The Dark Side of the First Trimester

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I’ve been debating for much of the winter (12-21-12 post Shift to 3-19-13) whether or not to even talk about this particular aspect of the First Trimester, but now that enough of the negative dust has cleared recently, I feel I should even though I hate having to still talk about the Negative nonphysical beings at this late date. However, as long as there are those many different Stair Steps with many different people on them at different levels and phases, we’re going to occasionally have to deal with certain people being used to attack or get at the rest of us in whatever way(s) they can. It just is what it is.

As some of you remember, with the start of January 2013 there was a sudden influx of some people being the Consciousness Police to the rest of us at TRANSITIONS. That was my first clue that something was afoot… again. Then by February I knew without any doubt that the interference was deliberate, growing and coming from some nonphysical, nonhuman Negatives/Team Dark and that it was highly intentional. WHY it was happening hadn’t dawned on me in January and February, but I finally perceived the larger picture recently and now it all makes perfect sense to me. You discern however as I always expect each of you to do. ♥

In my article The First Trimester (published 3-8-13) I talked about the intense physical symptoms I’d been going through during the winter months or First Trimester. What I didn’t mention in it however was that I had been psychically attacked from the Astral a few weeks ago and that attack re-percussed down into the physical and both myself and my Mom got physically sick. We both got bad head and chest “colds” on top of all the other fabulous energy symptoms! I take full responsibility for not keeping my energetic protections up as strongly as I should have them constantly.

There are things such as my finally publicly confessing this human generated psychic attack, including plenty of other things, that I do not publicly talk about only because I run the risk of putting many of you in harm’s way in regards to attacks from the Negatives too, plus opening an energetic crack for them to enter TRANSITIONS and do what they do so well to people through other people. Before you possibly take offense at that statement, realize that every human alive has been and/or still is embarrassingly easy for the Negative beings to use and manipulate. If you’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission, then you know I’ve experienced both sides of this tactic myself many times. No one is exempt from the Negative nonphysical beings trying to use, influence, manipulate and/or possess them to cause harm and chaos to other people. It just is what it is.

What I’m saying is that sometimes I’ve deliberately withheld certain information from some of my articles (as I know certain other Ascension Teachers do as well when needed and for the very same reasons) ONLY because it wasn’t safe or the correct time to talk about them publicly as I am now with this First Trimester situation. If I sense that it’s time to write/talk about certain negative multidimensional events and tactics being done to myself, then I write about them as a way to further teach other people about these types of situations and how the Negatives work. Like all the rest of you I’d prefer it was all shiny perfection, hearts n’ luv, pink ponies prancing, fragrant flowers and rainbow glitter but it isn’t and never has been, so a very small handful of us must talk about the unseen Negatives and how people, how humans are used and manipulated by them to attack, derail, sidetrack, make sick, wound, bewilder etc. as many Lightworkers as possible.

Another thing I’ve learned the hard way over the years with these types of sudden surges of attacks and other devious tactics by the Negatives is that they always indicate that something very positive and big is coming, hence why they do their damnedest to derail as many of us as they can before the next big positive wave of change arrives in this dimension. So when you find yourself once again under attack in whatever clever form(s) it takes through loved ones, friends, neighbors, co-workers, strangers etc. — know that there’s a very important reason WHY the attacks and interference is building and happening again; it’s because some very important positive energies and changing are coming so fight on my fellow Lightwarriors and get your exhausted butt up and out of the dirt one…more…time. Said with LoveLight. ♥

So now lets talk about the WHY of these negative physical attacks, Astral attacks, endless interference, multiple derailing attempts through multiple people, and general attempts to get as many of us to energetically miscarry during the First Trimester as possible. The reason the Negatives increased their attempts to grab/use/manipulate/attack as many other people and Lightworkers as they could is because with the first March 20, 2013 Vernal Equinox after the Expiration Date Shift Point of 12-21-12, some major NEW blueprint energies will be inserted into this physical world and our bodies like never before. That is why the Negatives have been so busy trying to get as many of us to miscarry during this First Trimester period; they knew that once the Vernal Equinox imprints these NEW energy blueprints within us and this world that it’s going to be that much more difficult for them to even reach us. This is how these beings work and why. Live and learn. Ready for the Vernal Equinox and entering the Second Trimester? I sure am. Stay strong everyone and keep your heart on the end results. Group Hug.

grouphug

Denise

March 10, 2013

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64 thoughts on “The Dark Side of the First Trimester

  1. Thank you… holding the vibration of unconditional LOVE./non duality… dreaming the new reality with all of you… from the heart —> ❤ <—

  2. Thank you so much for putting this out, and saying it so succinctly. Friends and myself have been busy for weeks treating ourselves and others who have had “unusual” issues. We have started a local get together for sharing, encouragement, and clarifying. Bless you for all the enlightenment you share..in the Highest Love and Light, may you continue!!

  3. Thank you Denise,
    Feeling very intense energies today, like in a vibrational torture chamber. I will contintue to hold the love and light for us all. That is my solemn vow.

    Love from my heart to all of yours……………

  4. Dearest Denise,

    I completely understand what you’re saying. It sure explains to me now why all week I’ve been jerked out of sleep by my upstairs neighbor late at night and early in the morning. To the point where my chest really hurts from being jerked from rest. I finally got around to emailing him about it yesterday, and lo-and-behold, I slept really well last night… it only took me all of a week to think about telling him he’s disrupting my sleep! And in doing so, it cleared things out.

    I’m in my own personal testing ground at the moment. Historically for me, this man-and-dark-made holiday has been horrific. For almost 20 years it’s always been depressing and fear filled for me, although I couldn’t understand why until a couple years ago. Since my Higher Self removed “fear” from my script back in October, this is the first time I can actually say lent and Easter out loud without triggering myself. I don’t feel depressed. Not until March 31st will it be a real victory for me. When I can see that I make it through this entire “holiday” time, I’ll know for sure that I have found healing. I won’t open the door on what happened to me; what I can say that I’m no longer being depressed and feared away from my own Light. It’s so important for all of us to “come back to center”, to “re-member” that we are Light. I consciously re-mind myself of this every morning and when I’m in bed at night.

    And I don’t take offense to your comment… I know each one of us can be an opening to attack and hurt one another via the dark. I appreciate your honesty and candor as you’re able to share with all of us. I had to giggle about the prancing ponies and rainbows and all that… yes I’m sure most of us want a world like something out of the song “my favorite things” hehe! And while we’re not there yet, we are almost there…

    With Much Love and Light,
    Chrysalis… ready to fly…

  5. Great confirmation, thanks Denise. I have one friend in the same space as us (lucky, I know) and we did more joint protecting of her much aware son, and ourselves over this time.
    Daily phone calls working together and searching out the gremlins, making up gremlin spray for turning them into love. Had to make it fun or else it would have felt like another war moment.
    Her cat (non cat) is an awesome gremlin catcher, so she’s in it as well.
    These gremlins were doing such ‘obvious’ things that we knew in our hearts that these were last ditch efforts. Funny and laughable once we’d completed clearing and reprotecting. Her 5yr old was more under attack, so strong love bubble protection was our method.
    Then one day we both just felt better. Lighter. Still tired from the workload PLUS having human paid jobs, but managing the days easier.
    Love joyful hugs to you, Denise, for staying the course and keeping us up to date.

  6. Love you Denise ♥
    Have found these last few weeks to be both intensely challenging and highly charged and amazing … almost like both ends of the scale at the same time. I can feel the squeeze in place for this coming gateway/portal/ whatever you want to call it … it feels BIG … in a really kinda squeezing through a small space sort of way. Almost like hurtling at full speed towards a very small opening … I feel that there will be more space on the other side. This is so reminiscent of the December Solstice … it feels to be all about focus and not getting distracted – remember what happened in the lead up to December 21st last year …. ? It feels similar …
    Thanks for your post.

