Post October 28th & 11-11-11 Adventures

As many of you know, my computer passed away on October 28, 2011 along with the ending of the Mayan calendar—aka the past 16.4 billion-yearlong Evolutionary Cycle. Somehow seems appropriate that it went to PC heaven on that day yet its sudden death caught me by surprise and sent me into a mild panic and hurried research mode for a new PC with the important 11-11-11 portal right around the corner. I thought the timing of all this sucked of course, plus felt suspicious of other things I hadn’t quite figured out at that point but I pushed on as usual. I’m not saying that pushing was the correct thing for me to do during the mammoth Ending/Beginning transition, but that’s what I did because it felt important to get back online as quickly as I could. As usual I expected to perceive more about the why of it all and this is still unfolding along with everything else. Due to our crossing over the October 28, 2011 end date, many of us have suddenly found ourselves in an intense new learning curve (and growing energies) for the simple fact that we’re no longer existing or functioning within that old Evolutionary Cycle. And because even Starseeds become “creatures of habit”, we’ve been using those old tools in this very new place/time/space and discovering that things have indeed changed in very big ways. It’s time to really let go of much more now.

I somehow got myself a new replacement computer during the still strange feeling post October 28, 2011 time space and was able to get back online fairly quickly. The next big energy/reality/consciousness adventure was the approaching 11-11-11 portal which I’d sensed for the past few years was going to be monumentally important within the Evolutionary Ascension Process. I and my Mom had planned to listen to Tom Kenyon’s Pituitary Attunement recording between 9–10 PM (PDT) on 11-11-11, mainly because the Hathors feel like ancient buddies and kinsfolk to me. (When I was 7–9 years old, the only way I drew “people” was with triangular shaped heads with unusual dark hair that hung down behind their ears in a strange way. My childhood “people” always looked exactly like ancient Egyptian Hathor, but of course I didn’t make the connection for a few decades!) That was my plan, but then there was reality and it turned out to be different from my plan of course. Another unexpected surprise on another of these important post October 28th days. (Yep there’s a message for all of us in this seeming post October 28th confusion.)

Like many of you reading this, I too expected great things from the 11-11-11 portal, and why not because previous portal days have been very positive and important Stair Steps within this Process. I’m not saying 11-11-11 didn’t live up to its worldwide and multidimensional reputation because it did, I’m just saying that as a Starseed I should have expected the unexpected also. I’m saying that I know better after all I’ve been through in this life, but because I’m so exhausted like the rest of you, I SO want The Battle over…completely, utterly, and permanently over and over NOW. Yeah, well, it is but with some stubborn bits n’ pieces of Dark crap needing to be dealt with and extracted first. Sigh…same ol same ol story for the Starseeds—aka Higher Energy Embodiers.

11-11-11 DAYTIME BATTLES & TRANSMUTING

I woke up on 11-11-11 ready for some exciting positive changes to unfold throughout the day and evening, but what I got hit with only an hour later was a minor attack from the Dark Ones. Just like my computer dying on October 28th, this 11-11-11 negative tidbit of an Initiation caught me totally off-guard too and it shouldn’t have. I was so startled by this sudden and unexpected negative attack being directed at my Mom to get at me on 11-11-11 (this tactic is a common one with the Dark One when they’re trying to derail certain Starseeds from doing important transformational/embodying energy work), that I fell into anger and then mild depression and had myself a short 11-11-11 Pity Party. WTF!?

I haven’t been had like this by the Dark Ones in a good while but here it was and on 11-11-11 no less. I felt emotionally manipulated via the partnership I and my Mom have, and totally derailed by these dark jerks…and yet…there was a very important reason for this attack, perceived or otherwise. I was angry and frustrated but I was also fully conscious of what was happening to my Mom and me and why. After going through these types of negative attacks a few hundred times over my lifetime, I’ve learned that the “Dark” has its purpose too and that it’s wise to shine that Light into one’s own inner Dark corners to see what might still be hiding in there—no matter how small—that’s holding you back from progressing on to the next level and phase of your spiritual Mission Work. In other words, it took a long time but I’ve learned to respect the Dark and what It has forced me to face, do, transmute, and remember. In a polarized world negativity can just as easily be USED to push-off of to propel oneself to where one needs to evolve to.

This tactic or perceived tactic by the Dark Ones told me that the 11-11-11 portal was something powerful and important enough that they felt it necessary to try to prevent as many Starseeds (and no doubt Indigos too) as they could from doing what we’d planned on doing that day. Don’t forget that the 11-11-11 portal and the many world meditations done by Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos etc. was the first major global Conscious Co-Creational Group Event we’ve done post October 28, 2011.

In trying to salvage 11-11-11 for myself and my Mom, I told her we both were being attacked and manipulated by the Dark Ones so I was intentionally disengaging and going to my bedroom to get myself back to a better place and override this. However, before the 11-11-11 Party could happen I had to go through the surprise 11-11-11 Dark Battle and Initiation to the next Level Portal first. For me this required I became fully aware of and then consciously transmute one particular past life “victim” wound, resentment, and small fear energies I (obviously) still had that was caused by my and my Mom’s actual physical deaths in that past life.

(In this past life I and my current Mother were both males and skilled warriors. One dreary, soggy, wet afternoon in Europe somewhere the two of us suddenly found ourselves outnumbered by a group of barbarians. We both knew we would die that afternoon and so fought back-to-back against these barbarian warriors until we both were killed by them. My Mom dealt with that battle and our deaths better than I have and our fighting to our deaths together has carried-over into this life, consciousness and timeline as Starseed Warriors of Light yet again, except I had some unresolved “victim” anger and belief that absolutely could not be housed within me on the other side of 11-11-11. This experience reminds me of an old article I wrote called, “You Can’t Store That Crap In Here!” You most certainly cannot carry it or anything like it through the 11-11-11 Portal Pillars!)

But before I got to that special transformational point during this 11-11-11 Initiation process, I once again fell into that old familiar emotional and mental quicksand “Victim/Victimizer polarity archetype” as Lisa Renee calls it. Maintaining neutrality while in this unpleasant polarized attack and state was nearly impossible for me until I stopped being angry and shocked by it, relaxed and surrendered into it, went down and honestly saw and felt MY past-life distorted belief (and the trapped or stuck energies from it) connected with my Mom and our deaths. As soon as I did this it was quick and easy to fix, transmute and released it all and move on. Starseeds are Living Alchemists who use our bodies and beings as the sacred laboratory where we carry out our alchemical transmuting and embodying of the New for humanity in the New Cycle. And in the end it doesn’t matter all that much who (Dark Ones) or what (unresolved past life wounds etc.) triggers this Starseed Living Alchemical Embodying Process. As they say…“just do it” because there really is nothing else to do but transmute the lower and embody the higher.

11-11-11 EVENING MEDITATION & PARTY

That evening I listened to Tom Kenyon’s/the Hathors Pituitary Dimensional Attunement seven times and experienced listening to it and counting each time I did and had to hit the replay button, I simultaneously fell asleep and dreamed. Needless to say it was a very weird sensation being both awake and listening and physically doing things to keep listening to the Pituitary Attunement on my stereo player AND be dreaming like I was in a sleep state at the same time. I’ve experienced this a few times over the past five years or so but this was the most intense and highly conscious I’ve been while experiencing it. What I found more interesting was that there was no confusion, no bleed-through of either event or no getting lost or confused within any of it. It seemed perfectly normal that I could be both awake and doing things physically AND in a dream state dreaming at the same time. It was multidimensional multitasking evidently and one of the New abilities growing numbers of us will discover we now have post end of the Mayan calendar/Evolutionary Cycle. One of the 11-11-11 Party favors gained due to my earlier 11-11-11 Battle and Initiation no doubt.

After listening seven times there was that half-hour or so period where we were to keep our focus on our Pituitary area. It was during this part of the Hathors/Tom Kenyon 11-11-11 meditation that I clairvoyantly saw massive Light energies raining down not only on Earth/humanity, but upon the entire Universe, in my limited perception of the “Universe” that is. The point evidently was that the Light energies that the 5–12D Hathor beings (and who knows who else) brought in through the 11-11-11 portal was for the entire Universe and not only Earth and humanity. This helped me put things into perspective a bit better, plus understand why the Dark Ones tried so hard to prevent many Starseeds (in whatever form that took individually) from participating—Consciously Co-Creating—during the 11-11-11 major embodying and imprinting some of the New blueprints or “architecture” within the New Evolutionary Cycle now that we’ve exited the old one.

SOME WONDERFUL LISA RENEE QUOTES

In her November 2011 Through the Wall in Time article, Lisa Renee said many very important things that I’d like to quote and comment on briefly. One of them was what she said about how Starseeds are typically misunderstood within the “Ascension community”. Because I’ve personally experienced it many times from people I thought should have known better but didn’t/don’t, I was glad to hear Lisa mention this added difficulty Starseeds have to deal with on top of everything else! (Every word written in bold was done by me.)

“Many times it is the Ascension community that is the most hostile towards the Starseed who is providing an incredibly large service to the planet – as a Polarity Integrator. This role is highly misunderstood on the planet and the person’s own peers will attack him for his core essence mission…”

Last year I backtracked some links on TRANSITIONS to someone’s Facebook page where I discovered a woman had posted that she “…no longer reads Denise Le Fay’s material because Denise talks too much about Dark beings and negativity but is only projecting her own inner darkness into her writings and blaming negative beings for it all.”  I couldn’t believe what I was reading and that some person or people honestly believe that about me or any other Starseed. I was hurt at first but realized this woman (whoever she was) didn’t have a clue about Starseeds and what we actually do and why we do it.

“This 3D reality is hostile to those who attempt to bring freedom to the planet and its people. Knowing that this planet’s majority of assumed leadership (the controllers) is mentally deranged, is helpful to those who came from other planets to devote themselves to spiritual ascension dynamics. Many of us are newly introduced on this planet to the concept of sociopathic leadership. Fundamentally as a Starseed, comprehension and acceptance of that fact is critical to being effective in this world. One can never expect to be treated fairly, justly or kindly – as that is not what the current external system is founded upon. It is for those reasons that we have incarnated here with a challenging job – one which holds much honor and responsibility…”

“As Starseed Architects of Living Light observe and experience these code reversals, (this happens in physical matter and in the pre-manifested matrices) they are capable of overriding the artificial code to the living code of original creation and intent. This is the process of restoring congruency in the planetary architecture to the Natural Laws of God, the Law of One…”

“So in many cases the Starseed will be exposed to negative polarity systems and “perceived” negative experiences in order to override the timeline of destruction, as well as source the causation in the timeline where the destructive event has applicable relationship to current outcomes. It returns to the Oneness to override the destruction created in polarity.”

When I write about my physical and non-physical negative attacks, battle experiences, Astral kidnappings and other interactions with the Dark Ones, I’m using my personal interactions and learning’s with these negatively polarized, Service to Self beings to assist other incarnate Starseeds going through the same Alchemical Ascension transmuting and embodying Process who may not as yet consciously remember that this is what we Volunteered to do now and why. A Group of somebodies (the Starseeds) MUST come into the system of 3D polarized physicality to override, transmute, and finally embody higher energies otherwise the Dark Ones and the lower frequencies, consciousness and reality will never change. Magical thinking or praying and/or envisioning that many of the fluffies and “Ascension Community” does is not what transmutes lower frequencies and embodies higher ones. The Dark Ones have been thrilled that so many people believe this of course, and they’ve used it for decades to prolong their reign and control over humanity and Earth. People like that woman on Facebook will believe whatever they’re capable of perceiving, but it does not change the fact that a Group of Starseed Volunteers are the ones doing the multidimensional dirty work that’s allowing the New to even get in and anchor here.

