on what many would not have the courage by speaking “outside of the metaphysical box”! Thank You, Denise!

    • High Heart Hugs back at you Ashatahealing. 🙂

      I’m currently working on another post I hope to complete and publish today about this topic. I’m very aware that plenty of people are NOT experiencing what so many of us have been and still are. I also know many of them don’t even believe that the Dark negative stuff/beings/energies/forces etc. exists! 🙄 More to come soon about this new level and phase of this many are having to deal with and learn from.


  10. Dailygreatness,

    I totally concur. (Looking forward to your next post. Denise!) 🙂

    The barrage of attacks by the dark energies has been so intense & so noticeable, that it was with a sense of disbelief that I skimmed over the other ‘lightworkers’ on the internet and found no one talking about it….just, ‘la la la, isn’t everything wonderful’. I’m all for being positive, but to light a candle you have first to acknowledge that the darkness is there! I have noticed this before, when something dramatic happens, and the people who sound as if they do nothing else all day but chat to Pleiadeans etc, seem weirdly unaware of it. I now think, either they are not on the frontline, or they’re deluded, or they’re not being honest….any of which explanations are disappointing. Denise is the only writer authentic enough to report things honestly.

    Re, the hammering by the dark, I feel somehow protected now, as if a shield or pyramid was placed around me….but I’m being very, very careful, not to let my frequency drop. Last week, so many times I thought it had stopped, but it turned out they were just regrouping for another attack, from a completely unexpected direction! 😀
    But I know this is a good sign, however unpleasant it’s been. We are SO close to the transition, now, that’s why the anti-forces went berserk!


  11. Dailygreatness,

    Yes. I resonate with what you’re saying. All of the above. Right now I’m having difficulty in getting proper internet connection, since that Hurricane Tomas here in the Caribbean. I don’t know if the Void is actually there or it’s just in my head right now, but I feel no desire to continue with my creatives… for now. There have been times when I just want to think it … and poof: the creation has been made. No more physical labor. I’m that tired.

    This is nothing new (for the entire year actually) … and I hardly go on any blog website except Denise’s these days. It’s just that plain honest and down-to-earth for me, and I don’t have to fake a positive energy input. If I feel “down”… I’m learning to not label it. I just go with what is. I don’t care if I’m tired. I don’t care if I feel happy or sad. The Now lets me know it’s okay, however it is. Just Being is all there is in THIS present moment… RIGHT now. Screw all those fluffy sweet positive-light quotes out there. They’re not being real and honest and true. They were okay back then somewhere in 2000. But not right now when you’re facing a LOT of ironies with a LOT of bulldozing from 2010. Too many ironies I cannot fathom counting right now based on my experience and what I’m witnessing right now… but a LOT of ironies that are hard to express without tearing up.

    And don’t label your up-and-down energies as “negative”. Just go deep within and accept it as it is… until your Higher Self knows exactly what next to do or be. Energies of any kind right now are way too hey-wired (in my humble opinion) to be called negative or positive at this point. Tieshla accurately called it “vibrational incongruency”. When I go deep… very deep in my Inner Well… I bless the Darkness, because there is NO way in hell I could appreciate that Light. So there you go. 🙂

    So these days… I feel a GREAT need to be grounded with the Earth. My “depression”, “uncertainty” and “venting frustrations” have lead me to gardening outdoors. Digging the earth… pulling and tugging out earth laden stones… getting my hands dirty… observing the seedling growing taller and popping out of the dark soil, in their starter pot… enjoying the pouring of rain on my face… soothes my Soul. I don’t care if gardening is not my Soul’s Calling. At this point I don’t give a damn. I just want to get up and get out there and feel organic and real again… instead of feeling so domesticated. For once.

    I don’t know if what I express here is of any help to you. But no: you’re not alone. Ever. We got your back because we’re naturally connected here… going through such motions and wallowing in a LOT of uncertainty. Feel free to express yourself here and… this too shall pass and it’s now passing already.

    RE: I hope I’m not deluding myself into thinking that these nasties aren’t out there. They seem VERY much so and we know it!

    Dailygreatness: if you feel that you’re under attack… check out Lisa Renee’s blog Tieshla mentioned and give it a whirl. Other than that… find what your Higher Self states thus what’s best to do in this muddy, miring, meandering mud we all seem to be in. Sometimes I think yes that’s the point: to really BE present IN the Dark.

    Aie: words can NEVER express proper where I’m trying to get at… but I hope you’re getting what I’m saying here. We all support each other here. ^_^’

    Namasté dailygreatness,
    Lou Ann

    Love you all,
    Lou Ann

  12. loulu79 and Barbra,

    Thank you for your affirmative replies to my comment. It is always comforting to know that others are experiencing that same, particularly when it is a confusing low energy experience like we are talking about.