  7. Thank you, Denise, for addressing the dark ones. I continue to be bombarded by them just as before Dec 21, 2012. In fact, on that day, I was selling a very remote property and I had someone who wanted to look at it at the exact moment of the solstice. She stayed 4 hours and it turned out that she was the center of a military and drug plot to steal her soul and turn her into a zomby prostitute. Nobody believed her and she thought she was going insane. I helped her restore her soul, and cut the ties and programs, and recommended she leaves the state as quietly and as quickly as she can. I asked her not to keep my contact information, in case they came after me. I left the state the property was in as quickly as I could too. I sold the property at last– an incredible miracle and blessing in this US economy, and have moved to my new haven. However, new beginnings have been filled with obstacles from the dark ones, slowing me down and paralyzing me. Recently I had no car for 2 wks. And often I don’t sleep well and am only marginally functional the next day. My brain is in such a fog I cannot organize the simplest maintenance activity.

    Now I just read George Kavassila’s fantastic book “Our Universal Journey” and it totally resonates with me, as does this blog of yours. I went ahead and removed my chakra and kundalini programs, and deactivated my pineal gland. It feels great for the hours it lasts. Then i feel the dark ones tugging at my forehead area again and wanting my energy. I go into brain fog and exhaustion and it just feels like I go in circles all day, accomplishing nothing in 3D, and there are many things I would like to do. Making a living has been so difficult for the last 9 years for me, not because of ascension symptoms, but because the dark has been relentless at trying to defeat me, and the best I have managed is to stay alive. I already feel I am pure light and love and knowing, and I want nothing more than help others discover that about themselves. I have been prohibited from imparting my message over and over, and this continues since Dec 21, 12, unfortunately.

    I have not written here before because I have literally been afraid that the dark forces will be able to track me better through this public posting and my life will become even more hellish. But I do receive so much support reading about all of your and your readers experiences; it gives me encouragement to go on, as I know so many of us are having difficulties. It is as you say,Denise, the dark does not get less; my skills keep improving at detaining them from influencing me. They up the anti, and so do I. But, oh, how i wish to be able to make a living again and not keep falling through the cracks.
    Thank you all of you for your unconditional love and support.

    Grace C.

  8. Hello, Denise and everyone,

    I’ve certainly felt this slightly darker period as well. There are things happening in my family, serious things, and there is an attempt to draw me back into the fold so that they can all swoop down upon me like a bunch of vultures. Unfortunately for them, my psychic abilities have grown enough to feel their hate across several towns and I absolutely am not able to go back into the fray. When I thought about it seriously for a day or a moment, I would fall apart and feel how it would destroy me for a time. But, when I choose not to engage at all, I feel strong and happy and confident. That’s one good example of this in my life lately. I even had one night with negative dark shadows, but they are definitely not as strong as they were and were very easy to ignore. They have no bite now. And, all the terribly “helpful” people who came here in the comments to distract us with their “remedies” and diagnoses for what ails us (obviously people just trolling for keywords and who had never read the blog before) were so obvious after the months of peaceful, supportive dialogue we’ve had on this blog and in the comments. I will admit I got a bit feisty with them, but I get annoyed when people think I’m dumb when I see right through their hollow words. It’s just a matter of recognizing these things as they appear and dispelling them one by one as they arise. It makes it a lot easier to have this core circle of people on here that know who we all are. We’re sisters (and I include the guys in that–you’re one of us. I guess that’s the balancing of the masculine and feminine showing through.)

    I love you all and big, stupid hugs,
    Cat

  9. This is very timely. 🙂 Thank you, Denise. ♥♥♥♥♥

    Yes, this is so true in my experience: “… realize that every human alive has been and/or still is embarrassingly easy for the Negative beings to use and manipulate.” And yes, I have been experiencing some of their weirdness they can throw my way. Some of the attacks are eye-rollingly obvious, and I have said, “Really? You are going to do it like that? Gimme a break.” Some of them have been subtle and more insidious, and it has been key for me to be attuned to the energetic signature of such. I have a radar now, though, and have to suspect when anything comes along that makes me really despairing. That’s a good sign that something is afoot.

    But, we can and do stand against these things because we can. We are more powerful, we are stronger than they are when we see through the bullshit-covered windscreen. It’s so important to keep a level head. Laura at the Oracle Report writes about being the wise owl in the tree, and also the archer (I always picture Artemis) ready to aim our arrows of truth and love at the waves of activity that try to make us succumb.

    But it is key to understand your point here.

    It is interesting you posted this today. It is convergent with other information I have received. I “got” that there is a 10-day window starting today and going for 10 days after the 3-20 date. The window of these powerful energies that are beginning to come our way.

    Be on guard, be strong and courageous, and the wise old owl in these days ahead (I mostly wrote that as a reminder for myself for when I will find myself back here at this post as likely something has tried to freak me out, hahaha).

    Love, Light, Laughter! Most importantly LAUGHTER! “They” hate that, especially when it is aimed at them. Ha.

    Remember what women have to do when they are in the first and early second trimester: if they are feeling the need to, REST. Stay calm. Eat well. Breath and let the negativity bounce off of the protection that we each have been given. Whether you shield or have another method available to you, it is there for you when you are mindful of it.

    Thank you Denise, and here is a measure of energetic protection through this comment to contribute to the shielding already here in this blog.

    ♥♥♥♥♥
    Calliope the Muse

    • I appreciate your sharing this: “Some of the attacks are eye-rollingly obvious, and I have said, “Really? You are going to do it like that? Gimme a break.” I give “them” similar feedback, such as, “Don’t you all have anything better to do?”

  10. Thank you for this writing..Much light entered my being and home before and after the solstice.Only for an extreme change of energy in a loved one in mid-Febuary creating a similiar situation for this self as past years.
    Yet for this self there is an absence of fear,there is a building of calm,hope and peace.
    However the past while,during afternoon rest,there has been disturbance.Today upon waking from this rest,with much more disturbance then usual and a question of what.Opening the email,there was your writing.
    Thank you your writing has given a determination to stay centered in the calm,peace,hope.Centered in Love.
    Thank you

  11. Thank you again Denise for all this useful information and explaining further (so well) in your last articles here about this 9 month Acsension period what is happening to us during each of the Trimesters. I’m new to this forum, however I’m not new at all to so many of these Bazaar and sometimes extremely Painful and Disturbing Physical Symptoms! (that cannot be diagnosed medically). And also by the way, I’ve been dealling with (what I’m now convinced is) Acension Flare ups, which that last days to months at a time, on and off for 7 1/2 to 8 years or more! This last one being a NIGHTMARE, starting about a week or so before New Years and still going. The worst being the upper chest pain and soreness in between upper mid back between shoulder, above heart area including pain spasms, pulsating, vibrating, strong heartbeating while resting and rib soreness and couple second Electrical Shock pains and Hot waves etc…This is the Torture I’ve been experiencing too for over a month now! Now I know Thymus related for SURE. this is one of the symptoms I HATE most! It seems to be gradually improving as at least I’m starting to have some Good Hours of Pain sensation free time in between and yesterday I actually had almost a full daytime of relief! I’m going through this all alone too because I’m not really involved in a Community of those like myself nor is my family or friends aware of what this is all about and living a mainstream life in 3D. Bless you Denise and all the Angels here @ Transitions as well as the other Ascension Teachers, Kindred Soul Starseeds and Indigos…and Thank God that I was led on this path to discover all this information is in fact the REAL DEAL! As an Intuitive/Empath/Healer and Seeker since childhood I’ve Experienced many Spiritual Events and Transformations, etc before. And Although I had many Intuitive Feelings about many of the subjects you address, as well as a sense of Knowing that a lot would be happening on Earth during my lifetime here that I’d be connected with in some way, I still never, ever imagined the extent of what is truly going on!! This information I’ve discovered in these past 2 months was mind boggling for me and yet a RELIEF! I’m just begining to proceess it ALL.

    With Deep Gratitude!
    Sandra

  12. Yes I agree Denise , I have been attacked at night while I slept . It been about 3 attack before I realize that I had to protect my self . I bought some crystal that helps with these kind of attacks . AAM and his legions of lights has told me to pray and send love for these poor soul and call him , so I ask him to protect me . At night I have a special prayer that I say . So far I have been okay . … roew

  13. hi Denise,
    blessings and many thanks for this article. Perfect timing and much needed.
    Dusting off and ready for the next bit! 😉

  14. Denise,
    Thanks for explaining the reason for my early A.M. tussle with Darkness. It felt like some demonic presence was trying to cause fear and mayhem for hours to myself and others in dream time. I woke myself up asking, “How to send it packing?”. The answer, “Fight fear with love/light, not more fear,anger, hatred, etc.” I was able to visualize bright blue/white light from my heart out to the dark one which caused it to evaporate. It could not withstand the love. So simple, but so easy to forget in the throws of fear.
    Keep going! Cay

    • “The answer, “Fight fear with love/light, not more fear,anger, hatred, etc.””