I’ve mentioned before about when I was five years old I had a talk with The Sky (which was higher dimensional Home) and told Them there had been a terrible mistake because I was back down here on Earth again and that the people here are crazy, violent, unstable and untrustworthy and I did NOT want to be here among them again. The Sky responded as It always did and eventually convinced me that there hadn’t been any “mistake” at all but that I’d actually Volunteered to come down here to do specific things in this life, body, and time for those same crazy and unstable people. This didn’t sooth me much so The Sky talked to me until It convinced me I was protected while among the crazy, violent Earth natives, and that I had Them near me constantly to help me with the difficulties and limitations I’d encounter down here.

For far too many years I’ve oftentimes felt guilt over the fact that I’ve had so much intimate face-to-face time with the Dark Ones. Two decades ago I even thought that there might be something in me that was causing me to attract these horrible, negative, evil and dangerous encounters and attacks from the Darkness! The funny part is that every word of that is true…just not in the way it sounds at first. Like I’ve said before, when Light comes into a polarized place that’s Dark it literally glows in that darkness and is easily seen and automatically attracts the Dark Ones because the Light-bearer has entered what the Dark Ones believe is their territory. It shouldn’t take a lot of brain power to put two-and-two together to realize that the ones carrying the Light are automatically going to have to deal with repeated attacks and battles with the Dark Ones for the perceived invasion and lifestyle and food source threats we represent to the Dark Ones. But the majority of people—and as Lisa said even the “Ascension community”—doesn’t know about any of this or understand because they’re submersed in and mind controlled by the Darkness/Dark Ones themselves and have forgotten how to perceive beyond that low frequency range.

“To those few that do embody the ascension experience, it ceases to be theory or philosophy – but an actual state of existence. When we reach the higher state of embodiment of our own inner spirit, we cease to be governed by the lower 3D mental process. This allows the sensory experience to override the ego’s mental perception and we then can allow the acceptance of all that exists in that moment. To arrive at this vantage point, one must be resolved of the authority problem and fearless in being judged or attacked by the external…”

This is one of the things some of us are working on within ourselves now because we’ve exited the Mayan calendar/Evolutionary Cycle/timeline and exist within the growing New Cycle, Earth and timeline. I don’t think enough of us realize yet how much has and will continue to change in us and around us because we’ve completed and exited the old Evolutionary Cycle/Mayan calendar, or as Lisa Renee called it, “The planet’s energetic architecture in time/space has shifted which allows access and exchange into another Universal Gateway since late October.”  The rest of 2011 and all of 2012 will help each of us to consciously realize this and much more however.

This line is another of my favorites and long-known truths:

“Your personal and direct relationship with God Source inside you is the only relationship that matters.”

This is what “Soul Mate” has always meant to me. It’s easy thinking and believing that you/me/us are stupid little meaningless specks of silliness; knowing that we are in truth aspects of Source is another story and requires far more responsibility. We’ve also reached this phase of consciously knowing and accepting the greater aspects of our real Selves in this New, higher frequency Cycle.

I’ve waited and hoped someone would go into the deeper levels of knowing about the four Fixed signs of the zodiac—Taurus the Bull or Ox, Leo the Lion, Scorpio the Eagle, and Aquarius the Man or Human—the four faces of God or the “Four Living Creatures” as Lisa called them. I’ve felt them building over the past few years and assumed it was because we’ve entered the Age of Aquarius (one of the Fixed signs. Fixed signs hold things/reality in place), that all four of them would come into play much more consciously for us all. I suspect this is increasing now because we have entered the New Cycle and timeline, hence Lisa’s title for this article; “Through the Wall in Time”, and we need the New to be anchored and held in place…or maybe I’m way off on this one. Time will tell.

“Many of us on the Ascension pathway are attempting to decipher these radio channels coming online as our cellular (re)memories are linking into a relationship with the current station of our identity. Sometimes this “remembering” can be scary to the unprepared body and mind. Sometimes we are not deciphering the message clearly and we become confused in fear. This is part and parcel of the spiritual ascension embodiment process – the synthesis of polarities to allow the integration of higher frequency light to be available to the planet and the human race. The term to describe this transmutation process is called “Polarity Integrator” and many Starseeds have aggressive missions to do just that job while on planet Earth. It is a mission to be honored and respected when we are capable to understand its place of value in the necessity of spiritual ascension embodiment. All things potentially to be manifest in any timeline must be “embodied” in the physical plane of matter. To manifest the Ascension/Incension experience, Starseeds are embodying the process as prototypes to give this planet  and the race field access to the instruction set in this density. We are becoming a Stargate of Ascension. Thus, we are collectively the “Avatar of Ascension”.

Because I am one Starseed with this “aggressive mission”, it’s why I titled my book A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution. I knew I was (as most are) having to integrate and resolve polarities within myself/ourselves, my/our past-lives in multiple timelines, in our genetic blood lines, in the Earth’s Collective, in the Astral plane and beyond. These are just colorful “new age” type terms unless you’re a Starseed and have lived this Process within your body and being for many years already. If that’s the case then it’s so very much more, and is as Lisa points out, “To those few that do embody the ascension experience, it ceases to be a theory or philosophy – but an actual state of existence.”

There’s more…there’s always more, but this is getting long and I’m exhausted because the past week or so has been INTENSE (what’s new right?) so I’ll end this here. Once again, my deep gratitude to Lisa Renee for her wonderful November 2011 article. I hope she doesn’t mind me quoting a few of her paragraphs to use as inspiration plus a backdrop to my own experiences both recent and lifelong. [See her full article here https://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2011/11/13/november-2011-article-from-lisa-renee/  and/or here   http://www.energeticsynthesis.com/  ]

Denise

November 17, 2011

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68 thoughts on “Post October 28th & 11-11-11 Adventures

  1. Hi Denise,

    Excellent post…for the past 21 years, I have come up against so much of the negative, dense, darker and heavy energies and also wondered WTF?! Having started back in the 80s, teaching psychic/intuitive development and the Tarot, never would I have imagined that I was an ultra sensitive empath, with deep intuition, wondering what on earth I am doing in the midst of all this crazy chaos…not counting what I was aware as a kid.

    The point is, although I traveled a bit through the new age, this definitely was not a new age experience, not by any stretch of the imagination and while others were able to continue on that road (no judgment) only our blueprint and our ability to feel all that is out of balance: personally, globablly, universally~would call us to feel it and then transmute within our core being.

    Tired, exhausted doesn’t even cut it anymore and just to confirm and share a bit more…in September, Max/Crystal Skull was in the area where I live. My husband and I were beside ourselves with the prospect of connecting to this ancient artifact…and the randomness of Max showing up in the Berkshires/Massachusetts, well, this was unheard of. So, me being the transmuter that I am, stepped totally and completely out of my energy field and got on the band wagon to see “Max”. I expected to walk into the place, where “Max” was, being able to connect to the person sponsoring this and instead, completely out of my appropriate energy field, walked into energetic chaos, the closer I got to seeing “Max”

    Not only was I shocked beyond belief that this was the first part of the energy I picked up, as I continued to sit there, I finally came to realize and discover that people that were sitting with Max, were dumping their pain…it took me days to clear my space and I began to ask what the purpose of this experience was and was pretty much told that regardless of dates, or ancient artifacts, being an ultra sensitive empath, means that it is most critical to our energy and well being that we remain within our inner energy field…I expected some amazing things on Oct 28 and 11:11, and found myself transmuting more energy…so, between what you have shared and Lisa Renee’s last update, it is safe to say we have our work cut out for us.

    Thank you for taking the time to read this and thank you for the posts and the realness of what you share…the fluffies are just not going to get us through this one…did I say tired and exhaustion don’t cut it anymore…

    Be well travelling sister of lIght
    Carolyn/LightCounsel

  2. I feel a great deal of empathy for you and the rest who’s task is dealing with these negatives in the fashion that you do. I can’t describe what it is that I do very clearly, but, suffice it to say, it’s much less ‘painful’ for me, and in fact usually ends being quite joyous in it’s conclusion for all involved. I hope the speeding up of time allows for the duration of your suffering to decrease until it’s no longer suffering, but merely a temporary discomfort whose resolution is immediate and pleasurable. How lucky you are to get a NEW computer. I hope its a mac (less painful to use since the virus thing isn’t an issue so far)…We have a few, and haven’t had any problems in ten years with anything. I scan them occasionally to see if anythings up, but, nothing so far… BUT, the reason I felt a need to reply was the uncanny resemblance your Hathors experience was to mine. I too drifted into a lucid/obe dream state while listening, and the description of being aware of simultaneous dimensions and multitasking in multiple conscious states, carrying on various activities simultaneously without a great deal of confusion was exactly how I would describe what I experienced. I had my iPod on automatic repeat, and found that at about seven repetitions, I could not shut off my iPod, turn it down, nor would removing the headphone cord from the iPod, or even removing my headphones shut the damn thing off. At that point, it was obvious where I was, and used a different ability to turn OFF the repeat. What was interesting was the sense from then that I was given a small taste multidimensionally and simultaneously of several realities, and the abilities expressed in them. One of the more memorable and funny examples was being involved in a ‘game show’ whereby several of us drew a random card (with a letter on it), and were then shown a multiple choice question to answer with our drawn letter. You had to match up quite a few probabilities, not to mention how difficult the questions were to begin with, in order to be successful. After I was done with the dream state experience, and the time came for integration, I can only describe the mental geometries and scenes displayed mentally as comparable to being used to a 15″ Black and White rabbit ear tv, and being given a 3D IMAX screen with 5D image ability and definition as a replacement. Incredible. Incidentally, I’m not sure if you’ve seen any of Franco DeNicola’s work before, but, it was refreshing and exciting for me to watch….a little like remembering. Thank-you for everything you do. Heres a link if you are so inclined. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYX-UDLr6q0&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

  3. Hi Denise,
    It was very reassuring to read your post, and Lisa Renee’s comments. I have been very “spacey” since Oct. 28, even more so since 11-11-11. I was motivated to go on a raw diet, as my appetite for animal foods and grains took a nosedive. I know it is the integration of energies. I have been losing time a lot; at times, the clock seems to leap ahead significantly; while at others, the time has not changed at all since I last looked at it over what seems like at least 30 minutes. I had a very interesting “daydream” as I was driving (a time when I seem to be open to receiving). I was in a meeting at work, and two supervisors were discussing me like I wasn’t there. I loudly reminded them I was right there, but they continued. I tapped them on the shoulder and spoke to them again, but they just turned and left the room. No one could see me! I was bummed, and decided to leave, and found myself instantly at my car. Well, I could not open the door handle, as my hands went right through it. Exasperated, I thought “I need to get into this car!” Then, I was sitting in the driver’s seat, but I could not grasp the steering wheel or gear shift. I slammed my hand down on the seats, and said “I want to go home!” and then I was back at my house. After that, I realized I could do anything and be anywhere I wanted…I found myself in a wild area that has special meaning for me. Then, it was time to find the others in this new place…Even though I was alone, I knew as soon as I wanted company, I would find it. I wonder if that is what stepping into the new earth will be like?

  4. Excellent post, Denise.

    The disrespect you and Lisa talk about can take so many different forms:

    One of my favorites is what I call the Conscious Creation Police. As far as they’re concerned, people experiencing these things just aren’t very good creators. All they really need to do is take personal responsibility for what they’re creating and make better conscious choices, and then all these difficult and painful experiences will stop and they can have a happy life.