    In a lot of ways I don’t like to comment/complain about how things are because the ascension experience is so volatile and confusing and after years of the same things it just seems pointless however as I see it, the only way out > is through. At least this is what I continue to hold on to as my last hope.

    I like what you said loulu79, about BEING with it and not judging it as good or bad just accepting whatever comes and continue to move through it and stop creating resistance. Hopefully then, we will arrive on the other side of the clouds where the sun is always shining.

    Denise’s latest post does make perfect sense to me (although I do need to read it again as there was a lot in there). One of the biggest realisations I have had and really started to embrace the truth of, is that we are both dark and light and we have to first accept that we are that before we can truly polarise to one or the other.

    The other realisation I have had in regards to light and dark is that darkness is only the absence of light and is not bad in itself but does not have the level of consciousness to make the choices that light or love (however you see it) would make. Therefore, the darkness/fear is actually a catalyst to moving people towards the light. It serves it purpose perfectly and is all part of the whole grand plan.

    In regards to other writers that seem to hide during times of darkness or negativity, it has been a good thing for me to start to trust my own inner judgement and not scan the internet for validation so much. I do love Denise’s honesty and that is why I still come here but it has been a good exercise to begin to trust my own inner knowing and understanding and I have seen my strength increase through conscious awareness of what is going on instead of my old response of not being able to get out of bed or other very victim behaviours and cycles that kept me stuck.

    Much love to everyone,


  13. Hi Denise! I love the fact that I found this from googeling something I thought was an incredibly individual thought and quest. Someone, whose work I listen to a lot, suggested to “try” or “find out for myself”. I am inclined to think that my questions may be too esoteric for google…but there you go, there are obviously other like minded people using the web to spread their words of wisdom : D

    Since I started my adult journey of waking up to the light, I noticed a pattern of catastrophic thinking. It is a fear influenced thinking and does not resonate with how I was brought up or perceived the world as young. The images are clear, sudden and traumatic, and always involve loved ones. They scare me and lower my energies. At first I thought it was me waking up to reality, I remember the day I noticed the new pattern of thought. At the time I was doing many pilgrimages in the mountains (Southern Spain) alone with my dog. I remember bringing it up with my homoeopath when we did a miasmatic consultation.

    Now, as I am speeding up my personal thus universal work, I sense an increase in these thoughts. I heard that ‘light workers are attacked from the Darker Side’, and it occurred to me that perhaps that could be the explanation behind what is going on to me (and maybe others?). The thought can be so absurd and violent and unhelpful, it doesn’t make any sense to me. And my happy and motivated disposition to carry on my light work goes down the drain…for some days until I pick myself up again.

    I would like to understand how to walk away from it once and for all.

    LOVE AND LIGHT. I ask Archangel Michael for protection, for everyone’s highest good, and to transform and transmute any negativity that may have found its way into this message, into LOVING HEALING ENERGY.

  14. “Denise , I want to thank you for putting my mind at ease. All day u have been ducking the dark ones and as i sit here in my room at 1:am ears ringing little sleep and appeaences by then. I was thinking it was a tug of war between the light and dark forces on who was taking me and what was in store for me. many scerinos in Sumerian and other types of scripting. very confusing. Since i was contacted in sept 2011 i have not had a clear understanding of my roll, I feel both sides were playing tug of war with ny future. i have have had no idea why. i was made some how i was going tg be some sort of higher up for whatever reason. .now i get it. my father had passed in augest and alll the things associated with famnilky in a cdrisis. i was taken fron ny backyard and placed into 72 hour mental assisnment because i told mny son i had seen ufos abd they were picking ne up. My guns were seized for no other reason the n seeing ufos. my rights totally disregarded and i had a hearing before a judge whom told me to get cleared by mental health in six months before she decides om returning my properoity. i hav a civil right organization looking into my case for constitutions violations. i am generally a positive person and am curoipous why thesed dark one bother me. they have caused me turmoil and i will make it stop. i guess i am looking into the wrong areas when i do research on the things i see.. on 11 11 11 i believe i was in another deminsions because i went into a trance for seven hours at a friends house. i was outside and it rained off and on. when i went in. i was totally dry. i have seen things people wouldn’t understand, i see the loud people an all kind of strange things. some magnificent a lot scary form the dark ones. i would like to know my roll. again , thank you . i will be able to sleep a couple hours before work. Sincerely Mike”

    Michael Smith – Mike,

    I quoted your Comment and placed it under this article only because I can’t publish any Comments placed under images.


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