      Cay,

      Absolutely correct. I’ve tried fighting back and it never has worked, but punching out LoveLight sends them running for the Astral hills. 😉 😆

      Hugs,
      Denise

  15. Yeah, I’ve definitely felt under at least a little bit of psychic attack lately. Apologies if I have been used in a bad way to say a wrong thing on the blog since I’m fairly new.

    What I would say is that I’ve been very healthy the past couple of years – no colds, no illness. But ever since December 21, I’ve had non-stop colds, throat problems, bouts of voice loss and such. I wonder if that has anything to do with earths energy changes?

    I also found out that the dark were absolutely manipulating someone some months back to attack my views personally, which affected me quite strongly at the time. However this was actually done to promote me to look at one of my own weakness: lack of self faith and self-confidence in my experience.

    On another note, the universe continues to direct me to suitable articles online and literally bombards light into my ‘dark/weak points’. So it feels as if truth and light is being thrown onto me to uncover my weakness’ one by one! Talk about rapid change going on!

    Jamie

    • “What do you mean by “energetically miscarry”?

      Gerry,

      I meant, and I probably should have explained my term better in this article, that by the Negatives attacking us their intention is to cause us to become derailed, sidetracked, sick or whatever with all the negativity and crap from physical sources, people, multiple situations, negative attacks in our dreams too, then they will have succeeded to some degree in causing any they can to miscarry, abort, loose the baby during this First Trimester. And, the “baby” is US on the brink of embodying much more of our greater selves into this body we’re all in now. The Negatives will try anything they can to trip us up, cause us to fail, cause us to become so preoccupied with negative onslaughts that we might miss this part of The Ascension Process so that we do not accomplish this very important phase. That’s what I meant by my using the symbolism of a physical miscarriage with the Negatives trying to derail us to the degree that we miss or waste the time of the First Trimester.

      Hugs,
      Denise

  16. It’s never easy to write about this topic in open way. Many people judge it as fear-mongering, or sometimes it might affect people in unexpected ways. I was looking forward to 12-12-12 and hoped i would act as a conduit once again like i did on 7-7-12. But this time it was a full force assault and i fighted literally for my life all night. So after that, i haven’t really looked forward to anything between 21-12 and 23-12, I was exhausted during that time and was not eager to battle again. I had a very quiet birthday on 23-12. On late January i had a dream about becoming pregnant. I woke up from utter horror, because it felt so real and having a child is not my wish in this life. But now i understand what that means. There was a full force attack again around 22-2. Some very heavy energy beam hit my lower abdomen and with much dedication i was able to wake up. Several days later i started to have a real physical pain on the same area. It then went away. Does that mean i am miscarried?
    One thing that always interested me is how easily team dark can infiltrate our minds. Someone recommended to try to quiet the mind and see what happens for proof. I tried but was not able to silence it. Just after one minute or so, my mind wanders to something else – i see images, think about some useless stuff etc.,It didn’t work even after lots and lots of effort. Which led me to question the theory about moon matrix. It’s like we are all plugged to the moon matrix. Is that true?
    Btw, i read George Kavassilas’ book ‘Our Universal Journey’ with an open mind and many things that he said resonated with me.

    Hugs, Ori

  17. Hi Denise. Thank you so much. I think I have by now had recaps of last years challenges from leaking roofs, refrigerator leaking…. my dog knocking down a 10 ft horizontal plank from my old warped fence, and other areas that expose me to stress. One of the people I read has referred to this time as a time of “testing”. I suppose certain “someones” can be used to administer some of those tests. I had this new friend “help” me rather unknowingly and she got very ill…. we are just guessing the cause that she “took into herself” something that had been on me…. I have gotten angry more often….. mercury is retrograde too I understand…… My biggest realization has been to ask for the realization that I am safe to be me here….. I Hope I am safe to be me here : ) ….. so that I can relinquish the belief in attack/defend behavior in general and to become the observer I desire to be. I have had some tiny advances in this area : ) I hope we all pass thru this time to the next stage, and my birthday just happens to be March 20th!

    and I left out that the rest of the time lately I have been sleeping non stop and quite sharply feel different areas from head to toe have something going on with them. When I pray/meditate the energy feels so heavy that it makes me need to sleep for an hour. I hope it is all good! 🙂

  18. Denise, I could feel your reluctance at putting this out, but it was the right thing to do at this time. I think it’s important for us to be aware of what’s going on and to protect ourselves as necessary. (And I’m sorry for what you and your mother have been through recently – my word!)

    My life coaching web site was hacked a few weeks ago, I changed the password and now it’s being hacked again by spammers. I also became aware of Dark influences in a few of my dreams and started using Lisa Rene’s 12D shielding technique before going to sleep – it worked. Also, one of my friends is partially possessed by the Dark at times and when this happens, I feel waves of hatred directed towards me. I know it’s coming from the Dark and have learned to detach.

    What most of us don’t realize is that the nonphysical Dark can lodge within the subconscious of people’s minds (a “mind parasite”), getting them to say or do things to create a reaction. It ain’t pretty (like you said), but it’s best to know what we’re dealing with. Whatever Dark energy is left will raise all the havoc it can – esp. before this Equinox.

    I look forward to putting the Dark pages of human history behind us for good. Enough already!!

    I wonder if there’s anything special we need to do to prepare for the energies of the Equinox? It sounds like such a special and incredible time.

    Blessings to all, Thelma

  19. Dearest Denise, timing is everything,this has been the worst day of physic attack I have had in months. Neighbors acting out. if I lived close to a bridge, I would jump, but living in the desert…… no chance of that. and I would not anyway. But finding the energy to keep on keeping on…… now there is a challenge, I was happy to find your post. HOPE. Community. I am not the only one. Thanks for sharing. Hugs to you and all who read this and all who don’t read this. I think everyone needs hugs right now! I do. Gwen

    • Gwen,

      Sorry to hear about your neighbors.

      I went through something similar last year with neighbors in the building next door- they wrecked an entire apartment, including taking an axe to the toilet and counters, and then set fire to the place! And that was apart from the constant screaming matches and police interventions. (After that, neighbors in the building on the other side of me acted out, threatening to kill each other. They were just evicted.)

      Think of it as Team Dark’s way of trying to distract you and take you off course. My suggestion: visualize peace and harmony and surround yourself with a protective bubble of light.

      We’ll soon get through this and come out on the other side!

      Blessings, Thelma

  20. I know I shouldn’t feel relief reading your reports of negative interference…but goodness, it explains much of my own experiences lately. Less than a week ago, I felt a bizarre urge to pick up a pen during a rather routine breakfast meal; I proceeded to dictate a message that informed me that I must take up the mantle at my workplace, previously held by two managers who had transferred, of “embodying the higher vibration of higher ideals–the spirit of togetherness, of mutual learning.” Apparently, my task is to “be a catalyst, the magnet which will attract higher-vibrating magnets in [my] workplace and the collective attraction power of you all will be irresistible and change the atmosphere entirely. Everyone will fall into step, consciously or unconsciously, or choose to leave. But you must begin, hold onto this vision, or none of this will come to be. You must release your feelings of frustration and anger against others, for not noticing or respecting you, for how can they [respect you] if you do not emit the vibration of respectability?” The whole experience was so bizarre, but I felt this sense of urgency, so I have attempted to fulfill this task to the best of my ability at this time. It seems like a futile task, given the current environment, but I was convinced to try by a “collaboration meeting” I had with others in the dream state, which is not something I ever have participated in consciously before. The odd thing is that I know exactly who these individuals are–and at least one of them, a manager, seems to know, too, though I revealed none of the contents of this brief meeting to him! He described the exact plan I had communicated to another coworker, in the dream-state, though I did not think to mention this to him in the physical. It’s like we’re conspirators; we’re going to keep each other’s energies up by smiling at each other, or giving a thumbs-up when we pass by each other to remind us that we support another, to stay strong.