    And then there’s the half-baked pop psychology concepts like: you keep having these experiences because on some level there’s a negative psychological or emotional pay-off in it for you. It keeps happening because on some level you enjoy the pain and subconsciously you don’t want to let it go and create something better for yourself.

    Yeah right.

  5. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and your ideas about Lisa’s concepts. I’ve had my share of mental and emotional horrors but nothing compared to yours. I am so grateful for you, dearest Denise, and all the others who do this monumental work for the planet and the people.

    My job is to be a prototype for the new way of living in love and act as an example of how you live your life in a more fulfilling way so that your drive stems form the higher self and the source – not from socialization and upbringing. It means, energetically I need to get higher and higher all the time and stay one step ahead of the average. Still, like Larry said, it has been a lot easier job than yours, Denise.

    My 11-11-11 experience was pure bliss. I stepped into the light (although I was afraid I’m gonna collapse or even die) and it resulted into embodying more of my higher self and I honestly think I was connected to the new crystal grid. The bliss part lasted a few days but now I have a greater clarity 😉 of the sociopathic shit and density again!

    I have been asking why this setback and the answer I get is I need to be able to discern low from high more clearly to be able to avoid the lower so that I can maintain the higher frequency more stable and not to be dragged to the lower densities anymore. Releasing other people’s negativity is not needed from me any more and days and years of accepting other people’s destructive behavior are over. That is pretty good news and I am going to embrace all the difficulties and detach myself from others’ dramas very willingly from now on :D.

    I think this means, that now it is time to claim the personal power and total sovereignity so that other people’s crap won’t influence my emotional and mental state any more. All this because that is the prerequisite for creating the new ways of living from inside out instead of manipulating outer circumstances.

    I finally get what Lisa Renee has been saying about sovereignty and freedom all the time and – Thanks to the Source – also have a spiritual, emotional and even physical feeling of what it actually means here in this body and on this planet.

    Thank you again for this magnificent site and your remarkable work for all of us, Denise!

    • “My 11-11-11 experience was pure bliss. I stepped into the light (although I was afraid I’m gonna collapse or even die) and it resulted into embodying more of my higher self and I honestly think I was connected to the new crystal grid. The bliss part lasted a few days but now I have a greater clarity 😉 of the sociopathic shit and density again!”

      Aya,

      😆 Loved that line about now having “greater clarity of the sociopathic shit and density again” 😆 Knowing more, feeling more, perceiving more etc. brings with it increasing responsibilities not to mention that “Princess and the Pea” business too. The tiniest bit of something vibrating lower, slower, more dense etc., increasingly feels like a mountainous pile of ickyness to get through…even tho it’s only a little crumb of lower something. The contrast continues to grow too and is another learning curve I’ve been discovering myself throughout 2011.

      Thanks for the giggles over your new 11-11-11 perspective and contrast. 🙂

      Hugs,
      Denise

  6. Dear Denise thank you for your message. The energy on the 28th October was beyond belief and the 11.11.11 energy felt very much like a date with destiny. It is still ongoing and life feels a struggle. I have had much transmuting of the dark energies over a long period of time and sometimes I can feel them physically hit me – like being punched in the chest.

    Over the period of the 11.11.11. I had a dream where I was driving a car to discover it had no number plates, the words there is no identity in the All That Is- From the Unreal to the Real came to mind. All I know is to keep plodding on, soldier on because we are warriors of the light. love to you maureen

  7. Dear, Dear,Dear Denise, I too am a first waver, my body is now 71 and I’m pooped. How do I thank you for putting in words my journey. There existed within me a healthy dose of skepticism (a good thing in this crazy 3D I’ve learned) so I tended to question a lot of my own journey and integrating into 3D. On 11-11-11- after listening to Tom Kenyon/ Hathors activation 7x I go into what I call Dolphin Dreaming in the tub. The result was, that we are Stargates and the 11-11-11 was the mystic marriage of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine, Merlin did the ceremony, we walked thru each other 3x twin flame and myself I hope this resonates with you, there was more to the vision but this was the icing on the cake.

    Much Love to you, keep up the good work.
    Dianne Victoria Kennedy

  8. Hi there Fellow Star Seeds,
    There’s nothing more for me to say so I will just send my love to you all. Thank you for being here and, yep, we all know that we are in this til the conclusion. So, that’s that.
    Love and Big Hugs from LINDA

  9. 11:11:11 for me was the ongoing clearing of chakras. For many months when I go into my minds eye I have had colors appear, sometimes as flames. Right before 111111 the color was a bright green, heart chakra. My higher heart has been vibrating with unconditional love and compassion ever since. What an incredible feeling.

    I have a spiritual guide who has been doing the work through me/with me. The week before 111111, I was trying to meditate and my guide took over and my head started to do side to side crazy eight pattens. Then I felt incredible sorrow and started to weep excessively, tears poured out of the outer corners of my eyes. I was soaked. Then my vibration was raised to the other polarity of that vibration and I was laughing in joy, bliss.

    This continued for a few repeats, from crying and feeling incredible sorrow to laughter and joy. Finally I was brought to a middle place of the vibration. My guide was teaching me that both emotions were different polarities of the same vibration and that I had control and could transmute any lower vibration into a higher vibration.

    I think any time we go to one extreme of a polarity it can cause imbalance, hence the attack of the dark when we are vibrating at the extreme light polarity. I have experienced the attacks as well.

    What a ride!!! Thanks to all for sharing.

  10. good article. Thanks again for having the continual courage to share your perspective. I’m wondering if you’ve ever had the chance to experience Nancy Risley’s RYSE work. She has schools here in the Northeast ( MA and ME locations) which I attended in 1998-2000 learning the Polarity work and receiving the RYSE work. I found it very helpful in transmuting energies that do not support. I use the techniques daily ..I’m one who needs to. http://www.RYSE.com may be useful. 🙂

  11. Fluffies! I love that term-lolz. I think that when it came to asking for volunteers on the other side when they said those volunteering take a step forward. That’s when the majority took a step backward and you, I and a bunch of others were left standing there one step forward without really taking it! lolz

    I look at the facebook woman this way–fear or jealousy drives a lot of this kind of reaction (I have to keep reminding myself of this and my friends who are also undergoing this criticizm) and either she is part of the dark side trying to undermine you or she is not yet ready to embrace the energy it takes to transmute or she is jealous that you can do what she cannot. This blog you do is why so many of us take refuge here because for a little while we are among others who are not understood or contantly under attack for daring to do what you talk about doing.

    I am getting better at recognizing why the attacks are happening and can pretty much deal with it now–thanks to you, Denise, and previous posts about the dark vs. light issues but it still royally pisses me off when they go for my dogs or other loved ones–they can still knock me off center on that one and so still battling to stay centered and focused when that happens–other wise it has now become pretty much a bugger-off attitude.

    I am very grateful for your posts and sharing and for being able to read the additional comments as here we can give each others hugs and support and I send you a tremendously big hug for being brave enough to stand your ground every day and still have the strength to write your blog and give us support, love and hugs back. A BIG THANK YOU!

    To Susan–totally understand the need for veggies during that time but my big craving was for days and days of homemade vegetable soup (broth but no meat) with lots and lots of cabbage, tomatoes and corn and some other veggies and alliums but those were the prime ones my body said it required. Have learned to give in long ago to whatever my body is telling me I need at the time and not question why. It always works out for the best.

  12. Thank you Denise…there’s so much I could say but I will keep it simple. I often describe the process to newcomers as learning to juggle invisible balls as you’re experiencing and living your every day life…to the ancient ones…and we all know who we are…I will simply say it feels like we’ve been juggling bowling balls…I’m afraid to stop because if I do…someones going to get hurt but my arms ache, and I’m exhausted and I’m not sure how much longer I can keep this up. Thank you Denise for reminding me that I’m not alone.

  13. I love this space and all the sharing that takes place within it. I would be lost if not for the Lisa and Denise posts that are truly a lifeline and speak the language and understanding of my star seed soul. I value these comments as much, as this is where I truly feel I am among family. I keep it all and read and re-read them as things “come up” to seek tidbits of guidance and support to manage the rough waters more gracefully.I gain peace in knowing that someone, anyone truly, deeply understands my journey in the way that all of you do( through your own respective journeys) and as I understand your journeys. I never feel as though we’re having a pity party for who we are or why we came here(although I admit I still do every now and again on those more challenging days) When I come here I am proud of who I am and my mission…and know absolutely I am among my “peeps” (with my family) and regain the confidence that this really is all happening, and that someday it will all end and we will know a higher level of peace than imaginable…as I am ever reminded that: no I am not crazy or imagining the dark ones, the disrespect, the lack of understanding, the crashed computer or lack of cell service all at the same time(that kept me off line) nor am I imagining the pain, or calling it to me…or holding onto it… I think those who say that have no idea, really, how incapacitating it is.(thank you Carolyn for the bit that you wrote touching on that) I have spent far too much time on everything(everything) under the sun to clear, move,transmute, heal…so I wouldn’t have to hit repeat a thousand times more. I have found most star seeds I know have loads of energy(or at least used to) and are/were the change makers and the ones who were very passionate and had unlimited supplies of joy about being here…but the past ten years or so has been a “battle” of enormous proportions…I can barely remember the energized girl I once was, so long ago…indeed feels like another lifetime… a far cry from the one today who limps through most days praying that each day takes me one step closer…a.l.m.o.s.t. there.
    Then, gloriously sprinkled on top of it all are these amazing moments of total bliss…and love and connection…and light. Glimpses of that “beingness” are the “drug” that keeps me moving each day…”yes please, I’ll have more of that”
    I love you all so completely, thank you for showing up everyday in your lives…bruises and all. YOU ARE MY TRUE HEROS and HEROINES!

  14. ” … I clairvoyantly saw massive Light energies raining down not only on Earth/humanity, but upon the entire Universe, in my limited perception of the “Universe” that is. The point evidently was that the Light energies that the 5–12D Hathor beings (and who knows who else) brought in through the 11-11-11 portal was for the entire Universe and not only Earth and humanity.”

    This sentence sure leaps out a me, thank you, Denise. Yes, yes, yes, that’s what happened on 11-11-11, and it’s still coming. This is why this job is so damned tough. We’re doing it for the whole Universe. Long ago, the Arcs told me that we would be busting butts for All so that All could embody Christ-consciousness and as a result, every being and all galaxies, get to move up a notch or two or three on the “stairway to heaven”. If it’s any consolation as we embody this Love and Light from the Source, All are having a tough go, Arcturians, Pleiadians, Sirians, you name it, we’re in this together as One whether we like it or not. Even the Dark Ones are being blasted and it must be very uncomfortable for them, though I don’t give a damn if they’re uncomfortable or not. Soon they won’t be able to stand the energy and will be leaving for a lower-denisty environment where they can continue their silly games! As for me, the sinus thing continues and I’ve drained so much negativity out my nose I figure this Planet is pretty darned dehydrated by now! This blog is my life-line and again, thank you to all who post. We are indeed Heroes and we’ll see this through though I sure could use a bit of that bliss business that some are experiencing. Love to All.

  15. Hi Denise

    You helped me such a lot a while ago when I was not at all sure what was happening … and I am sure that the episode of the glass shattering and a spliner of it almost going into my eye massively shattered the energy which had been surrounding me and my daughter during that time was mostly down to me contacting you that day. I am truly grateful for your help..
    I too had a blissful and extremely massive energy explosion duing the 11.11.11 portal. I really related to what Aya said:

    “My 11-11-11 experience was pure bliss. I stepped into the light (although I was afraid I’m gonna collapse or even die) and it resulted into embodying more of my higher self and I honestly think I was connected to the new crystal grid. The bliss part lasted a few days but now I have a greater clarity 😉 of the sociopathic shit and density again!”

    At one point I actually did say .. ok … I am going to die here ..and that is ok .. I am doing what I came here to do. Also I feel that I am directly connected to the new crystal grid as well.
    For me .. the bliss part lasted that day until I came around and felt like I was on a totally different page than pretty much everyone else… there seemed to be such a lot of negativity around which floored me for a while. I retreated a wee bit to gain some kind of clarity about things ..which is a good thing .. we all need that time with ourselves in order to intergrate these energies.
    Really this whole experience is making me realise more and more how much we need each other. The whole thing about others saying various negative things about you Denise … I have found recently too that it is a matter of going where you are appreciated and leaving the rest well alone. It is like a test to see how much you value yourself ..and you can see here that there are many, many people who value you… concentrate on where you feel the greater energy and leave the rest well alone.
    Know that you are doing a great service to so many .. you only need read these comments here to know how loved and appreciated you are.

    Much Love

    Matariki

  16. Hi, Denise and all,

    I’m glad you brought up the four animals again, because I’ve been having a connection with the bull for quite a while now. It started in August 2010 when I was at a ceremony in Asia at a mountain with a bull lord. When the bull came down, my camera shut off, but then turned on again, which I considered a sign that he was okay with me. Then I was at a temple and there was a bull statue that smiled at me (really!), so I gave him a ritual scarf to acknowledge that I understood. Since then, I’ve been a bit obsessed with bulls and I’m finding them everywhere. (And, no, I’m not a Taurus. But in the Asian horoscope, I am an ox.) One thing, though, in the east, the guardian animals are different and, at this point, I’m feeling more affinity with them. They are, in various formations, the dragon, the lion/dog, the tiger, and the elephant and sometime the bull is in there, too. Dragons, too, have been all over the place for me. I’ve found in the past that different people have different animal associations, but I don’t think that’s as important as the fact that these animal figures are appearing for us right now.

    Love to all,
    Cat

    • “Hi, Denise and all,

      I’m glad you brought up the four animals again, because I’ve been having a connection with the bull for quite a while now. It started in August 2010 when I was at a ceremony in Asia at a mountain with a bull lord. When the bull came down, my camera shut off, but then turned on again, which I considered a sign that he was okay with me. Then I was at a temple and there was a bull statue that smiled at me (really!), so I gave him a ritual scarf to acknowledge that I understood. Since then, I’ve been a bit obsessed with bulls and I’m finding them everywhere. (And, no, I’m not a Taurus. But in the Asian horoscope, I am an ox.) One thing, though, in the east, the guardian animals are different and, at this point, I’m feeling more affinity with them. They are, in various formations, the dragon, the lion/dog, the tiger, and the elephant and sometime the bull is in there, too. Dragons, too, have been all over the place for me. I’ve found in the past that different people have different animal associations, but I don’t think that’s as important as the fact that these animal figures are appearing for us right now.

      Love to all,
      Cat”

      Cat,

      Another possibility with the Bull hints/messages it sounds like you’ve been getting is that the Pleiades star system is located between 26-28 degrees Taurus the Bull. Just another possibility to consider. 😉

      Hugs,
      Denise

  17. Hello Denise and everyone else, and once again am glad. So glad you said what I wanted to say about the fluffies, especially today 😀 Speaking about the very real dark forces requires a relentless courage, radical honesty, and reveals a confident awareness that is admirably fearless. Fearful people deflect these truths and reject those who face them, and criticize those who actually deal with them. Ignorance and arrogance will accuse one who is bleeding from wounds in these battles they are too afraid of fighting themselves. They then point fingers. When if they could see with compassionate eyes, they would be thanking profusely those who are dealing physically on this level, using their very bodies, breath and lives given up to deal daily with an ugliness that is relentless, and they do this not for themselves alone. These dark forces do not just ”go away”, they must be transmuted and someone must do the transmuting! We are the Living Transformers. Prayers are asking/imploring. Chanting creates a frequency. Meditation is silencing the mind. These things do not transmute, transform, or rid the world of dark beings. Starseed Warriors literally consciously and intentionally transform the energies they are given, that are sent to them and that they find themselves in, into something benevolent or at least benign, and this is nothing less than Divine Alchemy. And the dark ones target the most effective warriors, the brightest lights as they are their greatest threat. But not all lightworkers are fighting a necessary fight. Some do something else, I know not what. Some say they’re ”holding space” but it seems more like they’re ”taking up space”. But I do feel the greatest work is doing the transmuting for you cannot build something new without taking out the old and ‘they’ are not walking away. Lisa Renee is right when she speaks about the Ascension community who arrogantly attacks those who are in pain and suffering from encounters with the dark. And those who are these spiritual warriors are the most amazing women I’ve ever encountered, and I’m humbled by them as they do this work with their own bodies and minds and this takes nothing less than the most potent medicine. It is absolutely important to speak of the opposition, how they work, what we do, as this sharing confirms/validates our experiences. Speaking of it also minimizes the secret taboo and ”fearful aires” they create around themselves, and brings them into our territory. Hold your sword high.

  18. Ah, Denise, that is striking a cord. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I saw a model of a new community being planned or built that was called Pleidian Luna Luna. lol

    Love,
    Cat

    • Cat,

      There ya go! 🙂 I could feel the Pleiadians around you but I try very hard at important moments like this to shut up and not blurt out certain info and allow the person (you in this case) to come to the realization on you own. I’m so glad you’ve made this conscious connection with the Pleiadians and the Bull energies/symbols. Now you can expect them to be yelling fun stuff at you in all sorts of wild and wonderful 5D ways. 😆 Enjoy and well done.♥

      Denise

  19. Hi Denise and Cat and All Here: This is getting better and better. I’ve been wanting to bring up the dragon, but thought perhaps everyone here would think that what has happened to me is just too over the Moon to be real. But here’s what happened and it has to do with dealing with the Dark and their annoying tactics.

    My house is situated close to a very busy corner where what I call the “boom-box boys” gather and rev their engines and see who can turn up their boom boxes the loudest so that my windows and lamps rattle, not to mention my walls and my brain! This can go on well into the night/early morning, and for ages I was sending them love and asking them to move on, please. They’d go away for a while to tour the streets and then return and do it all over again. My nerves were getting fried.

    Anyway, A few weeks ago as I was being rattled in my bed, suddenly there was a huge flash of fire in my mind and this huge voice yelled, “MOVE!!!!!!!”. Immediately the boom boxes quit. I kid you not and I was totally stunned and said, “What was that?”

    Now, I know very little about dragons, but there pictured in my mind was this incredible little dragon, I mean so sweet with ruby-red eyes and shining golden scales, a real perfect miniature. I said, “Wow, who are you?” He replied, “My name is Theodore. You may call me Theo.” Me: “Did you move the boom-box boys?” Theo: “Yes, I did. I got tired of your pleading and gave them such a shot that they had no choice but to move away from your house.”

    And since then, whenever the boom-box boys turn up no matter where they are or what time of day, when I’m around, I say, “Go get ’em Theo!” and he does. He is adorable and he sits on my shoulder and is ready and always available to help me with the Dark. I think he wants to do much more than he actually does for me, but his power is awesome so I’m taking it easy. So those of you who are being driven up the wall by the ignorance of those who play their music loud or any kind of Dark tactic may want to try calling in your very own dragon. They do indeed want to help. Love you guys.

  20. Thx all for sharing your post 11.11.11 experiences. I have had two significant dreams – post 11.11 – here r details in short: first dream my son, one of his ex-girlfriends and I were packing and in a tremendous hurry -we had to leave quickly and with absolute necessities. I woke up exhausted twice during this dream but went back to sleep only to continue “packing”! My last go-round i debated for a long while about whether or not I would need any medications from the medicine cabinet – I kept thinking I probably wouldn’t need them – then I woke up. Second dream: I was driving “home” but the drive went on and on – I kept getting lost or was re-routed or i was driving in circles. Eventually I asked for help – novel idea – and found out I was going in the wrong direction – sort of spiraling farther and farther from home – but this person guided me in the right direction and getting “home” was now possible and just taking a bit longer than I thought it would. Again, tho, I was exhausted from driving all night. So anyway I guess I am headed in right direction now and remembering to ask for help. In waking life things are beautiful – the air is clear and crisp and bright white. Colors are vivid – the trees are bright red orange and yellow than ever before. Happy Thanksgiving to all, Morgean / Debra

  21. Hi Denise,

    Thank you for sharing 🙂
    On 11-10-11 (I planned to begin meditation late that evening) day started off normal.. Woke up (ID badge broke), went to work (espresso machine breaks down) and I realized I had to attend a computer training class. I went to my class and on the projector screen ( about 3 times my body size) was a picture of the moon. The girl sitting next to me had Stonehendge on her screensaver, and me, an island paradise. I felt the entire time very uncomfortable.. Feeling like I was being watched.. I don’t know much about Stonehendge or the moon but from the little i know, they are associated with negative beings. I suddenly got an allergy attack where I couldn’t stop sneezing for the 3-4 hours I was there. By noon, I check my phone bill, and was accidentally charged for 3 subscriptions that I did not order and almost blamed it on the other people included in my phone plan. After work I go to the store, and we got terrible service. And I almost got upset at my daughter who was with me for not speaking up when she was not being acknowledged. By that time it was close to evening and I was driving. That evening there happened to be a giant full moon. I was driving straight into it (it was just as large as the one in my class) and again I felt like I was being watched. By that time since morning, I knew that there was a deliberate attack to sabotage my day. I ended that evening joining the world meditations. (I also, by accident worn a crystal necklace on this day that is only to be worn when needed extreme protection). I felt like I was that island paradise in the midst of a dark storm.

    The morning of 11-11-11, I received a phone call from a past life acquaintance.. (several lifetimes over and over I knew him). Someone I was heartbroken over. I have not talked to this person in years and he calls on 11-11-11! Talking him triggered me to cry non stop for half the day.. Although I am over it and have moved on, I guess there were still parts that I couldn’t let go of. And it may or may not have been another attempt to ruin my day.

    I truly understand and believe everything you have said with your experiences running into dark ones. And I’m wondering why they would try so hard on that day.. It was soo obvious.

    The same things also happened to several people I know on that day.. Experiencing extreme depression.

    Regardless of the dark ones efforts, I know we accomplished something huge on that day.

    I woke up the other night from a loud electrical sound and very strong vibrations in my head. Looking through my third eye, I was being blasted with light similar to get struck by lightning. I saw what seemed to look like neurons in my brain being fired up.. And saw the words new DNA.

    Anyway, thank you so much for sharing. You really have done a lot to shed some more light in this dense planet.

  22. Well, Hell…Your post surely explains my Fright Night of 11.11.11. – DEEP depression, not only emotional and mental but physically crushing, I mean I can actually FEEL the energy pounding me…throw in strong nausea, with some “hurling” on the side, mix in vertigo, to the point of bumping into things, you know like walls, and that pretty much describes my Portal Bliss experience. In fact even now, what 9 days later, I’m still dealing with the nausea and vertigo, add in inertia and feeling like a lightning-rod (always vibrating), at the age of 66, and more than 20+ yrs. of these episodes, I’m thinking twice if I really have it in me to pick myself up, dust myself off, and show up for the next round of “expansion”. Perhaps its because I’m a Taurus, but these experiences are always so physical for me, and I’ve noticed lately, that is seems to take longer each time to”bounce-back”, well, OK so its really more like drag-back, but hey, its been a really l-o-n-g and bumpy ride, and like the rest of YOU, I’m so very tired!!