    The pertinent point here is that since I made to conscious decision to attempt to embody more Light, I have experienced derision, humiliation, and total exclusion on a level I have not experienced since my horrible middle school days. Nobody else knows, consciously, what I’m doing…and yet they seem to know, unconsciously, and their chief aim is to make me feel as foolish as possible. In other words–negative interference! The pattern should be clear by now–as Denise described, an increase of Light quotient often is followed by some kind of attack–but I still was caught off-guard and wondered, once again, “what I was doing wrong.” Thank you for keeping us focused, Denise!

    • “…The pertinent point here is that since I made to conscious decision to attempt to embody more Light, I have experienced derision, humiliation, and total exclusion on a level I have not experienced since my horrible middle school days. Nobody else knows, consciously, what I’m doing…and yet they seem to know, unconsciously, and their chief aim is to make me feel as foolish as possible. In other words–negative interference! The pattern should be clear by now–as Denise described, an increase of Light quotient often is followed by some kind of attack–but I still was caught off-guard and wondered, once again, “what I was doing wrong.”

      balsamicmoon,

      Yes, yes, yes, the negative unseens know exactly what our personal weak spots are, our fears, our old emotional wounds and psychic battle wounds etc. and they USE them mercilessly. Example: after I finished this article, answered some emails, and did the dishes I was really tired and needed a nap. I fell asleep and had a deep dream and didn’t even consciously know I was asleep dreaming — and I usually do, especially when there’s negative monkey business happening! This dream of only a few hours ago now had material in it straight out of my past negative emotional wounds bin that these particular Negatives picked out to hit me with while napping today. It’s amazing how desperate they are now and how they’re having to literally scrap the bottom of our emotional barrels to find any remaining tidbit to use in an attempt to further wound, exhaust, frustrate, instill fear etc. Obviously this is not the time for any of us to get lazy and careless cause these bottom-feeders are very hungry and on the prowl!

      The most important thing is that you consciously recognized this negative tactic, this maneuver that Team Dark uses on us, which has empowered you tremendously. Know that you’ll be tested again to see if you’ve forgotten it. We all get tested again and again until we no longer need testing. 😉

      Hugs,
      Denise

  21. I love that you added the baby in a spiral, such a powerful symbol. Love and much healing energy to eveyone here, my family, I thank all of you for you comments. Swoosh to you and you mom Denise, did you catch it. 🙂

  22. The ‘Consciousness Police’! Bahaha! LOVE that! You are so funny Denise!

    This article is PERFECT timing as always. I was going to post a question in your Q & A section asking about how you see the ‘dark’ beings now.

    This has SO been my experience this year, yet I kept reading all these ‘postings’ from a variety of authors and channels about how awesome and light and blissful and ‘perfect’ the energy is now post 21-12 and I’m thinking…”Crap! Am I missing something here? And why are all the most enlightened people I know also struggling with dark attacks. Huh?!’ But then I took myself back to ‘Well I do have a specific job as a starseed of clearing the dark energies so I can’t compare myself to anyone else’s experience as I will always come up ‘lacking’ in some way.’

    So thanks for the reminder that the attacks always indicate something positive and BIG happening…and this happening sounds and feels HUGE. I will hang in there and get up one…more…time!! SO exciting to know the new blueprints are coming.

    I want to thank you as well Denise because your BRILLIANT Lightworker’s Mission book has been SO profound for me. My hubbie bought it for me for Christmas and I sat up all night reading it. It was wonderful to reflect on what I was doing as you shared your different experiences…to realise how far we have all come and remember how bloody dense the energies were back then! I did email you but I also want to share this publicly here: my admiration for you (and your MUM!), your work, your wisdom, your PERSISTENCE just increased with each page I read. It gave me hope to keep going.

    I am 43 and I have been on the spiritual/ascension path since my early 20’s circa 1990, and yet I read in your book about things you were perceiving in the even denser energies of the 70’s and 80’s. I know how exhausted I am. I can’t even comprehend another ten, twenty or thirty years on top of that! And I want to say this to you Denise and to all of you starseeds and lightworkers who are OLDER than me: I HONOUR you for holding the light for as long as you have. I admire and honour your incredible persistence. I thank you for paving the way for me and all of us. I thank you for making it easier for me, for all of us, to reside on this planet at this time. I see your light and it is incredibly brilliant and shiny. And I am inspired and deeply appreciative of your BEing here at this time.

    Denise, I was inspired to get your book by a comment someone else made about it in another post. So I want to say to all reading this: You might like to CHECK OUT DENISE’S BOOK! It is brilliant and you will see, hear, understand and get so much out of it.

    And thank you Denise for holding this incredibly sacred, enlightening holy space for all of us. You are so dearly blessed and loved and appreciated.

    THANK YOU SO MUCH once again for your wisdom and insight and TRUTH. Denise, you are so awesome! 🙂

    Smiles and hugs and deepest appreciation and gratitude, Kathryn xoxox

    • “This has SO been my experience this year, yet I kept reading all these ‘postings’ from a variety of authors and channels about how awesome and light and blissful and ‘perfect’ the energy is now post 21-12 and I’m thinking…”Crap! Am I missing something here? And why are all the most enlightened people I know also struggling with dark attacks. Huh?!’ But then I took myself back to ‘Well I do have a specific job as a starseed of clearing the dark energies so I can’t compare myself to anyone else’s experience as I will always come up ‘lacking’ in some way.’”

      fulltimegoddess – Kathryn,

      EXACTLY and very well said and done you!

      “…I want to thank you as well Denise because your BRILLIANT Lightworker’s Mission book has been SO profound for me. My hubbie bought it for me for Christmas and I sat up all night reading it…”

      Thank you so very much for saying this Kathryn ♥ and for everything you said after it too! It means more to me than you realize. To have people honestly understand that there’s always others that have gone before them, which makes everyone else’s journey a bit easier is worth all work and effort. Thank you so very much for your kind words and your wonderful Heart.

      Gratitude ♥ Hugs,
      Denise

      • Thanks Denise and you are SO very welcome! 🙂

        One of my favourite, favourite quotes sums it up perfectly. It’s by Sir Isaac Newton (English mathematician & physicist) from a letter to Robert Hooke, (English polymath and biologist) in 1675, in which he acknowledges all of the previous work of a huge collection of scientific minds:

        “If I have seen further, it is by standing on the shoulders of giants.”

        xoxox

  23. Reblogged this on Spirit In Action and commented:
    Last night I had a vision. I was trying to understand why certain people seem to constantly do negative, cruel, hurtful things to others, cause suffering, harm and death to innocent living beings and yet always seem to be having a fine time. They evade the law tho breaking it, they appear to be able to save all their karma for later…I was wondering is the Universe just set up to let the bad guys have free reign while we have to feel bad for not loving them enough and not being compassionate enough?

    It’s not that I don’t cultivate unconditional love and compassion, or pray for those who are being harmful-it’s just that after years and years of it, it IS really hard to just keep on at that while experiencing violence and harm to oneself and those one cares about. It becomes a challenge not only to one’s faith, but sometimes to continued physical survival, health and life.

    The Universe answered me so beautifully I cried with relief and joy-but then of course second guessed myself as I have not yet learned to stop doing completely. Until I read Denise’s wonderful post today. I am always grateful for her clarity, wisdom and insight as she often seems to be experiencing, thinking and feeling many of the same things I am but is ever so much more graceful and capable in explaining them and more significantly ever so much firmer and clearer in her own awareness of her truth.

    Today I am awash in gratitude and awe for both Denise and the Universe and their perfect dance in lightening my heart;-)

    In my vision I saw the white wizard in the tower from Lord of the Rings, his tower surrounded by the burned and destroyed no-longer-forest, the pits and fires, furnaces tended by mutant orcs, industrial machinery and smoke-it perfectly mirrored the feeling of what I have been seeing and experiencing with the negative path (or directed) humans who seem to wish to turn Earth into Mordor.

    Then instantly the scene flashed, as it does in the film, to the Ents marching to war to take that whole horrible scene apart, drown it and return the land to the way it was meant to be-knowing the water would wash away the horror and the forest would eventually regrow and heal.

    And in my heart I felt strongly that Tolkien had very consciously and purposefully prepared for us a map in poetic form of the territory we would have to cross to get to the new world. He both reminded us of our ancient history that has been denied and hidden, and taught us very clearly what would be required of us.