    Denise, bless YOU a thousand-fold, I simply didn’t know there are “others” like me, I just assumed there was something soooo wrong with me that, well,thats just the way things were!! And I do so Admire a “Woman with YOUR “In their face” Courage, to just put this info out there, and let them deal with it…You Getum Girl!!!
    Love, Barbara

  23. Barbara, may I borrow your Theo every now and then? I love him already 😉

    An important revelation since 11-11-11 to me has been, like Matariki described, the importance of detaching yourself completely for the polarity and negativity (developing my Princess of Pea qualities) and that the detachment from the 3D negativity means you really, really don’t need to accept it! You can actually allow yourself some powerful emotions and energetic measures to express the fact that your dirty business is not mine. I guess that has something to do with claiming your own power.

    So far, I have been feeling quilty for not being able to send love – or better even be love – when facing cruelty and greed. I feel so liberated to understand that the somewhat sissy idea of a lightworker identity was something learned from outside, perhaps even planted by the dark ones, who knows. It was not necessarily my own truth. We can have balls and we have the beautiful, powerful lightbeings like Theo to back us up 😀

    For me this freedom for detaching by actively opposing feels like a completely new resource in detecting and especially dealing with the peas!

    Much love to all of you!

  24. dont know where this fits into comments but i have noticed that on top of all the other stuff thats been going on my fac shape has changed quite dramatically – it has got much longer and narrower at bottom and wider by my eyes – any ideas why this is would be interesting.!!!

    • “I can’t endure this any more how long will it last.
      Cheri”

      Cheri,

      Yes you can and will and I know cause I hurt like hell too. It will last -most likely- for another year from now…December 2012…with plenty more changes and no doubt new aches, pains, learning’s etc. I’m NOT saying this to depress you or anyone else; I’m just confessing that there’s more to go through yet. I want it over too believe me but I also know that 2012 is the final year of this huge transformational work. After that…I don’t much care today! 😆

      Be strong, rest as much as you need, ask your Higher Self and/or Ascension Assistants to turn the dial back down a little bit because you’re overwhelmed at the moment, and know it will get easier. Really.

      ♥ Hugs,
      Denise

  25. Thank you Denise, I have been sitting( in despair)and sleeping constantly since the 11th, My higher mind knows I’m o.k. However,my body is in constant pain and again I know it’s clearing more.
    I tell people it will last until 1212 as I understand it.
    It’s all there, however I have walked this path for a very long time, and I’m tired, as you are.
    Spiritual people around don’t understand what I’m talking about(here). The loneliness at times is devastating,even beyond that my heart wants to cry but at times I sit immoblized.
    I’m 65 and don’t have any family so I have to go back to work, soon. I know Spirit will come through, but again I am just so exhausted,
    Thank you so much for your thoughts and concerns, and I will make it. I am a warrior and have a card (tarot) on the table, the one that some one mention the sword coming out of the water. I know I am a phoenix…
    Bless all of you who walk this extremely difficult path, it is an honor to be with people who understand.
    How I wish we were closer, and could embrace each other(I know I would cry for sure)
    Thank you Denise for your on going work, my Spiritual abilites are becoming stronger but last Dec.when I came face to face with darkness thank God/Goddess you were there my friend.
    Love to all, Cheri

    p.s. I feel like crying now..I’ve walked this journey alone since a child. Someone to hear me..

  26. Dearest Cheri and Betty and Those Who are in Despair In this One Moment of Our Striving: Please call in your Inner Child, the one who truly understands what you are going through. If it means that you find a pillow or a stuffed bear or whatever it takes to hold onto just for a little while, do not think that you are weak. Know that the love your Inner Child has for you is way beyond anything that we can comprehend. I have been thinking of you and sending you love ever since I read your posts and my heart will break if your heart breaks. Please don’t do that to me. Sometimes when I feel like you are feeling, I start out singing very softly some song that means something to me — George Harrison or John Lennon — and then I cry and cry and cry and all of a sudden I am singing louder and louder and pretty soon, I’m singing “Ain’t nothing gonna bring me down.” or Joplin’s “Take Another Little Bit of My Heart,” kind of defiantly like Joplin did, and in a little while, I’m okay. Please tuck yourself in with your Inner Child as long as it takes. I love you. B.

  27. Denise, my computer crashed too and I got a new hard drive on the cusp of the end of the cycle. On my part, I felt it was a sign to reduce my dependence on technology.

    For the last 10 years I’ve been having a very strong feeling that the end of the mayan calendar would mean an end to our information/electronics age around 2012–but not in a ‘bad’ way. In fact, I’ve been pulling away from technology (buying a day planner, trying to limit text messages, etc.) as I foresee these CME’s changing the level of tech and electronics in our daily lives–perhaps not the dramatic “total lights out time” but significantly less electronics in our lives.

    On another note, VERY SIGNIFICANT in these times is the recent second experiment that confirms scientists’ findings that ‘neutrinos’ travel FASTER than the speed of light. The speed of light is the speed of consciousness and manifestation in spiritual terms so this scientific breakthrough runs parallel or in tandem with the consciousness shift into a paradigm-less epoch. Scientists are also talking other dimensions in regards to these neutrinos–speculating that the reason they travel faster than light is that they took a ‘shortcut’ through another dimension. This is the good side of science–the side full of wonder, amazement and always open to the new and unquantifiable.

    http://www.nytimes.com/2011/11/19/science/space/neutrino-finding-is-confirmed-in-second-experiment-opera-scientists-say.html?_r=1&ref=science

  28. Hello fellow warriors, I am Awucha, a recycler of energy. Well at least that is what I was told in meditation many years ago and given that name. I can sooooooo understand and feel ready to have it over and just get there. I don’t really know where there is or what it may be but this body is so very tired. As for where I have been since 10/28 until now. I don’t really know. Time seems to stand still or not exist at all and yet it passes some how beyond my understanding. I have experienced that being awake and dreaming at the same time. Quite interesting and even a bit scary. Looking foward to 12/12. Thanks to everyone who comments here and to all who write the posts. It helps knowing that others understand. PEACE

  29. “And in the end it doesn’t matter all that much who (Dark Ones) or what (unresolved past life wounds etc.) triggers this Starseed Living Alchemical Embodying Process. As they say…“just do it” because there really is nothing else to do but transmute the lower and embody the higher.”

    I love you Denise! So well put. Roll up your shelves, there’s nothing to do, but get to it. haha

  30. I just read Cheri’s post and my heart goes out to you! Tears welled up in my eyes reading it. You are not alone. Others feel this way (my close friends, mother and I can attest to it)–that sense that you’re walking alone in a strange world. I know you have been’ literally’ alone without family so this is different. But the energy is similar. Many of us have felt like aliens much of our lives (you have only to read the works of ill-fated writers like Silvia Plath or look at the work of Vincent Van Gogh to understand that there are others).

    You must actively be open to other ‘alien poets’ and know that we’re out there. Once I started realising that other people feel this too and started connecting with them–making the effort on my part–the despair turned into love. You cannot wait for things to happen in your life. Sometimes they will but it’s up to you to grab the bull by the horns. That is what this shift is about–the shift into Free Will–off-road living. Go out into the world–sit in coffee shops and talk to locals, write in parks, go to readings in bookshops and share ideas, attend art talks, volunteer…be out there and let people know you love yourself but would also love the company of others.

    I cannot stress enough (from my own empathic intuition) that it’s about shifting life off-line. That means in-person vibrations and connections. Learning to tune yourself like an instrument to attract others like yourself. It will happen….but it can only happen to you when you are centred in yourself and know yourself. If you are scattered and in despair you can attract the wrong ‘helpers.’ Spend some quiet time nurturing yourself and then go out there and be seen and share with others in person.

    Adding to the broader discussion. I can’t say I felt the darkness on 11-11-11. I felt light and inspiration on 11-10-11 and then a neutral acceptance on 11-11-11 but then much darkness starting 11-16-11. I think the rest of this ‘trip’ is going to be individualised. We’ve all been on this grid for so long operating on synched up energies. Now I think there is more Free Will on the journey of discovery. One day I’m up and my best mate is down and vice versa.

    You also have to set very strong intentions (your spirit is already doing this on some level in another dimension) as to how long you want to go through these growing pains.

    As an exercise, look back on periods of your life in the past when you suffered. Would you go back and change things this time if you could? I thought my answer would be yes but when I did this exercise I suddenly realised that if it took me a year to process something difficult, that was what was needed and I wouldn’t have changed that for anything.

    Personally, I see a couple of months more of processing but I feel a whole different renewed zest for life energy in 2012. I have seen glimpses of it. But I have a lot of past life darkness to process so at the moment my trip continues alternating between light and dark and I accept it. We must all accept our own path.

  31. Hi Denise

    It could be that you and your mother have things way back from earlier lives to clean out, so as I see it it is not always the DARKs fault.

    It could be old patterns and maybe karma between you and your mother.

    And the time now is to clean out all these things otherwise we can’t ascend up.

    love Fillip

  32. Barbara, Lady of the Woods and others thank you for your iinsightful and supporting words.
    It’s an hour to hour journey I think the most important thing to do is surrender to this process. That just came to me.The fear and torment not real…as I laid their last night listening to words that were not mine.
    I have fought amazing battles in this life..and won. This is another kind of battle, a battle of illusion and to stay in the core self and keep reminding myself what is real and who I am.
    Support and blessings to all,
    Cheri

  33. Denise, thanks for another good, right-on article. Everyone else, thanks for all your shares. I’ve processed my disappointment over not Ascending to 5-D on or shortly after 11-11-11, and am doing pretty well now. I’ve resumed hearing ringing in my ears when I go to bed at night and at other times. I’m still detoxing rapidly on a physical and emotional level, and this has been relatively easy for me. My 3-D life is going well, and I’ve been very content with it lately. At this point I’m making plans through March, and am prepared to change them depending on what happens between now and then. I’m still experiencing a lot of synchronicity. My survival gigs are going well, and my guides are still telling me not to make any 3-D career plans beyond this. My creative energy very strong, and part of me wants to resume my 3-D writing career. My guides are telling me not to, and have been telling me that I will be doing a lot of writing on Ascension and other topics after I Ascend to 5-D. I’m excited about this.

    I’m very sorry to hear that so many of you have been having such a hard time with Ascension Symptoms lately. Part of me feels guilty that I’m doing so well while so many of the rest of you are suffering so much. I wish that there was something I could do to make things easier for you, but as far as I know there isn’t. At this point I’m in a holding pattern, waiting for the signal from Source to do something different for Ascension when the time is right.

    Tom

  34. Hi All Here:

    Well, I’m going way out on a limb here and I’ve debated posting this, but, hey, don’t shoot me, I’m only the messenger.

    On 11-12-11 I was meditating and “saw” the pillars of the 11-11-11 and as I watched them, they turned slowly into crosses: + + +, like that, and I’m thinking, well, that’s interesting, wonder what it means. (By the way Rivkah, thank you so much for the link to those symbols – loved them.) I continued to meditate and was led to thinking about the crucifixion. Now, please don’t leap on me. This is definitely not religion. And I thought about the “light” on one side of Jesus and the “dark” on the other side and how he was in the middle and showing the way, and thank you, Lisa Renee for not being shy to write sayings from the scriptures.

    Anyway, after I surfaced, I thought, “I wonder how long Jesus was around before he ascended,” and my curiosity took me to my tiny New Testament that I haven’t looked at in years. I read “John” and was really touched by the scene of Mary Magdalene when Jesus says to her words to the effect of, to stop clinging to him because he hadn’t ascended yet. And then I read about how Jesus appeared to the disciples and so on, but I’m still trying to find out how long he stuck around before he ascended. Right after “John” is “Acts” and the third verse says, “appearing to them over a period of 40 days.”