    We have incarnated into some of the most fragile physical forms in this Universe (that is why they are called “frails”;-) but like those seemingly too small to matter hobbits we have set our determination, our steadfast faith, hope and love against the rigors of harsh traveling weather, vicious attackers, unseen forces of evil and the desolate despair inducing plains of Mordor.

    And like those brave little hobbits on the side of that burning volcano, we are ALMOST THERE!!

    So these continuing Gollum-like attacks will come, and we will keep going-crawling if need be, but that damn ring is getting melted, and our beautiful Earth and all her incredible amazing magical living beings WILL be healed and renewed in the rising Light.

    If you think about volcanoes, once they stop erupting actively they are the most fertile and beautiful lush, rich jungles of growth-so those desolate plains of Mordor will eventually become beautiful and filled with life. After all Change is the Mother’s signature move;-)

    So I post this with great thanks to Denise, and great encouragement to all who see this to click the link and read the whole thing AND the comments which, as mentioned in the earlier post today, are a whole nother blessing on top of Denise’s wisdom;-)

  24. I want to thank you Denise, for writing this, and all of you here for sharing your experiences. I too was feeling very like because of the attacks, I was somehow missing something, or losing my way, maybe not ascending, maybe stuck in the leftover b world for the people who want to keep on with duality-very disturbing!

    But I am so glad to understand that it is just part of the cycle, I am not lost. And most significant that the coming changes and good upgrades will likely have such a positive effect on the ongoing situation of dealing with the negatives.

    I am gradually learning to find the middle path-not to react and fight back, but also not to take it endlessly and just keep trying harder to be more loving, accepting, compassionate etc. as one keeps me at a low vibration and the other is like laying down in a shirt that says “doormat for negative beings”;-/

    My Mom always said I needed to learn to respond not react. To learn to choose my response and act appropriately, and that seems to very much fit here for me. To stand in my own power and refuse to allow them to enact harm and suffering on me or those I love(or any innocent being nearby) while still having compassion for their lostness.

    A person who meant well on a group I read tried to tell me that if I purified my feelings enough-if I was loving and compassionate and purely those things with no anger/fear etc then the attackers would stop and either be kind to me or leave and if they don’t do those things then I must not be purified enough. Ouch.

    Much thanks to the earlier discussion here on distractions etc I was able to recognize that no matter how true that might be for that person, it was not fitting my situation. I had been trapped in that understanding and feeling terrible about myself. I always knew tho that others have free will and are not controlled by my inner experience-but I doubted myself .

    I’m owning my inner truth that the Universe is a very big diverse place and not all of it can ever fit in any one neat little theory, doctrine or dogma. And it feels so much better to know I am not the only one still experiencing these things!!

    I have been experiencing an intense feeling lately, alongside all the questioning and confusion arising from being attacked, a strong feeling that we are making connections between our hearts and that it is forming a circuit, all around the Earth and in it. It is a connection not just between starseeds/lightworkers, or humans, but between all living beings and Gaia herself.

    Even when I was feeling most frustrated and upset, I kept getting this feeling and that it is building, more and more are creating these heart connections and when it gets to critical mass, when the circuit opens and starts to flow the energy of the Universe thru us all, it will change everything.

    All the things we see that seem so dreadful and like they will take so long to change may be changeable so much more quickly, and simply because the collective energy is so much more powerful than the individual.

    It’s been a growing feeling until recently and now it just feels like a certainty tho I don’t have a time frame, just that it is happening now-how long it will take to complete I don’t know but it does not have the feeling like when I am old someday about it. (maybe a month or 3, maybe a year or 3, but not decades more)

    Thank you all for all your are doing to bring in the Light and healing to our beautiful Earth. Thank you for your kindness and support and sharing of wisdom here, and for the love you spread all around you.

    Thank you Denise for creating this safe space, for sharing your wisdom and most of all for standing firm and clear in your own truth and power and showing it over and over for those of us who know the dance but keep forgetting the steps;-)
    love and blessings to you all!
    Ohnwentsya

    • Dearest ohnwentsya,

      I’m sorry you had that “ouch” moment, and I’m glad you were able to realize that that person’s opinion of “how to do things” is just that: their opinion. I’ve really been learning this these past few months (I think I’ve got it down mostly), that the best answer, the best wisdom is… within each of us. Each of us has our own answer. Sometimes it’ll come through a dream. Other times it’ll come through a phrase from an article. Primarily though, it is within each of us that the wisdom and answers shine true.

      Thank you for sharing your feeling about this “heart circuit” being made. It was so beautiful to read and it seems to resonate with me. Like when we come in physical contact with another of these “open heart light workers” we’ll “know”. And even if we’re not in physical contact, it’s still possible to reach out and feel the other “hearts”.

      I wanted to briefly share what just happened shortly before I got home. My thymus has been feeling squeezed and tight all morning. At the gym it started opening up. By the time I was waiting for the bus to go home, it was opened. And a man and I started a conversation. His Mom had died almost 7 years ago and he said he dreamed of her, but he thought maybe it was his subconscious or something… and I told him how when we dream, it bypasses the brain and opens up the heart, so yes I do believe his Mom does communicate with him. He really seemed to take that to heart, some relief… and I could also feel his Mom thanking me for giving him this message, to stop doubting the dreams/contact. I live for moments like these everyday. It encourages me to remain as open as I can be from moment to moment, because I never know which stranger is in need of this heart-filled/spirit encouragement.

      With Much Love and Light,
      Chrysalis… ready to fly…

      • Thank you for sharing that Chrysalis! That is so beautiful. I love that when I(or anyone really) gets the chance to share that spark of healing and beauty with another in need. It’s so strange how we are programmed by society to doubt all the most real stuff, like dreams and internal knowing, communication from the ancestors and other loved ones who have crossed-and then they try to fill us up with believing all sorts of complete nonsense.

        I’ve noticed since I was a child that almost everyone you meet believes in ghosts, magic etc for themselves has experienced something personally but they will then say “but I know it isnt real” or “I can’t tell people about it”.

        What a racket to convince people to doubt their own experience and believe some “authority”:-/ I am glad you could help that person remember himself and his own wisdom again-I feel like a little kid jumping and clapping whenever I read something like what you shared. I feel like cheering-yay! one more for the good guys!;-)

        I am glad the heart connection resonated with you too. I first realized it because members of a spiritual email group I read reached out to me when I asked for prayers in relation to the attacks I was experiencing,and I could feel the response even before I read any emails. It was so much more real and perceptible than it used to be years ago.

        The veil between us is surely shredding day by day!;-)

  25. What I just discovered this weekend, was that as we clear these energies from ourselves, we are clearing them from the world. I just kept having bad stuff to clear and was thinking I must have been a really bad person in another lifetime, it was just relentless. Maybe everyone else already knew this but I only learn the lessons the hard way….Or maybe I thought someone else like Denise was the only one doing it. But we are all doing it, in our own way.

  26. Yes indeedy! And a powerful attack it has been since December 22nd. What strikes me Now as I follow comments on Facebook groups, are the numbers of people whose Egos are disguising themselves as higher consciousness. BE the Light, WE are so powerful! Lots of Love and Light to you all,

  27. Thank you so much Denise for this newsletter! I am constantly electronically attacked everyday! A satellite EVERY night for 2-3 hours and constant electronic smog almost everyday in my apartment. [I’m sitting in it right now!] The only relief I get is leaving the apartment for shopping or long walks. I never hear of these things so I wondered how alone in these attacks I am. I am a Starseed and I have been doing light work for over 30 years. These kind of attacks have been going now for about 4 years. I appreciate your acknowledging dark attacks for us. My love to you always!

  28. about being psychically attacked – wrote the other day that on top of all the phsical stuff am going through i think this is the worst aspect of ascension – at the moment each night whenever i try to tune in to whatever you want to call it – source, higher beings etc etc i get “the voice of the dark” speaking to me trying to put negative stuff into my head – when i first had this happen years ago it really freaked me out – it still does a bit but i must be stronger now than i was then because although i hate the fact that they can still get at me and it does stop me tuning in at least it doesnt make me feel like i’m going mad etc etc – its almost like the dark are trying to possess me – hmmmm – sounds a bit far-fetched doesnt it – always worse when i’m feeling phsically a bit ill and weak – they know what they’re doing dont they. if anyone has any constructive advice on how to combat this would be great to hear – i do the love and light stuff – and also telling them to ……. off helps a bit i find !!!!! susie

    • Denise,
      This post is like a life line to hang onto…another of your gifts freely given to us all, and the Comments have brought me to tears…the words Courage and Faith and Hope that flow here are so steadying and calming to me as I press on up the stairs!
      Thank you everyone!