    And my curiosity continued so, because I figured that the 11-11-11 opened the grids for a huge blast of Christ-consciousness, I decided to count from 11-11-11 forward, allowing 3 days in the tomb, plus the 40 days of appearances. Those 43 days bring us to Christmas Eve, in my count anyway. Time is so warped for me right now, I don’t know if I can even count properly!

    So here’s what I’m thinking. 12-12-11 will bring us the next blast of Christ-consciousness big-time (the Sun will tell us that, no doubt) and it’s quite possible that by Christmas Day (which, regardless of religion, is pretty well known throughout Earth as a day of goodwill) Christ-consciousness will be “birthed” on and in Gaia on December 25, 2011. After that, there’s no turning back and if that’s the case, then 2012 is going to rock.

    And as if to confirm my thinking, I got out Ken Carey’s 1982 The Starseed Transmissions and read as follows: “This is the much misunderstood Second Coming of Christianity. It is the event that primitive civilizations have looked forward to as “the return of the gods.” The Mayans went so far as to pinpoint its actual occurrence in what you would call the year 2011 A.D. ….” And then further along in that book, Carey writes: “The time scale of my coming is subjective. You can experience the reality of the process as soon as you are capable of sustaining the vision in your heart. The coming will not be experienced by the species as a whole until the Christmas of your naming-defining…” That reference means to me, at least, Christmas Day!

    Barbara Hand Clow refers to Ken Carey as a Pleiadian channel and I’m with her on that one. Carey received The Starseed Transmissions over 11 days in December 1978 through January 6, 1979, but the book wasn’t published until 1982. At the very least, Carey was way ahead of his time.

    So I’m throwing this out there and would love some comments on my take. It could be that by the end of 2011, Earth will be enveloped in Christ-consciousness and the Dark will be running very scared. In fact, I’m counting on it. And it just might be that we will “feel” very fully the beginning of the Separation of Worlds.

    Love to All, Barbara

    • Barbara & All,

      Great Comment Barbara. I’ve been seeing the + symbol too but turned a quarter so it looks like an X. Same business me thinks but what I’ve been perceiving with this X like business is a crossing over or integration like how the left side of the human brain runs the right side of the physical body and vice versa. I’m getting this but in with some positive/negative duality within the Dark Ones and the Light Ones and “God/Goddess” etc. I’ve gotten a new article about it almost finished which I hope makes some sense. In it I mention about what I’ve perceived so far about the Dark Ones and 11-11-11 and that their time is done so they’re being recalled, retired etc. to go on to their next level of learning too.

      I get what you’re perceiving and know too that 12-12-11 AND the Winter Solstice on Dec. 21, 2011 will BOTH be potent transitional points and the WS always brings in fast n’ furious integrations in all of us. Then, as you said, “2012 is going to rock.” It will in both wonderful and stressful ways but we’ll all be absolutely fine during this final wrap-up completion phase. Once we reach 2013 is when things everywhere will “rock” I think! (Think of the 12 apostles plus Jesus who represents the 13th point that exists beyond the old system of 12 of 3D. This is why I sense the start of 2013 will be when the fun starts for everyone. 🙂

      Again, great Comment and thanks for sharing it. I too am expecting Dec. 2011 to be special…besides my turning 60 that is! Gads…how the hell did that happen?! 😉

      ♥ Denise

    • “Hi D, not getting comments come through again? I keep signing up but get only your alert then nothing…
      Love to everyone. xx”

      J,

      I don’t know what to tell you other than WordPress has been making some changes/upgrades to WP again. That may be why you’re experiencing some glitches…I don’t really know. Keep trying or if needed sign up again to write Comments and see what happens.

      Denise

  35. Hi Denise, will do, 🙂
    Wonder if anyone out there’s getting lots of pain in the legs, knees and if anyone out already has issues with walking anyway. is it much worse right now?
    I cant get out and walking room to room is really hard to do, and after losing my partner in October i am now here alone as far as getting out to do stuff, like get milk or pay bills etc, so in my face is the survival and taking care of myself and i am seeing while like this i cant,
    I note only you Denise, has ever mentioned you have probs with your back, and so the recommendations to go walking and exercise etc other people do is not something i can do, until my healing time arrives for me 🙂
    Many thanks Denise for your recent post and the re opening of the comments again, i also see theres quite a few older folks here too and i wish us all well in what we are trucking through now.
    Love and stuff, J

    • J, I have had back pain that recurrs, and I have leg pains that feel like muscle aches. I use a massager for the legs, and a chiropracter, exercises, heat, a TENS unit and walking for the back. I never considered these were part of the whole ascension package, since they have been gong on long before I had my awakening. However, I now believe that even though I was not conscious of it, I have been experiencing symptoms since I was very young. I used to wake up at night quite often with severe leg cramps as a child. I am so sorry to hear that you lost your partner. That is going to amplify any unpleasant symptoms. Just know that you are among friends and family. Denise is performing such a wonderful service for us all in this stressful time. Blessings.

  36. Just saw your reply here D, re the left and right side of the body, well i had a fall a week or so ago, this cocked things up more so for me, as now my right knee wont hold me, and both knees i had ops on as kid, so the left one i had a fall on several yrs ago, now the right, and then i see ur comment here and i wonder if u can elaborate on it a bit if you can? Cant wait to see your next artical,
    Thanks so much for all the energy your giving out to get the articles out i so appreciate it.
    J x

  37. I have written about my 11-11-11 experience on another topic, but something else significant happened that day, or rather the next day. I suddenly woke from a sound sleep — no lucid dreaming beforehand, just asleep then awake — and looked at the atomic clock in my bedroom. It was 12:00 midnight. The end of the day and the beginning of the day.

  38. Denise,

    When you said the symbol you have been seeing is more like an X, I immediately thought of my catholic school upbringing, where I learned that X means Christos in Greek, and is used as an abbreviation for Christ. (Hence, the “Xmas” abbreviation.) In that way, it also ties in with Barbara’s comment.

    Thank you so much for all of the pain and suffering you do for all of us. I really appreciate this blog. After reading your recommendation of Dolores Cannon’s book, I started reading it, and I really resonate with the descriptions of the second wave. Then, while reading this post, I start to wonder if that is true, because I don’t have the physical symptoms anywhere near what you and others have, but I decided that it really doesn’t matter what label I give myself. I was brought to your blog for a reason. I am learning so much by reading it. Thank you for explaining so much to me, especially about my dreams. 🙂

  39. Hi, All,

    There are a few things I’ve noticed since 11-11-11. First, I rarely remember my dreams and then I remembered them about 7 or 8 nights in a row. I’m getting better at interpreting them as well. I had one about balancing male and female, for instance. I’ve also noticed that there seem to be a lot of new people coming online, so welcome! With those of us who have been in this group for awhile, I’m noticing that ideas and emotions are flowing through us really quickly. One person makes a comment which leads to an inspiration from someone else and these ideas and inspirations are flying around pretty fast. And our abilities are developing quickly as well. It’s really exciting to watch and be a part of. And it’s the same with emotions. Several people mentioned that when Cheri was talking about how low she felt, they could feel it. I could, too. I can just feel how much we’re becoming a unified group (I had a moment of feeling it strongly the other day) and, like Denise said, what one does will affect all the others. It’s a really fascinating development and I’m looking forward to learning more with you all.

    Barbara, Theo sounds adorable! Little, but packs a punch! lol Hi, Theo!

    Love to all,
    Cat

  40. Dear Denise and all, hope this finds you well.

    J – I am not old but am having right sided pain from neck to toe. The knee pain is making it hard to get up and down stairs (lots of those in my house). I don’t know if you have access to reiki but if you do then I can tell you it helps a lot. If not just meditate and ask the universe for healing and it will oblige. I’m sorry so many are feeling low just now and I’ll be sending metta(loving kindness) your way

    Take care Kit

    • HI Kit, and Susan,
      Kit. many moons ago i become a reiki master, but for some reason it felt off to me for a long time now to use this, BUT, i did give it a go the other night out the blue, and i did have some response, but the 2nd time i felt nothing, and i do have chiro, but i cant afford to do this now at this time, and i get i must be still, and yeah i get that only theres only me who drives, and i cant get to car to drive it and when i get to where i go i am stuck there as i cant walk to where i need to go and i am on crutches and have been on them and a stick before i got them for yrs,
      Its like sciatic pain down both legs, and my hips have a genetic prob and i was told yrs ago the left would need to be replaced, only due to some spine probs its a last resort, so here i am, and yet i get this isnt just me, or just mine, but something with the right side is happening, and along with the grounding i seem to have not been able to pull off yet theres like something realigning with a new balance point?

      Susan, yes, the loss of my partner after near 20yrs has sure hit hard, its meant all has sort of fallen as he held fort here in the yrs i have been going through this as like Denise and many others its been tough, painful and traumatic/horrific, and now i face this without him here and a young daughter who is not well either, mentally and emotionally as well as physically now to, so i am as many of us are,alone, no family close by, no friends to call on, and even the neighbors dont speak and i live in the forest, so its not like i see anyone anyway, and its almost as if i am not to be doing that yet, but instead becoming more aware of others ways to live that arent of this world, but the yrs of sitting in the stillness i have yet to touch on the deeper resources i know we all have in us but dont come on demand:)
      Ryan, i too have asked this question on this blog before as to why many of the “Lightworkers” dont seem to be affected in any of the ways we are, they travel the world and hang out in groups and play and talk of the fun we are to have, well maybe it is that way for some, but others are not allowed to do this as u have found out yourself and i guess its cause they are on another path to us, one where maybe they deal only with their own stuff, not carrying this stuff we are, but i also noted after watching some of them a while they dont speak of the Kundalini activations, so then i looked deeper and i see they only are hoping for just worldly changes, new banking systems and better this and that, while for me i dont see money, i dont see the new world as being anything like this one, and therefore i see maybe they arent having this stuff as they have not choosen to go as deep into the vision of a new world, they still see us as needing healers, i dont, and when i watch i see the paths they are on arent a bit like mine and the people i know online who are up to their neck in shit and just about hanging on by the moment, so maybe its this why their lives stil roll in the same way of material stuff and holidays and why ours does not,
      Much love to all. J
      Ps, Cheri, where abouts are u?

  41. Conscious Creation Police, that describes a lot of New Age People perfectly! Not only are a lot of New Age people the Conscious Creation Police, a lot of them are undercover agents! I am frequently blown away by how many New Age people who are knowledgeable of things like the Law of Attraction and who believe in things like souls and reincarnation and soul plans don’t realize that our soul can override the Law of Attraction and that if we aren’t being avalanched with positive abundance that we might not be doing anything wrong. Some of these people even have knowledge of and talk about ascension and the ascension process yet they still continue spouting the bullshit that if you aren’t constantly having your desires fulfilled then it’s your fault.

    Denise, why do some people who claim they are going through this whole ascension process hell still get to have money and family and friends? For example, why does Karen Bishop get to buy cars and houses and go on road trips while like you I have been sitting at home by myself for the last 8+ years. On another ascension related blog a man who is a bodybuilder wrote the he has been too tired the last two days to work out. Well big deal, I finally managed to get myself into weight lifting after YEARS of trying and was doing well for a while but now I am too worn out half the time. Why can’t I have at least that much?

    I am so tired of being broke and alone, but what am I supposed to do? Get a job? I tried that and nobody would give me one, even though I did not have that problem in the past. I do not have problems with being attacked by negative forces, but I have become deathly allergic to dysfunction. And what do 99% of jobs require? Dealing with huge amounts of dysfunction. Hell just being in mainstream society requires dealing with huge amounts of dysfunction. I am not lazy or stupid or irresponsible, yet nearly nothing I have done the last several years to try to move my life forward has worked (including trying to create my own income without a job). I just don’t understand why I have to be THIS stuck.