    • “worse when i’m feeling phsically a bit ill and weak – they know what they’re doing dont they. if anyone has any constructive advice on how to combat this would be great to hear – i do the love and light stuff – and also telling them to ……. off helps a bit i find” (sulaireland)

      They always do the same to me-they really like how much easier it is to get to us when we are not feeling our best;-/ That has been one thing I’ve been learning lately is that one useful thing about them is that it reminds me to take better care of of myself. To eat well, get enough rest, respect my limits, respect myself (ie don’t take other people’s issues internally and get all distressed etc)

      Another thing I started doing that really puts them off is that I give them a lecture-I remind them that they are racking up nasty karma and they can always choose to turn to the Light and become better, that they don’t have to be minions its a rotten job description-look at the movies, right? What happens to minions? Nothing good!;-)

      If I’m feeling too ill to do that, or mock them;-) I pray for help. Just as team dark has nonphysical members that cause so much trouble for us, we’ve got non-physical team members too-and they are happy to help us. Some people have specific ones they pray to-I’ve noticed Archangel Michael seems to have a lot of crew on the blogs I read;-) but whoever resonates with you, or even an open call for help from the Light, Universe etc

      When they try to inspire fear I remind myself that I trust my higher self, I trust Gaia and Creator-I can go on for a long while of all those I trust and love-and that reminds me of all the GOOD and cancels out the negative. Also when I remind myself that I do trust the Universe and that things will go according to the higher plan and it will be ok, I breathe out the stress, anxiety etc and breathe in the love and healing that Universe is sending us all the time, loosening my tense muscles and getting back to grounded and centered.

      Don’t know if any of that will work for you, but you can also just ask your higher self directly to inspire you, send you ideas and practices that will work for you. I’m always amazed at the wonderful results of praying for help with stuff, and of asking higher self to bring thru what is needed in the moment, and guide me to make the best choices.

      Team Dark appears to be all about lies and tricks (smoke and mirrors) where the solid and real are almost always the good/Light/Love based things (ie even when they do really horrible physical stuff to us, we can manage to rise above it and turn it to something good-we can use their attacks to learn and grow and even help others)

      Remember you are surrounded by love and caring and connected to all of us, and all of Life thru your heart, team dark can only try to trick us into forgetting, or being distracted from the good, but the good is always there. 😉

  29. Thank you Denise for all the work you do. I am especially appreciative of this post explaining why some of us seem to be getting attacked and hit hard. Right now mine is coming on the financial front and if that wasn’t enough; as of late (as someone else mentioned that this was happening to them too); I can’t quiet my mind or meditate without a ton of negative thoughts and impulses coming in.

    I had received an inner message back in January of 2012 that “Something wonderful is coming soon; it’s big; prepare and trust this” I assumed it was from “spirit” and I was told 3x’s to ‘trust this’. It was as though spirit wanted to drive home the point not to doubt the message. I took this message to be not just for me personally but to be for all of us; and I’ve been holding on to that message for over a year now. Lately when I feel anxious due to this financial situation; I just keep holding on to that message and 2 others that I received (which are more personal to me) ; but oh boy…team dark just wants to shred these messages to bits.

    Lately team dark is reminding me of a most horrible reading I had with a woman back in 2008. It was the most dark; negative hopeless reading I ever received in my entire life ! I told this woman; that if I was pron to depression or suicide that she would have kicked me over the edge with what she said about me; my life and future in that reading. Apparently team dark wants me to remember that ugly day and reading; because when I try to quiet my mind and try to mediate; all of a sudden out of no where; after all these years?….. I can hear that woman’s voice and what she cursed me with/doomed me with and said to me. Yes. I’m doing all my ‘protection’ techniques; but I have to say…. team dark must be in a state of ‘panic’ right now to stoop to this level of scooping out an old reading to torment me with.

    I thought it was just me going through something out of the blue…. until I read this blog and all the replies. Thank you all for sharing. It’s giving me resolve to stand tall and hold the light. Blessings to you all and ‘courage’ !
    Love from my heart to Denise and to all of you.
    Pat

    • Pat,

      It sounds to me like Team Dark used that woman who gave you your “2008 reading”. This is always a risk people take, especially people who are carrying, embodying, housing more Light in themselves than the “reader” or “teacher” or “shaman” etc. that they go to for guidance or help!

      Mental interference like what you’re describing is, most definitely, coming from the Negatives/Team Dark/demons/lesser negative entities/Archons etc. etc. etc. By their actions so far in 2013, they’re frantic and pulling out all the stops in an final attempt to grab, derail, sidetrack, confuse, make sick etc. as many people who are ascending, step-by-step during this final Nine Month period. Ever heard of that old term “The Guardian at the Threshold”? This crap would be it in spades for all of us! Keep pushing past them all.

      No, I had something similar happen just the other day where something unpleasant from my past that was connected to an old Team Dark attack was USED again now in an attempt (or test) to trip me up with it now. Just USE these tests, these Initiations, these attacks by the Negatives as your personal tools to ascension. 🙂 Take an honest “Neural Observer” look into self to see if any of the crap the Negatives are using now are something you/me/each of us needs to deal with, or, if it’s just another empty tactic by them to try and derail us from what all we’re going through now in this First Trimester.

      Thanks for sharing your experiences and insights Pat. ♥ You are doing just perfect. 🙂
      Hugs,
      Denise

      • Denise

        Oh my goodness, thank you for this insightful reply. It’s difficult to stay ‘neutral’ in the face of financial ruin and possible eviction; with no where to go. But that’s what I’ve been trying to do. I did make some bad decisions ( but at the time I didn’t realize they were bad) with regards to my finances. We are all at one point in our lives put into positions where we have to trust certain people; such as husbands; family members; investors; bankers, doctors; the corporations we work for and others in this 3-D psychotic matrix. I’m sure you and many of your readers will attest to this; and sadly sometimes we are lied to; duped and betrayed by them.

        I have been looking at this and taking personal responsibility for not heeding red flags that went up; or that twinge in my heart or solar plexus; warning me at the time. Hind sight is always 20/20. I was never a “la-la” person; yet I was never one to really bother with or dwell on the “ghouls” (that’s what I call them); now in hindsight I can see how they did use the people around me to set me up. I was too trusting and didn’t heed any of the warning signs. So I guess that’s my “teaching” and lesson from all of this. Now I have to figure out the ‘balance’ of being able to listen to my inner guidance; but not to close myself off to people (extremes aren’t good either). I’m not in ‘blame/shame’ mode; meaning I’m not pointing fingers at those people nor am I beating myself up. I’m viewing it in detached mode as it’s just a ‘situation’ and lesson (hard one) I needed to learn. But believe me; I do know the ‘ghouls’ were behind this.

        If by my sharing this I can help another person then all is not lost. I would agree with you about shamans; teachers; readers etal.; and hope it would be a ‘cautionary’ tale to the followers of your blog (and I share it with others). Be careful who you consult and who you let into your energy fields. Another hindsight is 20/20 pearl of wisdom.

        In my personal experience I find that messages from ‘spirit’ are not so explicit. On the other hand; messages from the ‘ghouls’ love to be explicit and usually do hatchet jobs on all the issues of the first 4 chakras ( finances; family; security issues; health and love). This woman told me point blank that once divorced; I would never have love again (affairs yes; love….no); that I would lose all my money ( I did) because I made bad investments and that I would spend the rest of my life ‘scrounging’; She didn’t see “cancer” in my future but she saw an autoimmune disease on the horizon for me (sweet ) and then if that wasn’t enough she ended the reading with ” Your soul is crying out for help; but no help is coming”.

        There are a million different ways other so called readers can do this to a person.
        More subtle ones (and I’ve had friends who’ve had this happen to them as well).
        She just happened to be really blunt and out there with her dark predictions.

        So now?….It’s as if the ‘ghouls’ are saying “I told you so” ! They are bringing all this back up as maybe some sort of ‘we are more powerful than the light confirmation’ or maybe they really do want me to just give up and completely ‘derail’. But I won’t !