    I ask my intuition what is going and it either does not say anything or says “Just keep waiting!”

    • “Conscious Creation Police, that describes a lot of New Age People perfectly! Not only are a lot of New Age people the Conscious Creation Police, a lot of them are undercover agents! I am frequently blown away by how many New Age people who are knowledgeable of things like the Law of Attraction and who believe in things like souls and reincarnation and soul plans don’t realize that our soul can override the Law of Attraction and that if we aren’t being avalanched with positive abundance that we might not be doing anything wrong. Some of these people even have knowledge of and talk about ascension and the ascension process yet they still continue spouting the bullshit that if you aren’t constantly having your desires fulfilled then it’s your fault.

      Denise, why do some people who claim they are going through this whole ascension process hell still get to have money and family and friends? For example, why does Karen Bishop get to buy cars and houses and go on road trips while like you I have been sitting at home by myself for the last 8+ years. On another ascension related blog a man who is a bodybuilder wrote the he has been too tired the last two days to work out. Well big deal, I finally managed to get myself into weight lifting after YEARS of trying and was doing well for a while but now I am too worn out half the time. Why can’t I have at least that much?

      I am so tired of being broke and alone, but what am I supposed to do? Get a job? I tried that and nobody would give me one, even though I did not have that problem in the past. I do not have problems with being attacked by negative forces, but I have become deathly allergic to dysfunction. And what do 99% of jobs require? Dealing with huge amounts of dysfunction. Hell just being in mainstream society requires dealing with huge amounts of dysfunction. I am not lazy or stupid or irresponsible, yet nearly nothing I have done the last several years to try to move my life forward has worked (including trying to create my own income without a job). I just don’t understand why I have to be THIS stuck.

      I ask my intuition what is going and it either does not say anything or says “Just keep waiting!”

      Ryan,

      I’m going to use your great Comment to respond to multiple things.

      The vast majority of “new age” type people and material has NOT been who and what they claimed to be. I didn’t even know what the “new age movement” was for many years because I had no contact with it/them. Once I did a few years ago, I instantly understood why I’d remained away from it/them; it’s BS for the most part with heavy layers of Darkness directing it all. The lengths that the Dark has gone to to confuse the masses concerning the Ascension Process and real Lightworkers, Starseeds etc. has been stunning and effective unfortunately. Anyone selling how to get rich (and/or any number of other things like increasing one’s psychic abilities etc.) while we’re evolving beyond money and money consciousness should cause red flags to go up in people minds. But after 5,000 some years of negative brainwashing, total control and manipulations by the Dark Ones, it’s going to take some work to get the masses to remember how to be responsible for themselves in all ways. It’s happening however. 🙂

      “Denise, why do some people who claim they are going through this whole ascension process hell still get to have money and family and friends? For example, why does Karen Bishop get to buy cars and houses and go on road trips while like you I have been sitting at home by myself for the last 8+ years.”

      Yeah, this one’s been something I’ve had to work through in myself over the years concerning Karen Bishop. For starters, Karen is a Taurus so she’s learning about money, material wealth and valuables and how to use or create with them in physicality in this life. Secondly, her readers rained donations upon her for years (may still be) plus her books sold like crazy. The opposite polarity sign of Taurus is Scorpio so she’s also had to experience (integrate) the death and loss of her much-loved Father and others.

      An interesting thing I’ve wanted to share with everyone was that, despite the fact that I have a Donations button on TRANSITIONS, I rarely get donations. However – and this is the interesting part to me especially – is that in September and October 2011 I suddenly received more donations than I EVER have and was happily, gratefully shocked and surprised by them suddenly arriving like they did. Then as we all know on Oct. 28, 2011 my computer died and guess what? To replace it with a new one cost me EXACTLY as much as the total amount of donations I’d gotten throughout Sept. and Oct.! 😮 😆 (As with all new computers there are extra costs for other things like Internet Security/Anti-Virus program etc. and every donation post Oct. 28, 2011 is going towards those other computer related must-haves.)

      I could not believe that some of my readers had unknowingly (I’m presuming, possibly incorrectly!) donated exactly the amount of money I WOULD need in the near future to replace my computer! No more, no less, but just enough is evidently the way we all have set this donations business up here at TRANSITIONS and I am incredibly grateful. ♥ Just wanted to share this with everyone. 🙂

      Where were we…oh yeah, being broke and exhausted. Right off the bat, my income will be lowered by 20% on January 1, 2012 due to the current national state of shitness we’re all in now. My sense is that many more people’s income will be lowered, cut, or ended with the start of 2012 and unfolding throughout the rest of the year for more and more people. I’m not saying this to scare or bum everyone out, only that I sense 2012 will most likely become what forces humanity to let money and debt and that entire awareness and way of living/existing go the way of the dinosaurs. This coming transition won’t be a ton of fun BUT, it is necessary to finally get humanity to make this mega shift out of money/debt/control/slave labor consciousness and into the NEW 5D no money no debt ways of living/existing. So be prepared and breath and know that your Higher Self does not want you to be in pain, fear, struggle, suffering or loss. It wants to get each of us into a vastly better and higher way where things are free and traded or created. It’s just that the transition out of the old and into the new may have some shaky moments for all of us at some point/points during 2012.

      “Deathly allergic to dysfunction.” Love it! I too have never been a fan of the A & I’s – the assholes n’ idiots. Soon we won’t have to endure them as we always have because everything has/is/and will continue to shift out of their ways and consciousness and into ours.

      The other business about being and feeling “stuck” is that this has NOT been a time of fixing or building the new. It’s been a time of hunkering down and transmuting self and reality. In case you missed my saying this elsewhere I’ll repeat it here. For over twenty years I’ve desperately wanted to move out of SoCal and into the forest and rain in northern California. But…only this past fall did I finally understand that I’m not going to be able to move until things are transmuted and set into place. Then maybe, if I still desire it, I’ll be able to move into Nature.

      If you/me/us thinks of ourselves more like receivers/transmitters then this feeling “stuck” makes more sense and becomes a bit less miserable. As soon as these big changes happen, then we won’t be or feel “stuck” or trapped in some location or situation any more and will be able to move or make things happen in the external world…but in very different ways than the past please keep in mind/heart.

      Hugs,
      Denise

  42. Dear Denise and Commenters,

    I just love this blog. I’m afraid I don’t know much about Ascension, but my body has gone through well documented changes for the past 13 years, and perhaps this explains it. I don’t know, but this blog has given me a new more hopeful perspective, and I am trying to learn more. I figure better late than never.

    In 1998 I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. It was the most severe case the doctor had ever seen. The main symptom is severe fatigue because it basically means that the main ingredient for metabolism was severely diminished. I’d had it for some years before that.

    I was treated with conventional means of Synthroid, but had no relief of symptoms. It turned out not only was my body not producing thyroid hormones, but even when given the hormones, it couldn’t convert and use them at the cellular level. So I was given a more specialized treatment. For 13 years I had blood tests at least once a year and often more and my beloved doctor tweaked the hormones from test to test to keep me operating more or less up to par. During that time I was very fortunate in that I married and had two children, two things that would have been quite difficult without the add’l hormone.

    Then a little over a year ago, the hormones seemed to stop working or my body was unable to even use the more specialized replacement. I stopped taking them for a while, then started, then fired my doctor when he suggested I needed to add in several hundred dollars of vitamins per month. Now I have a new doctor, but she is struggling to find a way to keep the fatigue at bay. Dear woman.

    I feel so much for all of you who have pain. I am reasonably pain free, physically. The worst thing is caring for small children when I have the energy level of an 85 year old woman. I am 35. I know they must think me as slow as molasses. Though from the inside out, everything seems to be moving at the right speed. I don’t even feel sick most of the time.

    And I am not depressed either, though that is supposed to be a symptom. I used to be, but now I think that everything must happen for a reason, and if I only knew what it was, I would understand. So I keep trying to understand, searching the universe for wisdom.

    So keep up the postings – every time I read Denise’s posts and the comments, I feel like I understand a little more of the puzzle.

    Thank you in advance for letting me tell my story,
    Audrey

    • Audry,

      Welcome to TRANSITIONS and I know that as you read through my old articles (and the very helpful, sharing Comments by readers), you’ll discover more and more reasons for why you’ve been feeling the ways you have. Be sure to go through the archived articles under Ascension Process because you need to be aware of the common physical, emotional, mental, psychic Ascension symptoms.

      And BRAVO on telling your doctor to &*&% off! Good for you and SPEAK, SAY, give voice to whatever you need to to get that Throat chakra (thyroid) working better again.

      Glad you’ve found your way here.
      Hugs,
      Denise

  43. I have had trouble with time since 11/11/11 mostly with losing time.
    I am not normally one to get messages in my sleep I guess since I usually get them while I am awake. The past 3 days.. One dream I was having regular dreams, doing regular things, cooking, talking to a friend, walking outside except that the sky was filled with ships lots and lots of small ones you could hardly see the sky and this was through every dream I had that night. The next day I had a nap and dreamt that the fall had happened and it was “go time”. My MAIN path is to be a wayshower to the fifth dimensional new earth and to form energetic pathways, portals and help those trying to ascend cross over, and in this dream it was time to start that role.
    Last night I was contacted by AA GAbriel and Uriel and another high level guide who works as a leader a guard in other realms. They took me and my spiritual partner to a barren planet or moon to train for battle I was aware of some of the training but then they “put me to sleep” as I call it.
    I have been in battles with dark entities before but never had preparation like this before, maybe the “wait mode” is ending, I call it wait mode, but it has been damn hard work.
    I just want to get it over with.
    Tracy

  44. J, I live in Greenfield,Mass.near Northampton…Amherst College, Smith etc.
    I don’t know about how one communicates on this site but would like to share info. on the death of your loved one. This happened to me 21/2 years ago.becuase we were/ are the Soul connection I had waited so long for, the pain and need goes on..I had only known him for 1 year and was sent there to be a Priestess of End of Life Experience. I have made the commitment to stay and finsh my work but am blessed to communicate with him through writing.
    So if your allowed to have my email..it’s Rubicon34@msn.com

  45. Hi Ryan, had a similar talk yesterday on how this all works : some of us being so dissocialized (is that a word?), getting the cosmic shredder treatment, while others are “thriving” with often a very limited view of spirituality ( someone on here called them “fluffies” [smile] ), not even speaking of all the people who are totally asleep at the wheel (and still having a bunch of fun). Just saying, I hear ya. I’ve come at a point where I know it’s not about being in denial, not attracting abundance the way “they teach”. Often I think they got it backwards, they incorrectly backengineer their lives, build a theory around it and sell it (and to my surprise often with great success), leaving out the “luck” or “destiny” part, only seeing “their” accomplishment from an ego point of view. So I’m (reluctantly) starting to realize that we all walk different paths, and are not in total control of our destiny. Funny thing though is, even though my path may be crappy full of potholes and hit by flashfloods, I still wanna walk it, with an evergrowing determination. And I keep telling myself hat I don’t have enough information to “judge” my path or someone elses. And I picture my soul jumping up and down, happy and grateful for this amazing learning journey (and then my ego goes: “really?”). I wish us all a life of joyful abundance, and it brings me some comfort knowing it’s all done for the Greater Good. Thanks all for your courage, good humor and amazing strength. Good company. Shine a light ~ Jay

  46. Cheri, I feel you. I wanted to cry the moment I read your one line. Ryan I feel you too big time! and thanks Denise for your response to him. Barbara your comments about the timing of 11/11 to Christ-Mass is interesting and has validity we will soon see. J, I agree with what you say to Ryan above very much! (would quote it but this is long already). I think we who see an entirely different reality are creating it for those who do not have the vision of experience. I’ve been so confused as to why people ”envision” only ‘better technologies” ”better money systems”, ”healers” etc….when I dont’ see a need for them at all in the future. The whole point of vision is to see/manifest and entirely new reality. Where I come from these things don’t exist, are old limited earthly patriarchal standards that do not exist in visionary higher realities. I think those who can only envision so called ”better” versions of the same pathologies have never experienced the higher realities. Starseeds come from these higher realities and see them clearly and through vision/intention anchor them here. And I agree also about the others being on a personal path, not a Service one. Starseeds as Scott Mandelker and Dolores Cannon describe are here for the Whole, who are karma free, solid in wholeness, and their/our jobs are not pleasant transmuting what is here from slave to free, from ignorance to informed, from dark to light. It could not be possible this work of transmuting is an experience of ”fluffy”, not as a 3D.
    I wanted to share something another person wrote that is applicable here, with her permission:

    ”Even though I found my space of inner peace, I too am ‘over it all’. I don’t have the energy or desire to read updates etc, they all say the same things – just using different words. Life is no longer same shit – different day…it is now same shit – same day….groundhog day. There is no tomorrow, there is only the moment, however, like M said….the ‘moment’ is also wearing thin.