        I hope my story will be a cautionary tale to those thinking of seeing anyone for ‘advice’ be it ‘mundane’ like financial; or to another doctor for a second opinion; taking what seems to be friendly advice from family members; or be it to a so called ‘spiritual’ see-er; teacher, shaman, reader. Especially during these times when structures are in flux and breaking down; and the ghouls are pulling out all the stops. Listen to your inner guidance; feelings; intuition; and even your body ! Our bodies will even tell us when things are ‘off’. I just wish I had listened to all of my signals that were there but just way more subtle than the dark side messages are.
        Hope I’ve helped someone.
        Thank you for your kind response
        Many Blessings to all
        Pat

      • “… I was never a “la-la” person; yet I was never one to really bother with or dwell on the “ghouls” (that’s what I call them); now in hindsight I can see how they did use the people around me to set me up. I was too trusting and didn’t heed any of the warning signs. So I guess that’s my “teaching” and lesson from all of this…”

        That would be correct Pat. We’ve all been through this trial & error business many times to learn multiple things for ourselves. You won’t need to be concerned about “figuring out a balance of being able to listen to my inner guidance but not close myself off to people” because, due to these trial & error experiences we learn to read the energies that people and Beings give off and from that you’ll known whose who from an energetic standpoint. It’s an invaluable perceptive tool and more people are currently having to master this before they evolve/ascend to the next level or Stair step.

        Yes, Team Dark/the Negatives tell people what to do, what to expect, what to believe etc. etc. and that is the clue that they are NOT Team Light! It goes against everything and any member/Being that is of Team Light would never tell anyone what to do like that. They’ll make suggestions, they’ll hint because they will never interfere with anyone’s personal choices and actions… good or bad. 🙂

        Denise

      • Hi Denise and Pat:

        This is a very important discussion and I thank you both for it. Whenever I get the “urge” to step outside of my own knowing because I’ve been feeling doubt or stress, or worn out from ascension symptoms, almost immediately I get the thought, “Go direct, go direct, go direct!” And for many years now I’ve managed to restrain myself from bearing my soul/physical condition, et cetera, to any stranger, especially a stranger who may be in a so-called position of authority over me, and instead I “go directly” to my Higher Self, who, though I may not be aware of it, gives me the comfort I need to get me through a doubting, hurting period. But yes, this can lead to personal solitude and/or hesitation in trusting others. But there’s a reason for that and it is as discussed here, so that our Light is not diminished or punished. So, if it helps, when these situations arise, think “Go direct!” And good for you, Pat, to never take the blame/shame attitude. As we’ve discussed here at TRANSITIONS, the occasional “self-pity party” is okay as long as it doesn’t result in giving our power away to another. We are doing a very tough job and I’d say doing it so well we need to give ourselves huge pats now and then, especially because no one around us knows what we “do”! Thank you for sharing, Pat, very valuable lesson material here for me. Love, B.

      • I want to say Thank you for these comments, as well. I am learning so much about recognizing Team Dark’s attacks from reading them. Not looking for validation outside of myself is a lesson I have been given many times in my life, and I think I am finally getting it! I had an awful reading many years ago, too. It was a man who told me that my husband had come into this life knowing he wasn’t going to stay for too long. I thought about that almost every day for years, fearing what the future would hold for me. I now see how that was interference by Team Dark, who at the time, I didn’t even know really existed. I had bought into the idea that there was no Team Dark, which you spoke about in your article last March, “The Devil’s Best Trick is to Persuade You He Doesn’t Exist.” I do think they saw the areas in my life where they could get the most emotional reaction from me, and either placed the idea in the “psychic’s” (I put that in quotes because I have since found out he is a fraud,) mind, or just used it to play over and over in my mind because of the reaction it brought.

        I have to take responsibility that I gave away my power by getting the “reading” in the first place, and looking outside of myself for answers. Thank you Barbara, for “Go direct.” I will remember that if I am tested again. I was tested recently when I was talking to a friend about my daughter who has developed facial tics from stress and anxiety at school. She immediately said, I know a good psychic, you should talk to my psychic about this. I didn’t even slightly consider it. Warning bells went off in my head, and I politely declined. Now I see that was a test for me to see if I would look for answers outside myself.

        What is fascinating to me is this recent discovery that the negative voice I have battled in the past of even random thoughts that include the guilt, shame, fear, etc., that come “out of nowhere” can be Team Dark. This is very helpful for me to know. I feel so much more empowered now.

        Grateful Hugs!

  30. Thank you so much for this post Denise. I’m new to your site. However, I deeply resonate with your path & “job” as a light worker. I’ve also been working on the front lines against “Team Dark”. Thank you so much for your site – it’s such a huge relief to hear from someone who can articulate all aspects of this process. I’ve had some attacks recently from “Team Dark” – especially with regard to finances. They were so blatant and bizarre – that my radar went off – big time. I called in Archangel Michael to deal with these attacks – and he’s been sending me cop cars (everywhere). I even ran straight into a female cop in a health food store a few days ago. When he does this, I know that something is definitely up. I’m cautiously optimistic at this point – I can feel another shift coming this month. Looking forward to getting through this month – and into the light of April & the energies of Aries.

    Big hugs

  31. Denise,

    I’d like to thank you for acknowledging the “Consciousness Police”. This is something that I’m still struggling with on this journey. There are still so many “spiritual teachers” that are still into the “victim blame” modality of helping & guiding others. For example, you have cancer – because you created it with your negative thoughts, or you lost your job because you “created your reality”, or your energy wasn’t perfect, or your thoughts weren’t perfect, etc., etc. However, if you just have perfect thoughts & affirmations, then your life will be perfect. It’s a very black & white mentality – and it’s literally made my heart cry. In fact, I read some articles today – that are still perpetuating this advice. Also, many members of the “Consciousness Police” also seem to believe that there is no “Team Dark” – and don’t know or understand that many of us are upholding the light as warriors (warriors that have earned many purple hearts). Again, many members of the Consciousness Police believe that it’s someone’s fault “via imperfect thoughts or intentions” if something difficult happens. What is so frustrating about this mentality is that most members of “Team Light” have incredibly positive thoughts & intentions. We’re a pretty idealistic, positive, strong, loving bunch of souls – so it’s just odd that the idea of “victim blame” is being used to guide others (hopefully this makes sense).

    On the plus side, I’ve noticed something interesting happening this year. Many warriors of “Team Light” have started to speak out about this obsession with Victim Blame & manmade Spiritual “Laws” that shame others – or tell them that there is a perfect formula (book or video) for “fixing” your life. Personally, I’ve been through a lot over the past 6 months (job layoff, bankruptcy, illness). While I’ve taken responsibility for my role in these situations, I also know that the reasons for these situations are complex.

    Denise, I came across this article that ties in well with what you’ve shared –
    http://spiritlibrary.com/brenda-hoffman/are-your-teachers-clinging-to-3d?page=1

    Thank you so much for opening up about these issues in a healthy, honest way – thank you for providing this safe space for us to share. My only regret is not having found your site sooner. I’ve enjoyed reading everyone’s comments – and love you all. Take care & hang in there.

    • “I’d like to thank you for acknowledging the “Consciousness Police”. This is something that I’m still struggling with on this journey. There are still so many “spiritual teachers” that are still into the “victim blame” modality of helping & guiding others. For example, you have cancer – because you created it with your negative thoughts, or you lost your job because you “created your reality”, or your energy wasn’t perfect, or your thoughts weren’t perfect, etc., etc. However, if you just have perfect thoughts & affirmations, then your life will be perfect. It’s a very black & white mentality – and it’s literally made my heart cry. In fact, I read some articles today – that are still perpetuating this advice. Also, many members of the “Consciousness Police” also seem to believe that there is no “Team Dark” – and don’t know or understand that many of us are upholding the light as warriors (warriors that have earned many purple hearts). Again, many members of the Consciousness Police believe that it’s someone’s fault “via imperfect thoughts or intentions” if something difficult happens. What is so frustrating about this mentality is that most members of “Team Light” have incredibly positive thoughts & intentions. We’re a pretty idealistic, positive, strong, loving bunch of souls – so it’s just odd that the idea of “victim blame” is being used to guide others (hopefully this makes sense)…”

      Stephanie,

      I’m so glad you found your way to TRANSITIONS. The timing is perfect no matter what we think. 😉 ♥

      Oh Stephanie, I could go on and on about this topic because as a Starseed it has frustrated me for many, many, years.