    They say the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence..and some days…I want to be back over the other side of the fence….being in ignorance and living in chaos. That chaos I could understand, to a point, but the chaos of NOW I am finding challenging to be with. No desire to do anything and yet tired of doing nothing. Yes, I recognise these are my thoughts…however, I am still human and the thinking mind still plays a part to a point. Actually, I am not even sure what it is I would wish to do anymore – don’t have the desire to even go there!

    The confusion of information – we are just here to BE, others say we must action things for the universe to make them happen. We are nothing and yet we are everything. We don’t need to be anything or anyone for anyone else and vice versa. The mind boggles!! We are the void and returning to the void…feels rather like hell at times…unless that is the void~! We are here to do nothing, so why are we here? We are spirit having a human experience. Gratitude is the answer. Meditation is the answer. ET’s are the answer. I certainly don’t know the answer and yet the answers from within have also gone quiet. Even though it seems chaotic in the non-chaos???, I don’t even have the energy left to get pissed off or even sigh about what is supposed to be or not supposed to be. If YU55 were to have hit the planet, I would of just stood there and watched it – probably welcomed it!!! (No I don’t have a death wish – it seems I am already dead!!!!)

    It seems we are in a perpetual holding/waiting pattern – waiting for what? Waiting for the outside world to change and yet there is nothing outside of us, so what are we waiting for or who are we waiting on? We are creating a new reality….that worries me since I couldn’t create a sneeze, even if I wanted to!! So, what are we creating – no idea…and yet the supposed 3D world still continues and thrives, unlike those of us who have supposedly been on a journey of enlightenment and transformation for all – who it seems are on their last legs and holding onto their last thread of energy and sanity! Oops, I forgot…everything is love! Hmmmmm…this human perspective of love is certainly self defeating! Funnily enough, I am not suffering – and yet my mind is – it is only the mind that is suffering. So who am I really? (The wheels on the bus go round and round, round and round! lol ) ”

    ~ Kay

  47. Hi all,

    There is such a wealth of sharing and useful info here…

    Thanks to Barbara for mentioning the possibility of 11-11-11 “opening the grids for a huge blast of Christ-consciousness.” On November 19th, I dreamed of a big HOLE in my right hand through which a mass of turquoise light poured through. The hole in my hand may have referred to the crucifixion/Christ consciousness opening up. Couldn’t figure this out before I read your post!

    I appreciate Denise’s comments about the heavy layers of Dark controlling the New Age movement. I always wondered about the emphasis on attracting wealth and other things and pandering to the lower ego. Unfortunately these tactics have misled many and distracted them from the bigger picture. But since so many people buy into the myth that Darkness is a natural part of us, they have no idea that there are external forces here working against our spiritual evolvement.

    For Audrey, I had a mild case of hypothyroidism which I was able to treat without medication, using a yogic posture called Sarvangasana, or shoulder stand. By regularly bringing a healthy flow of blood to the thyroid gland, I was able to improve its performance within 2-3 months doing this asana twice a day. (If you can get your hands on a copy of Light on Yoga, this is described on pages 212 & 213, though you can get all the info you need on the Net.) —I always follow up with “boat pose” and a “back stretch” to get all the kinks out. By the way, this is also a GREAT anti-aging tool!

    Blessings to all, Thelma

  48. I resonated with the last posting by Kay (Lady of the Woods), as I am sure many of us do. I have had many of those thoughts.

    My own perspective is that our lower ego is utterly frustrated, fed up and TIRED of all this transitioning with no “results” (according to ego-mind) to show for it. These are thoughts processed by the mind. Unity consciousness is about feeling, getting into your heart space and BE-ing in the Now.

    My ego is learning to surrender to Higher Self (for the most part). I had a good “talk” with it, saying it is still needed and now its role is to help me integrate more of my Higher Self. So the measurement of success becomes how much I am able to maintain a higher vibration throughout my day. How much joy I can feel.

    I was always goal-driven and this entire process has necessitated a change in perspective. What if the “goal” is to BE who we truly are? Spirits in human bodies?

    We have been socialized/ programmed to want success as defined by the 3D world and can encounter resistance putting our spiritual well-being in first place. Surrender to our Higher Self is key. For me, it is the only thing that works!

    Blessings to all, Thelma

  49. Hi, All,

    I am having a little trouble typing, because I just had an experience that almost knocked me off my feet (and I was sitting down!) I was sitting at the computer and I suddenly was shifted (yes, physically– it felt like it anyway) to the left like a force hit me from the right side. I could feel the force in my body, my head went somewhere else for a moment and my vision changed. It was very visceral and I’m reeling a bit from it. Wild.
    Lady of the Woods, your friend’s comments made me think of the problems facing physicists today. There are a number of seemingly contradictory things. There is time for us, but no time or shifting time in the universe, etc. Things are solid for us, but consist mostly of space. I keep wondering why things can’t both be true at the same time. Ah, I guess I’m moving out of duality. (I just realized that now.) 🙂
    Wow, I’m a little shaky here. I think I’d better lay down and integrate whatever just happened.
    Oh, yeah, and, Denise, I was wondering about the Pleiadians, because I met one that was fluffy and one just abstract, so I didn’t relate to them at all. But I was always pulled by the constellation and it has been a special one for me. I guess the lesson is, don’t go by what others say or do, go by what feels right to you. Oh, yeah, that’s the discernment you were talking about, Denise. 🙂

    Love,
    Cat

    • “Hi, All,

      I am having a little trouble typing, because I just had an experience that almost knocked me off my feet (and I was sitting down!) I was sitting at the computer and I suddenly was shifted (yes, physically– it felt like it anyway) to the left like a force hit me from the right side. I could feel the force in my body, my head went somewhere else for a moment and my vision changed. It was very visceral and I’m reeling a bit from it. Wild.
      Lady of the Woods, your friend’s comments made me think of the problems facing physicists today. There are a number of seemingly contradictory things. There is time for us, but no time or shifting time in the universe, etc. Things are solid for us, but consist mostly of space. I keep wondering why things can’t both be true at the same time. Ah, I guess I’m moving out of duality. (I just realized that now.) 🙂
      Wow, I’m a little shaky here. I think I’d better lay down and integrate whatever just happened.
      Oh, yeah, and, Denise, I was wondering about the Pleiadians, because I met one that was fluffy and one just abstract, so I didn’t relate to them at all. But I was always pulled by the constellation and it has been a special one for me. I guess the lesson is, don’t go by what others say or do, go by what feels right to you. Oh, yeah, that’s the discernment you were talking about, Denise. 🙂

      Love,
      Cat”

      Cat & All,

      I agree, the energies today are very intense. I had to run up to the store and I was almost in tears driving because there’s so much traffic – too many of which don’t pay attention but just race around. Even though I grounded and protected myself and car before I leave the driveway, it’s just WAAAYYY too much out there today for me! Also heard there was a 6.2 quake in Bolivia I think it was.

      Cat I’ve experienced something very similar to what you’ve described. You may have been energetically RE-directed or corrected or??? something. I think it’s a very positive shift for you however. 🙂

      “Lady of the Woods, your friend’s comments made me think of the problems facing physicists today. There are a number of seemingly contradictory things. There is time for us, but no time or shifting time in the universe, etc. Things are solid for us, but consist mostly of space. I keep wondering why things can’t both be true at the same time. Ah, I guess I’m moving out of duality. (I just realized that now.)”

      Things ARE all true at the same time! 🙂 That’s what people have such difficulty comprehending while locked in either/or polarized consciousness in a world and reality of duality. But…because we’re evolving beyond that duality consciousness and its frequency zone and our lower three chakras in 3D linear time space, many are starting to get glimpses of the next higher frequency zone in 5D with its unity consciousness via our higher group of chakras. This may have something to do with the energy RE-direct experience you just had.

      Hugs,
      Denise

  50. today….11-22-11……lost in space….can not find my body…..somehow still had to go to work……….guess am on autopilot,… it has happened a lot this year….i look back and have not a clue how i got here. I did have a clear thought about black friday…….black!!!! one of the darks best herd mentality tactics. PEACE…….LOVE…..JOY….to everyone here and thanks for the energy, not sure I could make it without your support

  51. Audrey – You may have adrenal fatigue in addition to the thyroid condition you mentioned. Are you familiar with adrenal fatigue? It is a condition which is practically unknown by mainstream allopathic doctors. It often goes hand in hand with thyroid conditions. I found out I had a severe case of adrenal fatigue 17 years ago, and spent several years recovering from it and related conditions. Please let me know if you’d like me to tell you about books and websites with more information on this condition.

    Tom

  52. Hey Tom,

    I googled up adrenal fatigue and most of the symptoms are also what I’m experiencing. And I’m only 32 years old. o.O

    I find that because of these solar flares and CMEs (not to mention the upcoming and HERE forces from the Super Galactic Centre)… are all playing on our bodies’ cells.

    Thank God/dess that my Higher Self has encouraged me to freelance at home from now on. I need to hunker down right now. I don’t think none of us are going to be their old selves ever again. A good thing. When this whole 2012 Ascension transmuting thing is over that’s when I see the fun starts. Right now it’s all about zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

    Love you all,
    Lou Ann

  53. Hi Tom,
    Thank you for your offer to help with adrenal information.
    I am certain I have adrenal fatigue, and have for a long time.
    My understanding has been that there are basically two steps you can take: reduce stress and support your physical body with sleep, nutrition, exercise.
    I have had to accept that this body might just have a shorter shelf life than the bodies of my parents and grandparents – for whatever reason.
    I have reduced stress as much as possible – but… Stress is my friend in some ways too – keeps me on my toes, so we dance together.
    And I have had to for many years walk the tightrope on caring for this body – I’m well known as being extremely strict on diet, sleep and exercise.

    I’ve come to think of my body as a spaceship, which I am piloting. When I write about physical shortcomings and symptoms in my diary, I label those entries: Captain’s Log! Some of my internal (thyroid, adrenal, and others) departments aren’t working as well as they used to, and sometimes the crew is found to be dozing, but the ship still has all essential units operating (including humor!) and I’m confident it will get me as far as it needs to get me, however far that may be.

    Love your gameshow analogy on another thread!!!
    Happy Weekend everyone,
    Audrey

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