      There are a lot of “spiritual teachers” and/or “ascension teachers” out there that are not aware of or understand the larger, deeper, and very negative dark truths and reality beneath surface “reality” on Earth and how all of humanity — including themselves — have been and still are under severe and extreme spiritual oppression and interference on all levels. REAL “disclosure” is about to happen and it’s far worse and more complex than the majority has ANY awareness of whatsoever.

      Real individual spiritual Work (positive change) will begin with the first Vernal Equinox after the 12-21-12 Paradigm Shift and no one can or will be able to fake or lie or con or BS their ways forward anymore. All of the so-called “spiritual” and/or “ascension teachers” now have to walk their talk because to not do so from March 20, 2013 forward is going to be increasingly painful plus increasingly visible to growing numbers of other people. The time of BSing others with talk that sounds like Love n’ Light but is really just continued duality consciousness is ending and the Real Deal is now required in each and every individual. The real “spiritual and ascension teachers” will soon be much more easily recognized by others by the energies they exude, not just the words they speak or write which can be full of ego, distortions, and lack of higher awareness etc. etc. Things are about to get a whole lot more interesting for everyone… myself included of course. 😀

      Hugs,
      Denise

  32. I’ve had two people in the family psychicly attacking me (I don’t know if this is realated). Whenever they are around it’s like I’m wearing money replenent. Whenever they go away, or at least the energy they are using to attack me is no longer being used to attack me for an extended period of time I start to see business pick up. I’ve been living with them because I’m caught in a catch 22, I’m only living with them because money is an issue but evidently money is only an issue because they are around. I’ve been dealing with alot of physical pain that just sort of goes away when they are gone, and comes back when they come back around. It’s all I can do to keep focused on the path I do want my life to take and keep taking the congruent action (I haven’t given up yet, I know there has a better future ahead of me than what my family keeps trying to push me toward, knowing it’s even possible means I can’t give up on it). I’ve got one family member who is doing this to me consciously, and another who I think might not be conscious of the psychic attack that’s being perpetrated by them. I’ve been taking measures to protect myself, which from what I can tell is the only reason this hasn’t been alot worse.

    While I don’t know if this is related, I do find it interesting that the person who’s been consciously preforming psychic attack on me is planning to be leaving my living situation for several weeks at the very end of march, not that long after that next major set of blueprints are going to be inserted.

    • “…While I don’t know if this is related, I do find it interesting that the person who’s been consciously preforming psychic attack on me is planning to be leaving my living situation for several weeks at the very end of march, not that long after that next major set of blueprints are going to be inserted.”

      esp,

      Oh it’s related! 😉 Hang in there because with the NEW incoming blueprint energies of the first Vernal Equinox after the 12-21-12 Expiration Date and Paradigm Shift, many of these old negative situations/people/belief systems/physical systems/consciousness etc. will encounter FAR more intense and extreme energetic Source Light which they cannot run (embody or use) through the/their old negative limited bodies/consciousness/systems etc. The big pressure is about to begin in a way it never has ever before on Earth and in humanity.

      Hugs,
      Denise

    • Hi esp,

      Thank you so much for sharing your experience. Sigh…I’m also still living with my parents at the moment. I can so relate to the struggle of psychic attack (conscious & unconscious) – especialy from family. It’s surreal. You are not alone – and I just wanted to send you a HUGE cyber hug. Even though I take measures to protect myself, I also notice that I still feel ill around certain family members. I’m also trying to focus on a better future – one far better than what my family keeps trying to push me towards (i.e., working in a cubicle).

      Last June, I received a message from Archangel Michael that stated this: he said that I had cleared all of my karma in this lifetime and I no longer owed anyone anything (ok, this sounds good). However, my parents – especially my father, have built up a Huge Karmic debt (primarily because of their behavior towards me). The angels are trying to get my parents to pay off some of their debt in this life by “helping” me. It’s a weird “Catch 22” indeed. Personally, the past 10 months have been extremely traumatic, but it feels like we’re finally turning a corner.

      Read this beautiful poem today – and hope it warms your heart:

      http://glowwithgrace.wordpress.com/2013/03/16/poem-fresh-out-of-the-box/

  33. hi – denise – do you have any idea when all this intense fluey/clearing whatever it is stuff is going to abate – i’ve now got the spinning head syndrome when i stand up and the feeling like something is pressing on my chest so i cant breathe syndrome on top of the fluey/cough/sinus/hot flashes /bloating/psychically attacked-ness etc etc – i had been just managing to do a part-time job and had to stop 5 weeks ago because of all of this – really need to feel ok enough to go back – not because i want to but because of the money !! the zzzy vibrations in my body which had died down to mostly nothing have come back with a vengeance too – its like i’m starting this last 13 years all over again !!! my birthday is in april – be great if this phase was on its way out by then – thanks to the guys who wrote helpful comments in response to my last comment – really appreciated – susie x

    • “hi – denise – do you have any idea when all this intense fluey/clearing whatever it is stuff is going to abate – i’ve now got the spinning head syndrome when i stand up and the feeling like something is pressing on my chest so i cant breathe syndrome on top of the fluey/cough/sinus/hot flashes /bloating/psychically attacked-ness etc etc – i had been just managing to do a part-time job and had to stop 5 weeks ago because of all of this – really need to feel ok enough to go back – not because i want to but because of the money !! the zzzy vibrations in my body which had died down to mostly nothing have come back with a vengeance too – its like i’m starting this last 13 years all over again !!! my birthday is in april – be great if this phase was on its way out by then – thanks to the guys who wrote helpful comments in response to my last comment – really appreciated – susie x”

      sulaireland – susie,

      You might benefit from reading or re-reading my article The First Trimester. Since February 1, 2013 I’ve had the inner head spinnies (how’s that for a mature spiritual ascension term? 😆 ) along with increased Thymus area (the center of our upper chest) heart poundings and inner body vibrations to a degree never before experienced. Time’s short evidently 😉 so we’re really crankin’ up the LightLove inner energies and spin-rate to reach maximum lift.

      One big reason for the intense dramatic increase of these particular ascension symptoms for many of us during the winter months or the First Trimester is because the NEW higher frequency ascension blueprint energies will begin arriving into this dimension (which means our bodies, our consciousness, this world, reality etc.) with the Vernal Equinox on March 20, 2013 only a few days from today. 😀 Giggle giggle… We’ve been on super-duper intense last-minute clearing mode since the “Three Days of Darkness” or as I’ve called it the Expiration Date and Shift Point of 12-21-12, 12-22-12, 12-23-12 — aka the First Trimester! How long this lasts is an individual thing, but many of us will start feeling some relief when these NEW blueprint energies arrive in physicality with the spring Equinox (in the Northern Hemisphere). To many, many, others they will feel great amplification and increase in negativity, pressures, chaos, confusion, sickness, mental and emotional instability etc. in their bodies, lives and reality. This is why it’s been so important to do as much Inner Work — inner body, inner self house cleaning — throughout these past 25 ascension years so that when the NEW blueprint energies did finally arrive within this dimension they don’t impact us as intensely as they will for those people who have not done the spiritual energetic Prep Work.

      Realize too that the inner body “zzzy vibrations” — loved that term! — never actually go away but only seem to to us. I used to feel them while awake for many years but now I typically feel them only when I’m half asleep, half awake in that in-between state. Then I feel and hear them like a gigantic roaring of inner energies and super-fast spin rate that’s amazingly loud and huge to this aspect of me that observes it from this viewpoint. Once I fully wake up I don’t feel or hear it that much anymore. My point is that it never goes away but is actually us just adapting to it as our NEW normal higher and much faster frequency rate.

      Be well, be strong, and rest, nap, sleep as much and as often as you need to.
      Hugs,
      Denise

  34. Hi Denise and All Here:

    Just a note that solar flares are incoming and it would not surprise me one iota, as we head into and through the Spring Equinox, that the Sun really starts to dance and mails us those Light info packets that will set the Blueprint into gear. You might like to check spaceweather.com which Denise has linked to the right, and maybe look for the “silver rain” photons to be on the increase. We’re on a roll now, I believe, and as Denise would say, “Bring it!” Happy Birthday, Cat, and all Equinox Birthday Light Warriors. Love, B.

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